Guichi on the street should I give you up?

I do not know how long I can sustain, I have not been able to withstand his torment. The database has been corrupted 3 times a day today. 3 times led to me, 2 times down the hands of the rice bowl, 1 times took off half of the clothes ready to take a bath stopped down, fortunately, these problems are within my ability to solve, really afraid of the day I can not solve the problem, what should I do?

Am I really supposed to be watching over you every day? Or should give up you, good to find a good job, live a normal life, away from the network I have been immersed in. I want to eat, to live, to pay rent, to pay network fees, mobile phone fees, to pay debts, I have to take the money to keep you?

Why, why should I do this to you? Is it time to give up on you? The domestic internet only let me see a dark, what are we? is just a grassroots webmaster, what to compete with others? We only have a computer, a dark room, a keyboard with cigarette butts on the side of an ashtray. Web design, website maintenance, website management, website promotion, for others can use 4 departments to do things, and we? We have only one person to do it ourselves, as if we have written a book, we will be responsible for printing, and then go out and get the stall to sell.

Why do you feel the darkness?

Ah, I heard that the state of the Web site required special record, this is nothing, a friend of mine to record, incredibly said to all the moderator ID card copy, I have no words ...

Then I saw another friend of mine a blog station was closed, the heart is very painful, always lively and cheerful he, become taciturn, I asked him, what do you intend? He said I would not be doing the station, I just want to go to other people's company to help others maintain the site to do a common programmer, one months to get thousands of stable income, so that's enough.

He said to me: "You also change careers, although you say you do not have a degree, but your technology is completely to the general company to do programmers and other things, no need to be so tired, you think you can insist how long?" I completely forget about the internet in China, only because of a bad bird, and destroyed my entire forest, we are just grass people, we do not compare enterprises, we do not have a backer, we only rely on their own, technical problems are not talked about, because the technical aspects of me or you, or any one webmaster, I think can be resolved, But we encounter problems that can be solved without technology. My blog station, because a user in the album uploaded a station 3-point type of photos, that is, swimsuit photos, such pictures I want to be everywhere, Yahoo, Sina, Sohu, Tencent, Mop, you dare to say that these stations which do not have such a picture? And there's only one user with a picture of that, I explained a lot of times, said it was improper management of their own, said immediately deleted, forcibly shut down the site, I even begged them, even a person's basic dignity are lost, finally they do not agree, I know there is no way, Only they let me the program of their own website to get back, this request they do not agree, they say these are illegal information, I completely no language, only that a picture, and the Web site procedures have any relationship?

In this way, my 3 years of painstaking efforts, was their relentless deletion, I have nothing to say, I do not know how to face my hundreds of thousands of users, QQ every day dozens of groups are talking about how the site can not open, one after another group, from more than 80 groups, to only the remaining 20 groups of people, the heart of the dead, I returned the user group used, I have no way, I put aside them, I want to change the way of life, be neglected by the family, be beside grumble, be loved abandoned, such a day do you think comfortable?

Don't you get left out of your family? Not being seen by others as monsters? Not be abandoned by the person you like? Tell you these are a few grassroots webmaster have experienced, have you ever thought of why the family was left out of the cold? That's because we don't have time to communicate with computers all day. That is because we do not go out all day only to face the computer, people will say you did not attend so big a person does not have a serious job, every day stay at home, you have ever thought why will be loved abandon? That is because we, fell in love with the internet, ignoring her feelings, we put the network in the first, put them in the second, we will not sweet words to coax them happy, we do not know how to spend their minds to study what gifts, when they ask us questions when we always say ' Casually ' won't go to deliberately accompany them not to go shopping, will not accompany them to buy clothes, at home will only surf the internet, won't chat with them, do you think we will not be abandoned by people? ”

His words touched me so much that we talked all night. He said a sentence to my heart, may be each individual webmaster inner portrayal, recently I kept asking myself, how long can I persist? Should I give up? Why should I be so tired? Do I deserve to be so tired for a dark future? Maybe I really should think about it, Guichi Street I should not give up you?