Rare in life

When I went to school, I always thought about how I would do, how I would live my life, how I would do what I liked, and how I would love my people. However, when I really leave school and go to the society, I can find out where I am so comfortable! Everywhere is a name, everywhere is gravel, no matter how rare.

For example, I used to know that if I do not agree with a person, I would be hated. Even not speaking is guilty. How hard it is to be human! I think, if there is an afterlife, make a fish or a bird. Although there is no way to avoid natural enemies and shotgun, animals will never say that they deserve to be eaten.

Other houses, friends, women, and uncomfortable places are more annoying. Where can we be at ease in our life? Even more annoying, we are weak and incompetent. I don't know if I really don't have the skills, but I am still pretending to be forced. It has always been like this. Wherever you are, you are willing to stay at the end. This is true in school, in company, and between friends. I really don't know why my life is so depressed and sleepy.

But who will talk about all these troubles? What then? Who knows what it means?

Less than a year after I got out of school, my school's ideals and aspirations had nothing to do with me. Maybe, I don't have any ideals or aspirations. It's just that my illusion is too heavy. What are the ideals of such a society and country? What else will be the ideal? I am more concerned about my own affairs. There are only a hundred thousand things around you in your life. Why do you think too far away? I can't think of it.