Silence often causes People's religious thinking, "born" thinking, This is not enough strange, because People's secular life is so noisy, belonging to their quiet moment is so short, so when the silence comes, of course, eager to detached, eager to "born."
But this is not to say that the silence of the lack of "wto" feelings, on the contrary, sometimes, silence is deeply worried. What I want to talk about here is the Chinese-style Father-son relationship. Many years ago to listen to the Japanese folk song "the spring of the north", which sings: "my brother resembles the old father, a pair of taciturn people, have no leisure to worry about eagle, occasionally relative to drink a few cups?" "it's my liver--most of the father-son relationship in rural china, isn't that what it looks like?"
I went to town for more than 20 years, personality than before a lot of cheerful, but every time back to the rural home, with the Father sitting, or can not find any topic.
"are you busy with your work?" ”
"it's ok." ”
"have you been on business recently?" ”
No "or," went to guangzhou, stayed for four or five days. ”
Then there is the long silence. I especially want to tell my father how congested the traffic in Beijing is, How bad the air is, how much I want to be home, what I have seen in my business trip, what strange things have happened to me, but seeing my father's swarthy face and swallowing them back. I feel that these lives are too far away from him, to tell him, but to break his inner balance.
Father's face indeed and black a lot, listen to Sister said, because I and brother not around, father bored, then and two or three old friends about every day to the river Fishing. Father suffered from arterial thrombosis, sedentary fishing is obviously not conducive to health, but I can not stop him, because I know that my father is not fishing fish, is lonely. In particular, I would like to say, "why don't you move to the city for a few days?" "but how also said not to export, because had already issued to him once N times the invitation, all was he to all sorts of excuses to refuse, therefore the day is long, also is lazy mouth."
When the daughter grew up, back to his hometown, the father's face has never had a smile, led his baby granddaughter in the village around, a while to buy her a bottle of drink, a moment to buy her a few pieces of sugar, we both father and son have a sigh of relief-finally can not silent.
In fact, my father has a lot of things to say to Me.
On a business trip, I went home for a few days. I slept on the uncle's kang--uncle because of the physical disability single lifetime, according to the policy he can move to the town of the home to live, enjoy eating "wu bao zhuolu", But father worry that life is too lonely, has refused to live alone, so uncle has been and our family live together harmoniously-- This situation in our village and even around the unique, more family is the separation of the brothers, each of the days, and some families because of land, housing, property disputes, make brothers quarrel, form with Strangers. Because I was young and uncle in a plate of Kang on the bed, so my uncle and I communicate much more than with the father, come naturally. This evening, uncle and I chatted a lot, from the village Zhang San disease talk about the ox, uncle want to six months to the Village's big event small sentiment all with me ramble Over.
The next day, when I had breakfast, my father said, you two can really talk last night, I heard you talking when I was two o ' Urinate.
I can tell that my father is a little jealous.
The last night at home, after dinner, father went out to visit, and I because of days of fatigue, sleep Earlier. When my father came home, I had already gone to Sleep. Later heard Uncle said, that night, the father came back to talk to me, push the door into our room, found that I was asleep, did not let uncle turn on the lights, he sat alone beside me, quietly looked at me for a long time. Uncle said, your father's eyes in your face for a long time, he worried that you usually have too much brain, nutrition to keep up with, more worried about you outside, have been wronged nowhere to be sued.
After listening to Uncle's relay, I burst into tears.
I know that the love of most fathers in China is so deep, depressing and even Distorted. Often see the western film, see people between father and son directly say "dad, I love you" "children, I love you", always let me envy unceasingly, see the children can not call father and "charlie" or "john" commensurate, also let me respect their equal relations three Points.
But the love between me and my father is silent, and it is buried deep in our Hearts. With the increase in age, I more and more feel that some love needs to be expressed in a timely manner, although I can not say "dad, I love you", but I want to let the Father know, I am eager to communicate with him, I am willing to communicate with him, we may be without words to talk about the brothers, can be equal communication father and son
father, Although we only see two or three a year, although our telephone communication only once a week, but I care about you more and more, now has become a heavy book, pressure me breathless, you feel it?
Silence is a profound language, yes; but I want to tell more friends: let love not only flow in silence.
Silence is a profound language.