Three years of graduation, living a shameful life.

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I am 24 years old, graduated three years, and live a shameful life

Detail point, the general situation of the day is like this, generally in the morning about 10 up, generally do not eat breakfast, get up and open the computer directly online,

Mainly to visit the forum, like, www.im286.com Webmaster network www.admin5.com and is my own station Zheng Chinese network www.zhengyuanchang.net

Usually play on the network to around 12 o'clock noon, 8630.html "> sometimes to XXX once, casually eat some lunch, and then watch the night before the computer hanging overnight download movie ...

3 o'clock in the afternoon, XXX once, next take a bath, continue to the Internet, see the forum or post

5:30 P.M., the parents of working abroad to cook dinner.

PM6 point about half, family eat.

PM7 Point--12, surf the internet, or think about what the film, or a person to go out for a lap, usually summer, now winter is too cold I will not go out, we have a relatively large shopping district, a lot of beautiful, I compare often to places.

When my mom gets paid, she gives me about 300 of my pocket money, no accident at the beginning of the month, and sometimes my mom's boss is in arrears. When I get my allowance, I usually go for a salsa dance, go alone, and be ashamed of my friends. I usually spend about half an hour to see which is the most beautiful beauty, then find them to jump 2~3 first, consumption is not high, one night is 30~50 block of money. Sometimes I get pocket money, will also go to miss, is also first walked 10 dozen to see if there are beautiful women, and then choose the most beautiful that play, once a lady and I finished kissing my forehead, told me to leave the phone number. I thought about it or refused, I think I and she are the people on the edge of the city, but I am afraid she will bring some four people come to me, I am afraid of trouble.

I one months 300 yuan of pocket money basically enough, because eat is at home to eat, sometimes my mother will be in the hours when I eat, usually steamed bun steamed these, sometimes also have delicious, such as sandwiched beef pine bread and cakes these. Sometimes she hides it until the next morning, lest I eat it at night. Sometimes I get up in the morning and see the food on the table, and I know she hid it last night. I also smoke, one bag a day. is generally 2 pieces of 5 of the red Camellia, sometimes good mood, such as a good before coming out of the big tracts waiting to see what, to buy a package of expensive cigarettes, such as 5 dollars Red River these. I remember watching the Transformers, I even bought a package of 7 yuan of Hongtashan, has been reluctant to smoke, and red camellia mixed together smoked, 5 days before the end. I remember the beginning of this year, my father's boss gave him a packet of blue sedan, he brought me back, I still have the shell, out of the time to install the red Camellia smoke, this also seems to have a bit of face.

In the past almost a year, I was happiest when the weekend, because the weekend when a friend of mine do not work, you can go shopping with me, or drink some beer, see the beauty of these, I and he did not have a girlfriend. I look like, he's not very good looking. He is in a public institution as a contract worker, one months to take about 1000, now play the stock and fund, it did not find me to play. Sometimes I miss him, and I ask myself whether I am gay, and the result is negative, because I am too lonely.

Because the family is poor, can't afford to buy a house, I still live in the old house with my parents, no girlfriend, also never dare to imagine marriage. Sometimes I feel very pathetic, worthy of sympathy, because I am not a bad person, and I contacted the people said I am honest, no mind. Even I am kind and ready to help others. I have been in the previous class, but also contacted some people, feeling very disgusting: the original person really can not face to unimaginable degree, when he (she) old when I do not know he (she) take what face their past.

Some of my classmates got married, some students got rich, and some got promoted. Last year when I quietly from the University class QQ group, they sometimes said to make me feel very embarrassed, I think not to see, but curiosity and forced me to see. It was hard to see, so I retreated. Later they did not look for me, it is estimated that the group is also very lively now, but after all, and I have nothing to do, before I was in the group also basically did not speak, just a person in the back of the screen quietly look.