Don't break up, OK?

You broke up so calmly without any regrets.

When you come to my side, I find that you are so beautiful and peaceful! Really want to hug you, kiss you ...... But I cannot!

Do you know that your beauty makes me suffer a lot? "Don't leave me, okay! Don't break up, okay! Don't hurt me, OK !"

You are still so calm ...... Do you not know that it is my struggle in the scars? Do you not know that it is to hold my only love and make a request? You do not know that it is a man who is willing to kneel in front of you to save love request? Is it true that you have broken up beautiful things for me this time? Is it true that you burned your love in front of someone you once loved? Can you tell me that I have used my final strength to support myself not to fall down ?......

Why is it so sudden? Why is it so resolute? Why are you so calm when we break up? Why not leave me the last chance? Why ......!!!

You do not answer me, God does not tell me, the night does not sound, the stars do not show their faces, the moon looked at me coldly, the earth silently counted my scars ...... In the Boundless Darkness, I tried to find an answer, but where can I find it?

Desperately smoke, let the already overwhelmed lung feel this heavy, appreciate this pain ......

How can the red cigarette butts shake constantly in the dark? I held my hand back and found my hand shaking ...... No, there are arm, body, and leg. My whole body is shaking, and my heart, my love, my soul, my life!

"…… Find a loving and loving person to say goodbye to my Singles' Day, and a heartless person to hurt me ......" No, you are not passionate. You are not infatuated. You are not heartless. Tell me that you will not hurt me ...... You said !...... Let's say !......

You use silence to answer me ......

I'm desperate, helpless, sad, and heartbroken!

Tears rushed out, but the dignity of a man told him not to cry, the bitter tears can only swallow in his own heart, and then the pain can only be carried by oneself, we must face the cruel fact and cherish the love. We can only watch her die slowly ......

Strong fighting spirit, throwing away burned cigarette butts, erase two tears, force control the trembling body, face strong smile, a pair of indifferent look, I turned to you:

"I don't want to force you. If you have decided that it is impossible to change, I have to agree ." I don't want to force you, but I am barely myself! Do you know? If you know, why are you still saying nothing? Why are you still looking at me coldly? Why can't I keep my love life longer?

"Is there no hope ?" I keep asking you, you keep nodding ......

After exhausted my feelings, I used my last strength to let you and me go the last step. You said this would not be the end, but I know that even if it was not the end, we would not feel that way!

Take your hand, walk by the river, and try to find the feeling of the past together, but you cannot find it.

It's as easy as removing a burden. I can't see your pity or your pain. Do you really have none? I hope your ease is just a wonderful performance!

I can't see the pedestrians on the road, but those close people. I only see the shorter and shorter our roads ......

Now that you are leaving, we will no longer be lovers, I will not be able to see you every day, I will not be able to hold your hand, I will not be able to stay with you, I will lose my first love, I will lose my love, and I will fall into the bottomless abyss ......

"Can I still kiss you ?" I asked, "now, not in the future ." "……" My heart is very painful. I remembered the first time I kissed you. It was my first kiss! Now, less than six months will be our last kiss!

I want to kiss you, but I do not dare. I am afraid that this kiss will completely defeat me, turn my last hope into a bubble, and I am afraid that this kiss will take you away, turning my original bright future into an impossible distant fantasy!

I decided not to kiss you, because I am afraid, really afraid to kiss goodbye!

"Let's go first !" I said the last thing I want to say, and the last thing I want to do. This sentence exhausted my last strength, took away my last hope, and completely defeated myself!

I looked at you ......

You suddenly held me and gave me your last kiss ......

Close my eyes ......

I felt your lips, my body temperature, and my hands around my neck ......

I saw the first time we kissed you. I saw the day when I said goodbye to you ......

How familiar and unfamiliar it is ......

How happy and painful it is ......

How clear and fuzzy this is ......

This makes me so happy, but now it makes me so sad ......

With my eyes closed, I felt your lips, and my hands hung beside me, no response ......

Tears, it finally rushed through the last line of defense that was defeated by myself, desperate to flow out ......

At this time, the man's so-called "dignity" is just a thin piece of paper, has been soaked in tears ......

With the tears flowing out, all the good memories, all the happiness, is my favorite person, is the one I cannot leave, is my own debris, it's the blood in my heart, it's all I have in my feelings ...... They all flow with this tear!

Tears are burning, but the heart is cold!

Your lips left me, left our world, and pushed me to the cliff!

I slowly opened my eyes and looked at you, but the tears separated you!

Are you sure you want to leave? Really? My tears can no longer be controlled ......

"Don't you do this, okay? I don't want to see you like this !" You told me.

I look at you and want to tell you that I am not willing to do this either. I want to tell you that I don't want to be separated from you. I want to ask if you can change your decision and beg you not to leave! However, I did not say a word!

I turned to Funan River, fearing that you would see me sad.

Actually, do you know? At that time, I really wanted you to comfort me, even if it was just one sentence! I don't want you to change your decision. I just need your comfort.

Why are you pushing all the pain points to me?

If your heart is as calm as you show, why not pity me? You have already given me so much pain, don't you feel at all? I am also a person! People with flesh and blood!

If your heart is as calm as I do, why not? Why do you need to bury your feelings in the bottom of my heart?

Finally, you turned around and ran to the distance ......

I looked at you ......

