Half a year ago, I was a construction engineer with nothing (I)

When I got off work, I walked down the way back to my dormitory. The evening breeze was chilly and I woke up with a faint brain. I suddenly remembered that I was in Beijing from Chongqing. I suddenly wanted to tell all my experiences to those who were just like me six months ago.

I am not a speaker, nor a young man who is full of literature and art. I was just a construction worker who had nothing to do with every construction site six months ago. I can't write gorgeous words. I only have one person who may be as confused as I was.

I do not like the civil engineering industry, because it is not what I want to pursue. However, I used to feel tired, only in the civil engineering industry. I graduated from 2013. Like most college students, I spent all my savings in rural families and completed my college dream, every day, my parents who work in the field earn a bit of face. However, no one knows that we face more difficulties than other people when we walk out of the university campus.

I used to study the Civil Engineering Inspection major. I did not know what I wanted because I was ignorant. I just entered a major. After graduation, because I wanted to stay in a city with my college girlfriend, I didn't choose to go to a company that students like China Railway or China Construction wanted. I chose a local small company. I used to think that my life is meaningful for my girlfriend, so I don't care about anything. I just want to stay with her and take care of her. The world is unpredictable. A small local company wants to send me to Guizhou (with a salary of 2200 ). I am a very promising person, so I still want to have a complete conclusion in the first contract after graduation. Even if I went to Guizhou, my girlfriend said that I would like to be with me.

When I first arrived in Guizhou, everything was so strange that the company sent me to an asphalt mixing station to let me supervise the quality. I am not a tough guy, so I accept it all. Later, the company sent me to Guiyang, Duyun tuanzhai, Dushan and other places. In just a few months, I moved to several places in Guizhou. The time was very short. in the twinkling of an eye, in March, the company sent me to Guangxi. There was a project over there that needed my technical support. In the past six months, I have been so confused that I do not know where my future is, or where my money is. I only know that my friends in Chongqing often quarrel with me, although no matter how hard I endure, no matter how inclusive I am. I also know that my girlfriend thinks I have no money after graduation, and I am poor. Half a year after graduation may be an important hurdle in my life. Finally, in May December 2013, I decided to quit my job and go to Chongqing to find my girlfriend. In fact, I was just dumb to think that I can find a good job in the civil engineering industry. Although I do not like it, I also have to do it, because I still need to make my girlfriend's family look up to me.

In December 2013, I went back to my hometown in Sichuan and spent two months in my hometown. I thought every day that I would be able to find a job after a year in Chongqing, so I could see the girl I used to think about.

In March February 2014, I took my suitcase and set foot on my journey to Chongqing. before leaving, my parents sent me to the bus. When the car started, I looked back at them, it seems that they are getting older again in the drizzle. I just want to go to Chongqing quickly, find a job, and meet her.

In middle February 2014, I had been looking for a job in Chongqing for almost two weeks. Before she came from her hometown, I stayed at my colleague's house in my previous company. At that time, I went to a job fair almost every day and posted my resume on the Internet every day. However, little gains have been made. I suddenly found that this society does not seem to want to accommodate our college students who just graduated and have less than a year of work. I'm frustrated, but every time I call her, I feel optimistic and cheerful. I always said, don't worry, I'm fine. I have tried many ways to find a job. If I fail to find a job, I will be able to see the problem gradually. I am drinking with people (I can't drink), just to find a spare job.

At the end of February 2014, as with all sad stories, sad dramas always come. She broke up with me. She said she didn't know if she still loves me. She said she wanted to be alone and think about it. I remember what she told me in the early morning. I only remember that I was very sad at the time. I went back to my nest and went to bed for an hour and finally failed to fall asleep because I was not a person who gave up easily. Eventually, I got up, turned on my computer, and set the first class of car to go to her hometown. Although I don't know where her hometown is, I only know where it is. Having not slept all night, just sitting so dull and waiting so silly. I dreamed that, like all love movies, when a girl sees a boy suddenly in front of herself, i'm excited to say nothing. With this idea, I set foot on the road to her hometown.

I think, if anyone else can check it out, thank you. Thank you for taking the time to read my previous experiences. Thank you very much.

Tragedy is always a tragedy, and it is difficult to have a fairy tale ending. In February, it was a bit cold, so I stood at the station and waited silly. I told her that I had to wait until the sunset. if I couldn't see her at the sunset, I would leave. In the end, I waited because her family knew that I had gone and worried that I would be stupid.

I don't want to continue talking about it. I just want to tell you the ending. Finally, she left me. I don't know why it was her or her family. Finally, I am the only one left. When I got back to Chongqing, I thought that I had not found a job, that I had lost her, and that I had experienced and suffered everything. I hid myself in the room and cried for several hours. I felt that my tears had dried up at that time, and I felt that I would not love it any more.


At last, in February, I lost everything I had and I had nothing. Maybe only when there is nothing to lose will you find that you are no longer afraid of losing.

Half a year ago, I was a construction engineer with nothing (I)