13th Chapter The Catharsis Hug

In Sunday, as usual, we packed our clothes and went home with our luggage. From the school's way home, the two-hour drive did not find a can support the conversation to 5 minutes of the topic. Everyone is very quiet, I sat with Lin Zisu, the car when Haili deliberately opened up with my distance, sat down to the side of Huang Jiamin. Xiao Qian and her Lu Yupeng sit together, this small enemy, from kindergarten began to greasy griping at everything crooked to now, is a pair of people envy to toothache lovers. Look at them two let me often think of Wenwushuangquan, I have never griping at everything with him, the hands have not been pulled. I and he is not counted as a male and female friend is also an unknown, for my relationship with him, I do not know what I will do in the future. Want to give up not willing, want to further and unwilling.

I hope to find a person who loves me, like Wenwushuangquan love me, but let me and real with Wenwushuangquan in my heart and feel extremely uncomfortable. After all, there is an endless gap between me and him, we have different degrees of education, our ideals are different, our outlook on life, values, and future goals and the pursuit of life are different, how can we live together in the future. There is so much distance between me and wenwushuangquan that nothing can be narrowed. I am not a willing to sacrifice their own people. I do not want to stay in the countryside to be a peasant woman, I have my dream, I want to live a better life, elegant people envy life.

The car arrived not far from the village, we got off the bus. I deliberately approached Haili, want to talk with her about the day to say sorry, but haili in Huang Jiamin there. I whispered her, she did not have the slightest reaction to me, but with Huang Jiamin walk closer. This silent injury, like a knife in the heart of ruthless cutting. I raise my head to suck my nose, I know my eyes turn red. I have never been so snubbed, I have always been a Qianqian princess, is the mother of the teacher spoil the baby, is a lot of students looking up the stars, and today I put down the shelf to apologize but was neglected, I really feel wronged to the pole.

I fell at their last, and no one noticed me. They are hanging on the shoulder to walk occasionally joke, only I alone in the last side silently follow. I suddenly found that it seemed like a long time ago. Just before I walked in the front, face floating smile, imagine when I have to get the first name of the news to mother when mother will have what kind of face. Now I was pulled to the end, a person alone sad.

Yes, I abandoned them a long time ago, not because they abandoned me now.

Near to a fork junction, I saw Xiao Qian lying in the ear of Lu Yupeng said what, then heard the Lu Yupeng wanton smile, like a bald eagle found the sound of the prey. When everyone else throws a curious gaze. Xiao Qian quickly covered the mouth of Lu Yupeng, smiled to us said nothing, nothing.

At the fork Junction we all separated, I and Xiao Qian, Lu Yupeng is the same road. I was suddenly curious to know what Xiao Qian had told Lu Yupeng just now. I know that Xiao Qian will not hide from me, because we are sisters.

"Xiao Qian, what did you just say to make Lu Yupeng like that?" "I tried to dress in a casual tone," he said.

"Oh, no, nothing." "Xiao Qian still used that tone of voice said, the face of the smile can't hide."

"It was Xiao Qian's mother who was pregnant. "Lu Yupeng to reply, said finished also directed at Xiao Qian crowded eyebrows." Xiao Qian stared at her eyes, the right hand still do not forget to Lu Yupeng arm on the PAT.

"Oh, isn't it?" "See Xiao Qian so I have no intention to listen again." I and small Qian's distance was pulled away a lot, before talking about the small Qian unexpectedly to me also will have to conceal, and in small Qian heart of that love and friendship of the balance, now very obviously love to a little more.

"Well, and the boy, Yingying, do you know what this means?" "Lu Yupeng," replied the

"Oh, don't know oh, what does that mean?" ”

"Hem hem, that means that after the small Qian will not have to stay at home, then when we grow up we can rest assured that the far away, want to go there, and do not have to keep the parents around to take care of them." ”

"Oh, that's the way it is." "Lu Yupeng words, reminds me again Li Haili thing, Li Haili dropout is also because of this." I wanted to tell them what I thought, but when it came to my mouth, I swallowed it back. I do not want to share with them, I want revenge, revenge small Qian's heavy color light friend. But this kind of revenge makes me feel my heart hurts deeper and bigger.

"Yingying, you think, I have a brother, Jia-Min has a sister, son Rain has a younger brother, Bindong New also has a brother, Li Haili originally has a brother, we are not only child, only you, small Qian is our 7 people of the only child, if you have been the only child, how to do? Have you ever thought about it? "

I shook my head.

