How to seek confidence in my life and talk about my life journey (1st)

On Saturday and Sunday, I had to get busy with my work. I stopped to write an article about the bitterness and bitterness of the past two decades.

I came to my own small rural area, where there were five members of our family: Dad, Mom, uncle, me and my brother. Uncle has never been married and has been following us. I still remember that when I was a child, when I was five years old, when he went out to work, he had a cerebral thrombosis, I have been tied to this disease for more than 20 years. I remember when my uncle died, I was in high school, where I was in high school and was facing the College Entrance Examination. My family didn't tell me to go back and send me the uncle, looking at Uncle's last side, this is the greatest regret in my life and the greatest disappointment in my life.

Dad is a common farmer in a village. He has always been an object I admire. From the time I remembered, he was a kind father and he was never willing to beat me. I have never been reluctant to beat my younger brother. I have always been persuaded to educate myself. I learned from his mouth that they were often beaten by my grandfather when they were young, but my father never beat us. At the same time, he also needs to bear the life of our family. Dad does physical work. He does more work than others every day because he wants to support our family. In this way, one day I lived, and now my dad is over 60, and I am still working with others. I think other parents have long enjoyed the family, he is still running around for our lives. I called him a few days ago and asked him how he was physically, how was the situation at home, how was my mother, and how was it. I hate and love in my heart.

My mother is a special person in our family. My mother is mentally retarded. From my birth to my walking, my father gave me a big hand. Mom is a very bad-tempered person. She gets angry when she does not move. When she is a child, she often suffers from attacks from her mother. It's not a light hit. Dad remembers clearly, when I was five years old, my younger brother was three years old. That night, my father went out to find money. My younger brother didn't know what was going on. He always cried. Maybe he was hungry. I went to coax him, but I don't know what's going on. My mother looked at him and saw my younger brother crying. She beat him with something. He was still so small, I was standing in front of him. While crying, I cried, and the neighbors on the other side heard it. They rushed over and took away the stuff in my mother's hand. I was no longer awake, I don't know what it is. The younger brother also cried. Dad came back and said nothing, so he sent me to the clinic. After living for a long time, I don't know if it's medication. When I woke up, I couldn't see anything. Then I went off and sent me to the hospital in the city. However, no reason is found. One night, when my father came back and the door rang, I got up and went down from the mirror, and almost fell to the ground. Fortunately, my father caught me. At that time, I was so scared that I lost my fear when I heard my father come back. Dad holds me. I said, Dad, you're back. That kind of picture is so beautiful that it remains in mind until now. When I grow up in a day, my eyes also get better in a day.

My younger brother is a very playful child, and he is more naughty than I have ever been. He is two years lower than me, but our relationship is old, just like a person. When we were young, we spent almost all our time together. He was almost impatient with me and did something. He has been infatuated with online games since he was in junior high school. His performance has been declining and his class teacher talked to me. When I went back, I told my father about it. It seems that it was the first time that my father beat him. It seems that the relationship between the two of us has never been good since then. Because I always sue him. In this way, the relationship between the two of me has never been good until now. I can't make a few calls in almost a year. He dropped out of school in the first half of the year. Since then, I have not gone to school. I asked him why he dropped out of school. He said that our family was not very good and we could not afford the two of us to go to school. The tuition fees were not paid in arrears. He didn't want the teacher to say in front of the class that he didn't pay full tuition. Now that you are studying well, you should go to school. I am going out to work. I would like to thank my brother for having my scores today. However, I was a little sorry for my younger brother. No matter what I said, he refused to go to school.

As for me? I am too stupid to study well. I am always the last few in my class in elementary school. I remember when I was in my sixth grade, when I saw our neighbor raising a sheep in my family, I cried every day and asked my dad to buy me a sheep, one day, my father couldn't bear me crying, and I bought a lamb from the market. I came back, so I was so happy that I fed him every day. Then my goat army grew stronger. One year later, we had two more lambs in our house. Although the uncle has cerebral thrombosis, walking is still normal, that is to say, it is unclear. He helped me feed the sheep and release the sheep every day. When I got home, most of them were with them. I don't know how to study every day. I thought I would rely on them to support my family in the future. I don't go to school every day. There was a small channel in the sheepfold. I hid it inside and lived with them for more than a month, but I was found at home, the teacher came to my house and told me that I had not gone to school for a month. I remember returning to my home that day. My clothes were full of dirt, and I came back almost every day for more than a month. My father asked me if the teacher had left homework today. I said no, but I didn't know what happened. Then, my father picked up the firestick and called me. He said, who told you not to go to school, who made you skip school. But I couldn't help crying. My father asked me why I didn't go to school. I said, "If you don't want to go to school, you will do what you want. I can't do it. What else? Dad said: I don't want my classmates to be able to afford it, because I didn't pay the tuition fee every time I say that I didn't pay it. Every time I asked you to go, you wouldn't go.
I have been standing outside the door for a long time, and I dare not enter the classroom again. You will not go to school until all the students are gone. The teacher said that you will not go to school if you do not pay the tuition fee tomorrow. That's why I didn't go to school. I think those sheep are more loving than my classmates. Dad is not talking. Tell me, just stay a few more days.

I'm sorry, I don't have to go to school anymore. In my dream, I thought that in the future, I would like to become a goat official and keep them fat so that I can sell money. But it wasn't long before my father suddenly told me one morning that I couldn't take my father to death when I went to school. But Dad didn't promise me, but sent me to campus. when dad left, I felt like I had followed up in jail. So horrible. Looking at the teacher's strange eyes, there are also the ridicule of the face.

