3. Hard Times (recommended)

Many years later, when I started to travel to and from five-star hotels in major cities, I saw my personal income tax deducted every month much higher than my annual salary; the memories and past events in Chengdu made me feel miserable than anything else. I lamented the changes and improvements in my life. At the same time, I also paid more attention to the details of my life and cherished every day and night.

Tonight, at the Grand Hyatt hotel at the edge of the Victoria Bay in Wan Chai, Hong Kong, the poor memories are clearer and more dignified.

Poor in difficult times (recommended)

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After the fact that I had my first love feelings when I was a young man, I was not able to stay awake in my mind, then the cruel hacker entered another dilemma.

3.1 of men without money are timid

When we work in Hongguang, we are new graduates who only have a basic monthly salary of 240 yuan. Because it was a new employee, we did not have a bonus even if we had to work hard during our one-year internship. So I spent only 240 yuan on my stay in Chengdu. I spent some money on my graduation, but I was spent on traveling to and from Jianyang, Chengdu, and the additional consumption. The cost of three meals a day and three meals a day is 240 yuan.

In order to maintain my life, I had to cook for myself every day to save my expenses. It was 1 to 1.5 yuan cheaper than eating in the canteen. At that time, I usually buy 4 yuan of pork and 4 cents of vegetables each time. I remember that I bought the most lettuce leaves in those days. Chengdu has a good climate. The lettuce tip and leaves are delicious. I often cut the meat into slices, chopped lettuce, put oil, pepper and PiXian Douban for a stir-fry, so that I can fry a large plate. Then I will divide the dashboard into four portions to serve four meals at noon on the 2 th and at night. This menu is often not enough to eat rice, so I buy five hairs of pickles on the stalls outside, so that I have been eating this for a long time.

It may be the memory of the poorest days, and I still like cooking very much. My mother called me the Douban king. At that time, I always liked eating lettuce tips. In this way, I usually spend about 5 yuan for lunch and dinner for two days. Sometimes I don't eat breakfast, sometimes I spend one yuan; at least 180 yuan is required for a month's meal. The remaining 60 yuan is worth other expenses, such as bicycle maintenance, telephone charges, just a little entertainment fees, washing powder, and so on. I never dared to buy clothes or find friends in those days. Once I have a meal, even if the food is cheap in Chengdu, it costs at least 20-30 yuan. This makes me very sad this month.

Sometimes, it's almost the next month's pay-as-you-go day, but there are still four days, and there's almost only a few cents on the body. I have no way to go to the bank, from the remaining 40 yuan, obtain 30 RMB for use. I had no money to buy a better bicycle. I bought a second-hand bicycle when I came to Chengdu. Second-hand cars often have problems, brakes are poor, and tires are always leaking. I remember that when I was so angry that I couldn't ride my tires, even if there was a bicycle stall beside the side of the road, the stall provided a one-cent gas pump and a two-cent gas pump. However, I am reluctant to use it, I usually walk a bicycle with a leak to find the free gas pump in the "convenience box" at the crossroads in Chengdu-to save 1 cent.

I often go to a relative or a classmate to take a meal to save the first meal. Sometimes, when there was nothing to go to that single relative, he had already eaten, so I asked myself to order noodles for the rest of the dishes. Even so, I think it is good because I can save the next meal.

But after going through one thing, I will never take a meal.

I often go to a college student to take a meal. He graduated from Chengdu Power Bureau, which is a good state-owned unit. Naturally, his overall income and welfare are far better than mine. They live in the reception room of the organization. The conditions are good. At that time, he was quite idle at work, so he and I often traveled on chunxi Road and watched the screen together with city migrant workers on the lawn of shudu building. I have dinner with him. I usually pay for it because I can't buy it. He also showed some imperceptible advantages in this respect. Once we went to dinner on weekends, we spent about 25 yuan in a regular restaurant. That day, he had to pay for it as soon as he finished eating. I am really embarrassed because I only have 45 yuan. Later, I paid half for him. In my heart, I felt as uncomfortable and depressed as I was under a Jack, because this meal cost a lot, and I will be very difficult and difficult in the last few days of this month. From then on, I never took the initiative to go to him to eat, even if something happened, I also left before dinner. Another time, it is clearer in my memory.

I, he has another classmate at the state-owned hongming factory. The three of us are together for a small party. On that day, he proposed that we should go to the food city above the Pacific Department Store at chunxi junction in Chengdu. We stayed together in several food windows, and neither I nor I dared to order food, because any price here can be enough for me to eat for 2 days.

My classmate and I were so arrogant that they couldn't say a word for a long time. Despite the enthusiasm of the Service lady, I strongly recommended it. Later, we finally stopped at the window where he looked at several varieties and ordered them. I clearly remember that when the service Lady reported that our total meal fee was about 75 yuan. I clearly remember the situation at that moment. I and other students left behind, as if there was an invisible airflow in front of us. He said, "What should I do? A lot of money ". At that moment, I *** really wanted to immediately turn around and escape from this place.

