I did not know how to deal with some things in March, half a year.

I was a little white man. In October, I left my college campus and started my career, just like ordinary people. When I was in high school, I had a habit of keeping a diary. I had fewer diaries after I went to college and less after work. Maybe I did not have any pressure on my work when I first got started, so I have the idea to write my diary and record my recent life. However, it was my job, and it was a little contrary to my mind. Obviously I was interested in computers. As a result, the University reported a major related to circuits and strong electrical connections, basically, I learned a little hardware knowledge. What about work? However, I am working on managing the daily expenses of the site. I just need to understand the expenses and sometimes help me with other jobs. Maybe after half a year, I feel like I am doing this again. This kind of work is really not the motivation for me to struggle. Then, after a year, I leave and buy a train ticket, I went to an XXXX training institution in Beijing to learn my favorite computers. It took nearly half a year to train, and I had to paste the money at home, my life went to February July of this year and I want to explain why I went to training. I can say that I only have a perceptual knowledge of programming, there is no actual development capability at all, let alone a project. In addition, if you need to charge your own resources and do not go to training, it is actually okay, but you just need to charge while working, maybe I have to pay a higher price, at least I think so.

I don't really want to talk about what I think about training institutions. What I have learned, at least I think, is to bring me into this industry. At least now I am, looking for a job that can be desired may not be so hard. You need to know that when you graduate, it feels like begging for a job. This is really the case. I don't know anything. I still want to earn more money. I am ignorant! Now it's okay, at least not as helpless as it was before. Let's talk about things after the training.

After the training, I started looking for a job and found it after a week. And the salary is 7500. Don't be surprised when you see this number. Of course, this number also makes me regret it. I have only been in this job for two months, and then I quit. Why? Because of the salary problem, there are also some personal reasons, the main contradiction lies in the salary. At that time, I entered this entrepreneurial team, and I only needed 7 K. As a result, the main city saw that my technology was not bad, 500 more. What is the result? The first month's salary was only a poor 3500. At that time, it was said that it was 80% yuan. I cannot explain how the 3500 yuan was calculated. In addition, a start-up company found a salary, today, tomorrow, you will know that it cannot be found out. I regret that I didn't sign a contract at the time, so I am very comfortable with the company. Then, at the end of the second month, I had no idea. Now, I haven't got my salary in the second month. I guess I don't expect it. I asked the person in charge there a few days ago, it was said that I had money in a few days, and then I had to leave office for almost 40 days. I had to say this to me. It is also a lesson to give yourself. Some things have to be experienced. Basically, they have been abandoned in the past two months, but it is also a bit rewarding. I have known some good colleagues and I am still in touch. What then? Then I left Beijing. In fact, I regretted that I didn't select another company. The reason why I didn't choose it was that the company did not play games, but made military software, if I want to go to QT, the front-end interface will be very well-paid, and there will be dinner during overtime. As long as I work overtime, I don't have to worry about eating. To be honest, at that time, I did not write any questions about QT, but C ++ answered a lot. I thought it was good. Of course I hired the interview results, you know, that was my first time I went out for an interview, and I got a pretty good salary. I got 6500 + Five insurances, one gold, shuttle bus, overtime allowance, and work meals. If I had 2 at the time, maybe I did. Of course, I didn't go, but I went to this startup company and had nothing. I still couldn't pay on time, not to say I didn't like it, but to think more, I didn't plan to stay in Beijing for two years or something. In fact, my idea of wanting to go home has long been there. As a result, I went home directly and didn't think about anything else. In fact, I went home more because I liked her. I have been chasing her since I met her two years ago. Now, I have completely let her go, because she has no feeling for me, even if I went to her, I didn't give her a chance to meet each other. That is, when she graduated (in December), a boy entered her life. Then, I still had 2 fantasies. After I came back, I realized that even if I did more things for her, she was never my food. I was so tired because she was alive, I am a little tired. I just got my job done when I came back and didn't have a lot of money. What do I say about my salary? In fact, my previous work has completely changed my views on my salary, my salary only keeps me alive. I want to earn more money and make good use of my time out of work.

I learned that she had a boyfriend when she was in February, and I didn't ask too much, nor did I take the initiative to call her. In the first few days, it is indeed a bit difficult to accept this fact. Now, I haven't contacted her for more than half a month. I feel this is a normal thing. Sometimes I will pull out my cell phone and flip through my address book after work, but it's just a flip. She's no longer on the phone. On her birthday last year, she bought a croissant comb for her, but she doesn't know what to think about if she combs her hair every morning. Maybe she never used it. Then, because of this, the friends who used to play well started me with it. Now, in addition to work, sleeping, and rarely getting in touch with others, they concentrate on cocos2dx, yes, I have been doing this all the time. Maybe I will go to Shanghai or Guangzhou next year, or I will go back to Beijing to find a company that looks like me and work honestly for two years, meet a group of people.

How can this company say that there are only two cocos2dx developers, and all development tasks are basically piled up on me? Besides, I have never done any practical development projects, it took me nearly a month to make a fake game. It's really a bit embarrassing. How can we make technological progress? I always felt that I had been impetuous for almost a year. Last year, I still insisted on reading several pages of books every night. However, after the training, I seldom read books again. I feel very little about what I have learned. Maybe I really should have been well-developed for a while. Don't be so impetuous. don't go through with yourself every day. If she doesn't see me or like me, it may not be a bad thing. I believe this truth, and Sai Weng is out of luck, do you know that you are not lucky?

From today's actions, we can see what you are doing tomorrow, and life is always fair. I still need to learn a lot, and there are only a few technologies, it is more about how to live and how to deal with uncertain things. At the same time, I wish her good luck. No matter what, she has no hatred with me. As a friend, I still hope she can do better. Yesterday, I saw this sentence in the space: "To see a person, why should I expose it, hate a person, why should I turn my face, so hard to double loss, get bored with others, and disrupt myself ." Give it to yourself and everyone with a normal heart.

I did not know how to deal with some things in March, half a year.