I am still not in the mood to study, the teacher does not care about me, and no classmates help me. They all know the situation in my family, because I have a "silly" Mom, a poor dad, and a sick uncle. When will this bitter day come to the fore.

Sometimes I cry in my bed, why I don't have a healthy mother, why I don't have a rich dad, and why I grow up in such a family, I was not happy in my childhood. When I was very young, I learned how to cook because my mother often got angry and didn't cook, but I had to cook for us after I saw my father come back, so I started to learn how to cook. Back home, let dad have a hot meal.

I was supposed to go to junior high school. During the first day of school, I reported to the school and went to school wearing my clothes that I had never been willing to lose. They were talking to each other when they saw a new face. However, I still feel the gap with them. I would like to go home after a look at it, but it is no more than 600 metres away from my home and school. When I turned around and wanted to leave, a few people came over and asked me which class of students you were in. I didn't know how to answer them at the moment. I don't know, so you don't need to check it out. There's a name there, and the two of them went with me. The three of us are from work. We knew each other. Zhao Haiyang and Xu haishuang. We had a good chat. The two of them said, we will be friends in the future. I was the first to hear the word "friend" on me. At that time, I was also embarrassed to refuse, maybe they didn't know my home. I must have known that they will naturally leave. I thought it would be okay. At that time, I did not say anything. Maybe they will forget it tomorrow.

In the next few days, I did not take the initiative to talk to them. When I had time for class, I ran back and went to see my goat, I think they will be friends in my life. If you can talk to them about their psychology, you don't have to worry about that much in front of them. Sometimes, it's time to skip the course and skip the class. The two people I met on the first day both learned exactly the same thing. But I understand that they are not people along the way with me, and they cannot be with me. After all, someone treats you as a friend. The teacher talked to me many times, but I am not loyal, just want to help my father share some burden. Reduce some trouble for him. I don't know how long it will take, so I thought, let's see. The two people who treat you as friends are not the same as others. I thought it would be nice if I had no friends.

I don't know which afternoon the two of them stopped me. I thought I was wrong? Keep moving forward, ignore it, then the two of them chased up. Pat me on the shoulder and say, dude, you're too boring. You don't need to take your friends with you for any fun. I just said a word. I cannot compare with you. You are good students, and I am not doing anything. During the afternoon class, I had been thinking about things in the morning. They had no hatred with me. Why should I hurt people? I thought I was asleep. I don't even know after school. He shook his head and walked around at my desk. Hai Shuang-leng, suddenly shouted at the teacher in my ear. I was awakened. Somehow. He looked at me and the room was black. He said he would like to talk to me. I said there is nothing to say to you. I went straight to the door. I wanted to open it, but I couldn't open it.

He said that you should not waste your effort. The door was locked by my good friend's wire, just for fear that you ran away. What do you mean, why do you care about me. If you don't open the door, I will be rude to you. I broke my fist. I still remember that the ocean told me this way. You are a brave man. Why are you afraid to face yourself and your family? Why are you wasting your great opportunity? Why are you not friends. He told me with confidence. Because your family is poor and your mom is mentally retarded, do you think you are inferior to others? You don't have to decide which family you belong to. You have no choice but to face it. It depends on what you run before and after each day. It is related to your family. It proves that you are still a child, so we are talking to you today. I want to make you a friend. Let's help you two. Well, if you don't want your father to suffer any more, you have to study hard from now on.

At that time, my eyes were full of tears and I didn't know how good it was. It was Hai Shuang who leaned on his shoulder and said, "You can cry out if you have any hardships. If we are there, we will not let you have no friends. If you have any difficulties, I will definitely help you. No matter when you have difficulties, I will help you. Listening to this, it is not like talking about it from a junior high school student. Later I learned that both of them are cultural people.

Every day, the three of us will become inseparable friends. Hai Shuang, who is very careful at ordinary times, has patience in his work and has a face of death. I call him a girl. He mainly supplemented me with mathematics and English. In the ocean, this person is human and good, and the logic is better. I call it Yang. He is responsible for completing chemistry and physics for me. With the help of their two eldest brothers, I still made a lot of progress in my achievements, but I still did not learn well in elementary school courses, so I had to start from the basics. Both of them call me "Bian ". Do you know what this means?

They came to our house one week without a week. The house was very simple, messy, and dirty. But they didn't mind. They told me to teach me a lesson. I told him that you just let me go this day. What else do I have to do for a day? The next row does not. "No ".

You see all my sheep are hungry. Are you waiting for me to release them? Today, you two are going to release the sheep with me. You have not tried it. Is it a dream of Yang Guan that hasn't woken up yet! I explained, how can I solve this problem. When the goat was released, Hai Shuang suddenly asked me a question. He said, "What are your future dreams?" I asked him why to ask this question. I thought about it and said: I want to create a child in a good family. Smile and run away. He followed him up.

To be honest, what are your future dreams? He asked me again.

I said: in the future, I will not let my father do so hard work, so that my mother can wear better clothes, so that the uncle can treat doctors with money. Make my brother proud of me. I asked him what about you? He told me that I want to be a doctor. I asked him why, but he refused to say so.

Will you tell me? Please. He said that when he was a child, he often saw her suffer more and more when she was ill. When he said this, I hugged him and said, "Be strong.

Smile, life is still beautiful. I say, don't be so sad. Where did your Big husband's mentality go. Smile secretly, and you dare to make fun of me again.

In the past three years, we have become the best friends. As the saying goes, there is no banquet in the world. Now that we are about to enter the ideal high school, we have become the common aspiration of the three of us. I am also working overtime to study. He is still happy to help me.