Replan my future on holidays

Today, we received the bonus from the outstanding employees award. Just over 10 days ago, the first time I got my salary in the next half-month after I got a higher salary, I found that my salary in the past half-month is almost the same as my salary in the past month, then I felt a little confused ......

Over the past years, I had to describe my own performance with "dissatisfaction", or even "bad". My work has no enthusiasm, no ambition, and no imagination, afraid of challenges, unable to concentrate ......

Recently, I took over the permission system research and development work. A big difference from my previous work is that the manager needs me to consider the needs and analyze the needs. I am a programmer. I used to design a system, write code, and never perform requirement analysis. In the first month, I did "requirement analysis" because of inertial thinking, in fact, I thought about the problem from the technical implementation point of view. As a result, the two meetings made me feel a lot different from the manager's ideas ......

My assistant director was familiar with me and immediately asked me if I felt a lot frustrated and wanted to relieve my stress. In fact, for me, the feeling of frustration is not big, but I feel unable to do it. The more I think, the more I feel that my work cannot be carried out, the more I start to consider whether this task is suitable for me.

After some ideological struggles, I gradually discovered that this is actually a rare opportunity for training. I don't want to keep developing code. This is only an IT worker, do you remember that I once proposed to the assistant director that I want to do the requirement analysis and system design work? Isn't it an opportunity to exercise now? Although I hate writing documents and code. However, to develop at a higher level, you must have the habit of thinking with bold ideas. You must learn to write documents and express your needs. This is a necessary change.

Recently, I have been reading the "Brave Choice" of Kali fiorina. Kali is a typical change-loving and challenging person. Today I read a chapter and like her sentence: "experience tells me that to make it easier for others to accept the future, we need to let them know that there is no way to go." Yes. To accept adjustments and future changes, you must let yourself know that there is no way to go back.

My work for eight consecutive days has finally ended. In, due to various reasons, I was unable to concentrate on my work and suffered poor performance. Take a long vacation, sort out your thoughts, and plan your future, including work and life.

In any case, when I come back from the long vacation, I must put on work with a brand new look, hoping to win the second quarter's outstanding employee award.