In Chengdu, I also had a group of former high school students who either developed in Chengdu First, graduated from a key university and entered a good company, or entered a TV station based on their parents. Every time they have dinner at a party, I am very sleepy. They don't want me to pay, even AA. I really feel very uncomfortable. A big man and a group of girls eat, but girls pay for it. I think I am really not a man based in society. I occasionally see the stacked banknotes in their wallets. In my heart, I am jealous and envious, and even have a sound in my heart: how nice if I could have two bills !!! I know that this idea is really not a man, but I did not have any other way to make money at that time. I even thought of selling and singing on the street. I think in that time, the tricycle in the city was richer than me.

I fell in love with coffee in Beijing. I usually go to Starbucks more often, and it is not familiar with the shop assistants after Kerry Center, International Trade and Investment Department building. A cup of Grand cappuccino costs about RMB 25. I am a coffee enthusiast and often get two cups a day.

I remember that the first time I drank cola, it was about May 1996. I have been saving my money, and naturally I have never been willing to spend 2 yuan to buy a cup of cola. At that time, such expensive drinks are undoubtedly a luxury for me. I never knew what it would be like to see the COAs on couples at the Emy of electronics. They were about to invite two girls to have a cold cup when they danced with a few dancers. So we went to the E-Science and Technology Department, probably the restaurant on the right of the girls' dormitory.

Looking at so many choices from the beverage machine, I don't know whether to choose the kind of drinks, such as cola, Sprite, or finda. While hesitating, I simply used a cup to pick up all the drinks and turned them into a unique drink. After drinking, I felt refreshed and comfortable, it also has a special taste. Maybe that feeling and taste left me with the most profound marks and aftertaste. Now, as long as I buy a drink in bulk from the beverage machine, I must have a unique mix of drinks.

I also tried to find a part-time job. I went to the karaoke studio to find an audio tuner (I used it in the University), an engineer or a sales engineer in a computer company, but both of them were unable to meet the work time requirements of others. If someone else sees what Sichuan light chemical industry school is, it is also a state-owned unit such as Hongguang.

I never ask for money at home!

After those poor days, I can really feel the feeling of suffocation and oppression! I can also feel the impact and confusion of the poor. To be honest, I can understand the desperate behavior of some people for money. I can also understand some people who simply think that money is everything. Because I have experienced poverty, I have a special sympathy and kind to everyone in our society who is working hard and pays for it, especially the disadvantaged groups. I can understand the power and temptation of money, but I'm glad I didn't go wrong for it.

A person, especially a man, who has no money, is in a panic, and is timid or even weak in spirit !!!!!!

 

 

 

 

3.Poor in difficult times (recommended): turbid nest --

At that time, our new college graduates all lived in the Hongguang youth dormitory at No. 2, South Branch Road, Jianshe Road, East Second Ring Road, Chengdu. It is a youth dormitory area consisting of two three-story old buildings and a slightly newer seven-story dormitory. The so-called youth dormitory area is a place where all the new young people, foreign young people and single old workers live. The environment is simple, old, wet, and bad. At the same time, the Community personnel are complex and chaotic. It is often in a state of unmanaged order.

4.2Turbid nest

At that time, our new college graduates all lived in the Hongguang youth dormitory at No. 2, South Branch Road, Jianshe Road, East Second Ring Road, Chengdu. It is a youth dormitory area consisting of two three-story old buildings and a slightly newer seven-story dormitory. The so-called youth dormitory area is a place where all the new young people, foreign young people and single old workers live. The environment is simple, old, wet, and bad. At the same time, the Community personnel are complex and chaotic. It is often in a state of unmanaged order.

We were lucky. Four of our new college graduates joined an old room of the same size as the university dormitory, but more primitive. It is said that all of these single rooms were killed in the past. After listening to them, we couldn't help but have no idea whether to study them. Others are not so lucky. One of them was allocated to the dormitory where other young workers had already lived and was rushed out that night. One of them was beaten, and one of them was allocated to the dormitory of a young man in social networks. The young man often brought a woman back from the outside, most of the boys who graduated from our age are probably male, but it is really hard for them. Some people are allocated to the dormitory where another person lives. It's amazing. We only had four beds in our room, and then we found two broken tables and four chairs, which formed our new home in Chengdu. The bed has two floors up and down, and the four beds have just occupied the four corners of the entire room. There is nothing left in the middle, like a university dormitory, all the furniture is worse than in college. We used the bed above to put boxes and clothes, and the whole room was full.

Think about it. Here is the first lesson for college graduates who are hopeful and ambitious to come out of school to contact the real society. It is also a comparison between ideal and reality, or between imagination and reality.

