2016.3.30Change Myself

a long time did not write anything, since the college entrance examination, the hand of the pen is dust-laden in my heart, want to say what want to do, never to the outside expression. Because I am afraid, I fear that my inner world is being spied on by others, afraid that I can not do it, I fear that I will be laughed at by others when I fail .

This kind of life lasted for seven years. High School Madness, the university during the indulgence, the struggle in the work, experienced the ups and downs after the adult, I have been a sunny appearance to laugh at life, but no one knows, their own in the dark fragile and helpless. I do not want this life, I need a brilliant life, I do not want to be in the life for a meal and preoccupied, do not want to work because the level is not enough to be despised by others eyes, but also do not want their love only built on the spiritual god life, I, need to change.

change, is a difficult process, the simplest truth, you do not sow, you can not get the harvest, no pay will not return. Change is very painful when one wants to reverse his values, change the habits of his more than 10 years, and live again in another way, which is a rather painful process. I have the experience, I was very thin, the coat stripped, the body not a few two meat. I want to change myself, so I start from the basic running exercise, plus daily push-ups exercise. Start, the first day of running is aching all over, push-ups can not do a few. Even so, I did not give up, although the pain is tired, but I am looking and the future, now I get rid of every time to the hospital is a thin medical examination report, returned to normal, in the work skills, the truth is the same. Learning Linux is also a tortuous and arduous road, the last is the winner.

I in these years of dull life has become dull, the initial ambition and vision in the years of the passage of the gradual grind, until today wrote down this article. Today, I want to change myself, the man 30, the years cannot resist ruthless time, fleeting. Life is not a few 30 years, not to mention I am not old, I still have time to grasp. Though life is short, plain and cozy will only make people more and more mediocre. I refuse to be mediocre, at least to work hard, not to waste the life of the world.

This article from "Shinelon" blog, declined reprint!

2016.3.30Change Myself