What's wrong? Why are your backs so vague? I blinked. Okay, I can see it clearly ...... Why?

You ran to a distance without returning your head ......

I want to call you a name, but the choked throat does not sound a little apart from the weeping; I want to chase you, but the powerless legs can not take a step ......

No, you have disappeared into the dark night ......

My tears were so obvious in the dark in the light of a neon light. Passers-by may look at me with a strange, mocking eye, or even make fun of me! I can forgive them, they don't know what I just lost, they don't know how painful I am, they don't know how helpless I am at this time, they don't know why a girl ran away after kissing a boy. They don't even know how important the girl was to the boy and how much he wanted to recover her, how much he wants to stay with her and how much he wants the girl to come back! They don't know how desperate the boy is!

I sat down on the side of the road and looked at your departure from time to time, hoping to see you back!

When one smoke is exhausted and the other smoke is exhausted, you will never be seen again.

For the first time, I felt that the world had no color: Gray, dark, and even the neon lights were completely pale. The world is not angry in my eyes.

I ignored the existence of passers-by, ignored my dignity, and burst into tears ......

I fell down the cliff and fell heavily onto the ground. The whole body felt no longer painful ......

Tired of crying and swollen eyes. Looking at the river in a daze, smoke head burned hands did not find. Dull and motionless. Someone pointed to me and joked: "dementia !" I'm not angry, I Don't refute it, I don't even look at him. Still motionless: I have exhausted my feelings and tried my best. What else can I do?

The night has been dark, people have gone, tears have dried up, the heart is cold, smoke is exhausted, people have been numb!

You can only stand up on your own, or you can only walk with yourself, sorrow, and pain can only be borne by yourself ......

Will you cry? Will you cry when you see me cry? Did you cry when you ran away? I asked you and myself! There is no way to find the answer. With smoke, you will be wandering around ......

It's over. Is everything really over?

My love is dead, with only my body and sweet memories left ......

Thinking about your good, thinking about your bad, thinking about your fragrance, thinking about your kiss, thinking about your everything ...... I burst into tears, but it was silent.

They all said that women are easy to be moved, but I have exhausted my feelings and have never touched you? None at all? Are you sure you want to push me down the cliff?

I don't trust myself. You won't hurt me. You like me. Am I right?

Why is everything normal before you go on a tour, but it becomes so cruel and indifferent when you come back? I asked myself, is that you?

You have already told me why you did this. But I still do not understand, for your past, you would rather not now? You said you never wanted to do anything in the future, but this time you said we will definitely break up in the future! I am confused!

You said you didn't like me. I know that you have your past, and you will compare the present with the past. You only see the past and the present, because the past is too memorable for you, in the past, there was pain and happiness for you ...... I know this. I will know it after you tell me. I do not mind, I still love you with all my heart, you have seen it. What do you understand? Because I love you!

I actually understand that the main reason for leaving me is your past. You once had a sincere feeling, happiness and happiness, just like when we were together, maybe more sweet, more memorable. But that feeling collapsed in an instant, you are in pain, you are struggling, you pretend to have nothing to do, but you miss that feeling, you want to save, but the fact is heartless against your will, so you need to use a piece of "penalty" for yourself to try to dilute the past, right? You want him to know that you have loved him deeply and can even ignore his current love, right? You want to let everyone know how infatuated you were, knowing that there will be no results but to love, you have bravely paid, right? You want to let the world know how much you miss and cherish your first love, and even keep your life for it, right?

I can understand this and have no reason to interfere with it. But have you found out that my present is like your past? My feelings collapsed in an instant. I am in pain and struggle. Have you found out? Do you know what I am suffering, just like you are in the past, no, it is more painful than you are in the past, right? Why do you want me to experience that pain? Why did you push me down the cliff and let me fall into the abyss? Why do you have the heart? Are you a machine? Are you a spam? Are you a simple creature that does not know why it hurts?

Maybe you will say, why does God only let you bear the sorrow? You don't think it's fair. You want other people to feel that kind of pain, so you chose me, right? I am speechless ......

You once said to me that they all said that you didn't grow up, but you only know that you think about yourself and don't think about it for others. Now, you can use your actions to tell them that they are wrong. I am here with you. I will not care about what you do, will you?

You once said that you do not believe that there is true love in the world. Could you give me a chance to prove to you that there is true love in the world? I don't want your life. I just want to love you for three years, can I?

I cherish my feelings very much. I beg you not to let it go, will you?

Can you let me accompany you through the low tide of your feelings? Can you not let my love shock, it will die, let it live for a while, OK?

Don't let me wait. waiting is the old one. I don't want my feelings to die slowly while waiting!

Do you remember what we said to do together? Don't make them sad memories, OK? Don't treat me with indifference, OK? I'm afraid of indifference. It's around me from an early age, and I'm afraid of it! No, don't leave me. Do you really have the heart to hurt someone you like?

Pass by, do not miss it! Do you still remember?

......

I cried on the phone. Do you hear me? I am insomnia, you know? Have you seen my tears? Have you seen my swollen eyes? Did you know that I was sitting in the street and crying? I cried for you. In the past ten years, I only cried for you !!!

When your eyes are swollen, try not to let others see it; when your heart is in pain, do not let your family know.

"When you love me, even once is enough; when you love me, maybe only once can be permanent ......" Once again, my heart was hit by a bitter pain, and tears could not help but flow down.