Autumn wind, autumn rain, sorrow

The spring rain surprised the spring and the ancient days, the summer is full and the summer is connected, the autumn is exposed, the autumn is cold, the winter is snow, the winter is cold and cold. Time flies, and It's autumn again.

Just now, it was raining outside. I had to come back. On the way, I suddenly remembered one evening about 12 years ago. I came out from the school that I stayed for a long time, and then I walked around in front of the middle school. During the weekend, the school door was very lively. People who bought and sold things were everywhere. Because they were so ashamed of being a cyst at that time, they felt a little embarrassed. Naturally, they were not in a good mood. I can't remember what season it was, But I vaguely remember that the sunshine was gloomy, just like my mood.

I turned around for a long time outside, and a small book stall on the side of the road attracted me. At that time, there were a lot of books to read, but due to the pressure of further studies, many books were not read. I still remember that I bought a Three Kingdoms copy that day.

On campus, I walked and watched it. Then I was suddenly shouted by the Director of the Political Guidance Department. He shouted at me, "Come, come, come ...".

I was shocked: "He is a big man !"

That's what I thought. In retrospect, I have never seen any folks in the world. When I came to him, I was a little confused and thought about what I was doing.

Who knows that he turned over the book from my hand and saw the Three Kingdoms, and he smiled at me straight, "Well, that's good! Good! Read well ."

I picked him up and said, "Well, yes, unfortunately, books are pirated ."

He continued to smile awkwardly. "books at this price must be pirated !"

Then we said something we didn't know. Then he patted me on the shoulder and gave me some encouragement. At that moment, I felt the gloomy sunshine was warm, and even the sunset in the West was very beautiful.

In my memory, there is still a clear clip that day, that is, I saw a book in front of the book stall, the book skin was printed with a few big words, "Autumn wind, autumn rain, Sorrow "!

I have been remembering these words for more than ten years.

Recently, I always feel like something is missing, and sometimes I feel sad. Day after day, When busy, the illusion is that the time in one week disappears. A little scary.

Think about it. After graduation, I seldom take the initiative to contact anyone who has appeared in my world. Maybe there are few people in my circle and my colleagues are right. But I never thought there was anything. This is also quite good. Live with nature, do not deliberately pursue what, do not lose what pain. For some things, I am lucky and cannot be killed. For some people, you are coming. I welcome you. If you leave, I will not send it. I like what my friends have said. If you get along with others, you can play together. In fact, it is quite short to live for dozens of years.

A few years ago, I began to get stuck with myself, and I was busy every day like a dog. from waking up to going to bed, I had a full schedule. It was uncomfortable at the beginning, but it was enough to get used to it. Now, I am stuck in my cell. After several years, I feel that I have made progress, but the results are still unsatisfactory. Now, I am far away from home, but I still don't think it is enough. Now I have a strong idea. If I have the opportunity in the next few years, if I still have no hope of a person, I would like to go abroad for a few years. Like sanmao, wandering and wandering far away.

Somehow, recently I suddenly experienced an unusual nostalgia. I have been watching TV for several days until two o'clock in the middle of the night. Review the legend of the 83 version of the Condor Hero, a collection of views, many times so that I don't want to fall asleep. There is a picture in the play. The orange sun shines in the noisy Central Plains market. The shadows in the downstairs compare with the beautiful people in the warm and gloomy sunshine. There are too many childhood tastes. I am afraid to see the picture.

Watch TV and watch old versions, listen to old songs, and even read ancient articles. It seems a bit abnormal. But I like it very much.

I have been feeling lonely for a long time, but today I accidentally saw the old saying, "Parents, lovers, friends and colleagues, and all people are gifts when they are there, it is a gift from God, so we must cherish and be grateful. Once we leave, we should not be too sad. You must understand that leaving is normal and loneliness is the norm of life ", then, if I have any knowledge.

In the light of the gloomy and warm sunshine in the spring, when the film is full of rape, in the evening of the summer rain, in the afternoon of the golden yellow, the autumn breeze, the night of the misty snow outside the indoor bonfire, will you think about what life is?

What are the things? Non? Mengye ?...

It's autumn, just remember it.