"If you have been an only child, when your parents are old, you must have one person to shoulder the obligation to support them." And when you grow up, they won't want you to go away. They want you to stay by their side. Although it is selfless to say that Mother Love and father, they may not tie you down. But you'll have the heart to go to the city alone. Do they stay in the countryside? ”

"That ... They can go to the city too ...? "I just said half of what my mother told me a few years ago, she is not going to go anywhere else, she is not willing to dad, she is not willing to that home, she wants to keep that piece of land."

"They've lived here for a lifetime, do you think they'll leave their land?" And they are all rural people, they will adapt to the city's life? "Lu Yupeng shrugged," will not, they have been accustomed to the rural life, accustomed to the neighborhood mutual help and chattering, they can not stand in the city, in their hearts have been hidden in the rural people's inferiority. They are not accustomed to the city's indifference, they will not take the initiative to integrate into the city, the urban people do not return to their own initiative, because they despise our rural people's vulgar, no quality. Due to the comprehensive consideration, our father and mother will not be willing to live in the city. ”

"Well," I nodded, "you seem to have a little bit of a reason for that." ”

"How is a point of truth, is big and reasonable." I have thought about many times, if the small Qian or only child, when we get married when his parents will not put people hard to my ruzhui to their home, hanging, wipe neck, elope, hehe, I have thought. But now there is no need to worry about the future, her mother is pregnant, in the future will not put people have no reason to go. ”

"Oh, you have enough to think of." ”

"Of course, this is our business, of course I have to think about it all at once." You say is not ah, my little Qian Qian. Lu Yupeng with his hand stroked the face of Xiao Qian.

Xiao Qian left hand holding Lu Yupeng, the right hand to hold a white fist. Put your fist on Lu Yupeng's chest in a very angry manner, but the anger in your face hides sweet. The two curved eyebrows are the best proof of the sweetness of the heart.

"We go first, ah, Yingying, a will Yu Peng and go to my home, my mother said a long time did not see him, but also want to see her future son-in-law, hehe." "Xiao Qian said.

"Well," I nodded, watching them both snuggle up and disappear in the alley at the entrance, but the heart is sour.

When I came home, my mother was playing egg soup, tomato and egg soup. After the meal is done, we eat in the yard, blowing the cool breeze of summer evening.

Wenwushuangquan come to me at night, I suddenly want to go out with him, the day by too much repression, there has been a thing pressure on the chest, people uncomfortable. But I did not tell mother, this is the girl's worry! This is the first time I feel these feelings belong to me only, I can deal with them, I should not tell others. Growth is like this, I close my eyes may be able to hear the sound of my heart growth.

The night noisy a day cicada stopped barking, in the east of the village in the open space, is the year I was quarantined in that place, elm lush melancholy still, but two years have not long thick. I and Wenwushuangquan in the vacant space around a few trees bored walk, turn round. The moonlight sprinkled a land outside the forest, and the farmland was white.

"Hey, can I have a little fire?" "I shouted Wenwushuangquan.

"Well," Wenwushuangquan took out the lighter and found something flammable and the wood was on fire.

The yellow flame was beating, and it turned out to be the situation in which I was quarantined, and the boy who was sitting by the fire beside me in a shining star. I looked up and stared at Wenwushuangquan, already a six -year-old boy, the neck of the Adam's Apple has been bulging up, the upper lip is also vaguely black beard,175 around the stature, there is a pair of very clean beautiful eyes.

"Hey, Wenwushuangquan, do you like me?" "I blurted out, almost without thinking.

Wenwushuangquan by my sudden problem frightened, hurriedly back to two steps, and then looked behind to see, make sure no one later looked to me this side.

"I ask you like me?" Wenwushuangquan "I repeat," I said.

"Well, like that. Wenwushuangquan with his right hand to the tip of the nose, looking at the fire said.

Why "I felt my eyes flashing with tears.

"Uh ..."

"When did you start liking me?" ”

"Very early, very early, I do not know, do not remember, have always liked it." ”

"Can you hold it for a moment?" "My heart is empty and uncomfortable, like being hollowed out by something," organs.

Wenwushuangquan looked at me and did not believe what he had just heard.

"Hold Me, Wenwushuangquan," I said again.

Wenwushuangquan walk slowly around the fire came over, to my face, stretched his hands dare not move. I threw myself on his shoulder, and after a long time the Wenwushuangquan's hand was slowly folded.

Why Why does the person who likes me not others but Wenwushuangquan? Why not Lu Yupeng? Why not bindong new, or other people who can go to school with me, but wenwushuangquan such a fool. "My heart was so wild that tears flowed down my cheeks, and Wenwushuangquan's shirt was wet. I want to squeeze a smile like Xiao Qian said sorry, but found that the face of the strength to squeeze a smile did not.

13th Chapter The Catharsis Hug