A reflection in junior year ......

I have come to my junior year without knowing it. I feel like I have never learned anything in my college three years. Looking back, I feel like my path is getting simpler and simpler. However, my achievements, my body, my spirit, and so on are all slowly disappearing ...... I remember my freshman year at Beijing Institute of Technology, who had to spend the first two years in Liangxiang. Although the days were bitter and the conditions were very simple, my life was full. I remember that last semester of my freshman year, I basically didn't understand anything, and I didn't have good self-learning skills. I asked questions about everything. I know nothing about computers, and my major is computer. I don't know why I took this path or what it will look like in the future. In this way, I am confused and helpless. But I came up with a way to follow the high school learning method. I did not participate in any community or develop any interest. I just made a life committee member in the class. Then, daily self-study is not so exaggerated. Sometimes it is quite relaxed, because it is a university, not a third year. The first semester of freshman year's performance soon came out, ranking 22 in the whole school. I felt pretty good and confident that I would continue to move forward. In the next semester, it seems that I have found a learning method. I have to pay attention to this lesson and I will immediately review the lesson. Not only do I finish my homework carefully, but I also need to take a look at other homework questions. This kind of learning attitude has greatly improved my performance in the next semester of my freshman year, with 9th people. I was very excited and felt very strong. There is no major change in learning, and life is almost the same. Since I have no computer, I have never been familiar with computers. I only want to learn how to do PPT, write word and other basic knowledge, and I will not play any games. I remember someone playing Dota and CS in the dormitory, but I learned CS later, but I didn't even play it too much. In this way, the lost freshman year is over. Sophomore year, a bitter year is also a year of my fall. I remember the counselor said at the time that sophomore year was a watershed, and many people started to get worse and worse. I remember that at that time I was very motivated and felt that I was the first person. I had to make up my mind and study hard. But the reality is cruel. There are many temptations in this world. If you don't pay attention to them, you will be stuck in the abyss and cannot extricate yourself. I joined the ACM competition group last semester in my sophomore year, so I was programming many times, and I also had a life Committee member as the class leader. I feel very uncomfortable when I spend less and less time studying. I don't feel the same way every time I take an exam. As expected, my sophomore year had a bad performance of 45. From the ninth place to more than 40 people, this gap is hard for me to accept, and it has been suffering for several weeks. So when I got to my sophomore year, I was even more confused. I didn't know where my path was, and I didn't know what to do in college. However, I made a summary, but in fact I am looking for reasons for myself. My sophomore year had a computer. Even though I had programming every day, I had no time for self-study, and I had to be the shift leader. There were a lot of things and little time. The more I do, the more time I should take, but I don't have it. I am not very careful in class, and I don't have to study myself after class. I just need to finish my homework and try to finish what the teacher asks. The same is true in life. Breakfast is not good even when it gets up late in the morning, and the whole person seems to have fallen. After suffering for a few weeks, I made up my mind to change. Who knows? I watched Dota in my bedroom every day. Although I didn't understand it at the time, I watched them play when I was okay every day. Finally, during the summer vacation, the dormitory taught me how to play DotA. I started to practice various heroes, but they were very helpful. This game will make my sophomore year useless. In the next semester of my sophomore year, I have no time to study. I still play games, process class affairs, program, and have no time to study. Finally, the unfortunate thing happened, 46. My class score lags far behind. The class teacher finds me and asks me what the situation is. My class score is very different from my grade. All my sins fall on me. I am a very responsible person, so my performance is not good. In addition, when I was a class leader, my class performance dropped greatly, and my heart was confused and sad. I don't know what to do, so the sophomore year is over. The class teacher asked us to sum up the reason. The main reason is that we can play games, but we can't or can't. The class's learning ethos is fully occupied by the Dota ethos. So I decided to change the schedule. At that time, I thought a lot. What will I do in the future? Is it useful for me to be a shift leader? Is ACM programming useful? What is my goal, except for learning? What is my goal? Everything is a question. I have not sought any help, but I am suffering from it. I am more confused than I am ...... In junior year, we finally have to go back to our headquarters and attend classes at the Zhongguancun campus. When I arrived in the city, I felt uncomfortable, but I still summarized it and decided to get started. I thought a little clearly at the time. I felt that being a shift leader could train many aspects of my skills. ACM could improve my programming skills. I have done a lot of questions and feel that it is useless in practice. I don't know what's going on. I feel like programming and doing some questions on OJ. I don't feel very effective. Do I have to make so much effort for a game? I don't know what the current task will do for my future work. Now, the College of computer science has its own innovation community, and I have become the group leader. Take a group of people in question. However, since the innovation community was just established, it has no experience or long guidance. I used to conduct ACM training in the Community Group of the Software Institute. Since the two schools have their own presidents, the relationship is very bad. Ah ...... I really don't want to talk about political issues. It's almost half a year since I was a junior. What have I done. Because the lights are turned off at, I go to bed a little more every day, get up at around in the morning, have not eaten breakfast, and often get late. in class, I go to bed and read the mobile phone news. The class is not completed, and the homework is copied from others. After the exam, I started to worry. I had to read a book crazy. I felt like I was working very hard at a.m. I did not listen to any other courses for the current course. I did a full review of the course. Many of our classes were like this, so I got my score this semester, many of my professional courses only scored over 70 points. What am I doing? Time has been wasted a lot, and I am still a little confused. I don't know what I want to do for my graduate students, but I have strengthened my belief that I should be the class leader and learn programming well, although it is not very useful to do a single question, it is still useful to do more. I have always thought that I am a person with average IQ. Nothing can be compared with others. Only by my own efforts can I achieve good results. Today, I have reviewed the past and found that I cannot do this. If I continue to do so, my college will actually be useless. Now the last semester of my junior year is almost over. I feel that I still have some excellent courses, but now I have scored more than 70 points for all these professional courses. I really cannot accept them. I finally found the reason why I wasted too much time and didn't have a good habit. I didn't pay attention to my lectures and copied my homework. At least I should do something meaningful with my time. I believe that my college still has a year and a half. Looking at my current achievements, it is not very likely that I will only take the postgraduate entrance exam. From today on, I have worked hard to become the current class leader, ACM, learning, and love. Don't let yourself down again. Fight for your own tomorrow. It is not too late to repent, but it is very difficult. I believe that those who work a lot are also regretting their college life. But I regret it, and the rest should be good memories. The score should be tested as much as possible, more programming, more communication with students, and the ethos of the class should be brought up as much as possible. My class members influenced me, And my foreman also influenced them. But today, I changed myself and tried to change them. I also hope that people in the same situation can reflect on themselves and make a conclusion, which may be a turning point. At the same time, I hope someone can provide some help and support. My college is still a bit confused and I don't know what is the most important thing now. I only know that what I want to do most is programming, class monitor and learning, and love. I have read a lot of books, read a lot of recruitment information, and feel that I am not qualified at all. So I often feel that learning is not very useful and I am not motivated to learn, but I love programming very much, although it is still very dish. I remember that I was afraid of programming, but after I joined the ACM team in my sophomore year, I was no longer afraid. I will not talk about it anymore. Let's take a good grasp of today ......