2014, I learned something.

2015 has been over the past 2 months, about last year's summary has been delayed, while just after the end of the year is not so busy, to carefully summarize.

In the past year, about how much technology or other expertise has been learned, here do not want to go to scrutiny, mainly want to talk about their own ideas and actions on the ascension, at least as a great progress.

Competition and sharing

In My big kingdom, all the people from childhood to middle school, high school, university and the workplace, are surrounded by the people to give tangible and intangible pressure, forcing themselves to stand out in this social group, the standout. For this reason, we have to compete with others, with classmates, and colleagues, and tens of thousands of strangers contend, it seems only to climb to others, is the so-called success. Naturally, some people do not want to share and discuss themselves with others, which reminds me of when I was studying at the time, the lab has a doctor Z, write a code or paper are afraid of someone to see, if you have a problem to talk to him never go deep, unless he has a problem to discuss with you. In contrast, the company has a cattle man L, whose learning ability and thoughtful thinking is really a variety of envy envy hate, but l like to share, all kinds of code documents without reservation, for he thought that understanding of the difficult place will be careful to tell their own views, is really a rare learning partner. I have always been a slightly introverted person, character by nature, for the competition, or share, are more passive. Do not like to take the initiative to find others, but others find me, can also be discussed without reservation.

Last year, I was fortunate to cooperate with the project, and he discussed a lot of problems, influenced by it is quite big, one day suddenly realize that the competition between themselves and others seems meaningless, the important thing is whether oneself has been improved and promoted. The real competitor is himself. And in this process, sharing with people can be a win, faster to promote their own ascension.

In this regard, it is not difficult to think clearly, in order to guide their behavior is the difficulty of the problem. Since according to that idea to work, study, the whole person feel relaxed a lot, and to learn the process, but also can actually feel their own and others common progress of joy.

Equal

Last year, because of the emotional problems caused a lot of doubts and heart knot, trying to read to the doubts. See the Moral Sutra and entangled in the Confucian Analects of Zen, the feelings of the heart knot did not untie, but let oneself to human equality has changed. Always think that they are advocating equality, but in the face of certain weaker than their own groups, the heart often a sense of superiority. Entangled in the said Zen "Tao, different not for the conspiracy", re-segmentation and annotation let me touch quite deep, datong must have different, not the side can to Datong, Confucius of the world Datong by different and not phase performance incisively and vividly. Different can have the myriad forms of the world, not the same as the capacity is large, equal treatment of various social strata, can become the world of Datong.

This allows me to reexamine myself and think about what is true equality. Of course, the current may not reach the same level of the entangled, but compared to the previous self, but also improved a lot.

The Meaning of my life

Eventually still have to return to this problem, a few years ago hospital, there is a kind of people will die his words also good feeling, one months lying in bed on their own consideration of this problem, perhaps was not fully into the society, thinking about the problem is relatively simple, feel that their life is the most important family and affection, Oneself most should live a happy life, only this is enough, the other is the illusion only, so that in the then a long time, all very like to happy everyday encourage and comfort themselves.

Now, formally into this reality of the material Society, relatives and happiness is still important, but it needs the corresponding material basis to protect, such circumstances, the natural center of gravity will be some adjustment, often accidentally go more and more biased. Last year, the emotional factors forced themselves to think again about the problem, a person away from their relatives and friends in Shanghai, what is the meaning of the work, 3 years later, what to do? 5 years later, 10 years later? The deeper the problem, the more fearful and fearful it is, the more hasty it is to be afraid of his life. Fear, because they think too much and do too little, although this question has not yet clear answer, but in the next time still need to continue to think, but also need to brave try. But no matter now or later, my life, relatives always the most heavy, happy can not regret.

2014, I learned something.