We are on the first floor of the Youth dormitory. There is a public kitchen and a so-called bathroom in the middle. It may be better to have a restroom. The kitchen is shared throughout the first floor, including a sink and a natural gas fire head. I remember when I first walked into this so-called kitchen, I was almost surprised to see it. The whole kitchen is full of oil and garbage, food leaves, plastic pockets, and so on; there is a blocked surface in the sink full of oil and garbage sewage; the walls and the top of the four natural gas fire headers and the kitchen have not been smoked for many years and accumulated thick heat. It is estimated that they are N layers of dark oil stains. I can't believe it. In the future, I will boil water, cook, laundry, and wash my face. While I was hesitating and amazed, I came in with a woman. She habitually puts a kettle in a slow sewage sink, opens the faucet and connects to the water, then puts it on the top of the natural gas fire, opens the valve, and pulls out a lighter. When I heard the bang, the high natural gas flame rolled up, and the woman threw down the kettle and went away. Looking at this is a series of skillful actions formed by time and habits, I can't help but tremble. I don't believe it or want to believe that my life in Chengdu will begin from here.

(Photo, corridor, kitchen, Room)

The days have passed, and I have gradually been assimilated and changed by the environment and lifestyle. When cooking in a public kitchen that can be described as dirty, the first thing to do is to grab the natural gas fire head. After all, the fire head is limited. In my memory, the most memorable and profound thing is that in the hot days, several young men are outstretched, and they are overwhelmed by smoke in a big kitchen. Often, the sewers in the kitchen are blocked by a large amount of garbage. The dormitory is almost in a non-managed living environment. Naturally, no one can actively clear the room. Sometimes it is too congested to clear the room. The whole kitchen is often done, and even half of the corridor is filled with water. We couldn't pass, so we only had to put a few bricks. A boy stood up on two bricks in a pool of water like a martial arts, holding his hands high and rolling fried vegetables skillfully, the high pressure of Natural Gas hits the iron pot, and the Oil Fume rises in my stir-fry ......

During that time, I learned how to cook and cook delicious dishes.

There is naturally no place to take a bath in the youth dormitory; we usually go to the factory to take a bath. When Hongguang company declined sharply due to operation and stock reasons, the factory stopped a lot, so we had no place to take a bath. Summer is really unbearable hot and sweaty back feeling, simply wear shorts in the kitchen to take a bath, regardless of whether the fuck there is a woman to see, love to see it. This situation reminds me of the summer shower at the school dormitory during college.

Later, when I left Hongguang and went to work at the company, I had to take a bath in the hotel on a business trip.

I have been suffering for nearly two years in the most basic living environment of Chengdu. I have lived in the slums of Hongguang youth dormitory for a total of four years. When I left Chengdu and went to Shenzhen and Beijing, every time I went back to Chengdu, what I wanted most, or my biggest concern was the red-light youth dormitory, where I lived. Even though I have stayed in a luxury Portman Hotel in Shanghai, Radisson in Bangkok, grandhyatt hotel next to the beautiful Victoria Bay in Hong Kong, I have enjoyed administrative services and treatment at the Shangri-La and Hilton levels. When goldencircle's membership manager in a neat black suit leads me through the hallway of the Shangri-La Hotel with soft carpets to enjoy member roomcheckin services, the corridor often dragged my memories back to the dark and humid corridor of the red-light youth dormitory, a dark and wet kitchen around, and a hut of less than 8 m². I have been back to Chengdu many times and lie in the huge kingsize bed of the Chengdu Sheraton hotel or crownplazaholidayinn Hotel. I cannot hold back my memories and memories of the red light. I took a taxi from the hotel to see where I used to live. I sought a memory and cherished it.

Not many people around me can understand my special feelings. None of my parents and lovers can really understand the memories of my heart that will never be erased. However, the four years of red light living experience have made me better understand my environment and life, capture the details and feelings of my life, and even make me more kind; these four years of experience have inspired me to cherish my present life and realize the beauty and happiness of my current living environment.

Tonight, the water mist and breath in the air of Victoria Bay in Hong Kong are wonderful!

(Modified on august12,: 21 Hong Kong grandhyatthotel)

(Modified on February 19, 2005 On Saturday in Beijing CBD)

That night, I suddenly remembered an old song: Jiang yuheng's "years later"

　　Give me a quiet corner to avoid all eyes exploring

Loneliness is my only excuse.

Unable to find a reason for finding a home in the face of countless strangers

Why can't we get rid of all past and past mistakes after years?

Why is the process of gains and losses so indifferent after many years?

Neither indifference nor loneliness.

I just want to know who I want to be simple.

A small, real sky should never be lost again

Why can't all love and hate be weak after years?

Why is it still heartache after years of air drying?

These days are like this. Today is no longer me from yesterday.

Maybe tomorrow will face more things.

The hands that touch the scars are full of steps.