I just want to find someone to talk and talk about my recent four years of experience-02

My university, basically is to sleep, game, play Buzz (g+ predecessor), Study Buddhism, I am a intoxicated in their own world of people, if not the work needs, I think I may now also can not go out of self, I Masquerade

High school, fascinated by legends, extremely addictive, dropped out of school for two months. After the withdrawal procedure, repeat the school. Because often and old classmates contact, so this time the isolation of interpersonal relationship is not too strong, but also can quickly and new classmates to play together. To prevent me from surfing the internet again, my mother companion with me. Because my mother looked too tight, almost no time on the internet, and my economy was controlled very dead, so generally choose the fourth night to go to the game Hall to play, five cents two people play one hours, hit the biggest is the "Three Kingdoms War record 2", because this time can grasp in a class time, this point home, my mother will not find abnormal. Internet addiction is still some, no money, no time can only be dropped.

I do not know whether the person who quit the internet addiction and I have the same feeling, it may be the feeling of death between lovers, really, from unable to extricate oneself to the compulsory isolation, my whole outlook on life began decadent, it seems that any thing is not so important, what the reaction is slow people a beat, do what things are no enthusiasm no interest. Also secretly ran to the Internet bar, every time as long as a sitting to the Internet bar, full of guilt, Gu Tian Siwang, worried about their parents to find, until the freshman, this feeling has not been completely eliminated.

After a semester, my roommate and the other boys in the bedroom together, the SC on the above to live in my dorm. At that time, the school did not allow us to pull the fast belt, we use the Telephone line dial the Internet, is at such a slow speed, SC set up a legend? I want to say that everyone is obsessed with something, SC and his cousin is more than I am obsessed with the legend, and at this time I have changed to play "Fantasy West Tour"

In the class, I with qzt, Viagra, lao Wang, we play a few better. Viagra is a 2b, talk is jumping, life in their own world, the mantra is "2b", "yarn", the recent years replaced by "tease." ZT is a northeast person, may be the character fit, I and he walked nearly a lot. 13 He married, far northeast, but rushed to my father after the operation not long, his wedding I did not participate, because I have no money, to tell the truth I am afraid he blame me, until now have not contacted, perhaps is estranged. Lao Wang This goods, can also see a two or three times a year. viagra now live in my rented house, live my don't say, can find a job also mostly rely on my counseling plus bullying, only to find, this goods never gave me half a dime.

Sophomore semester, SC and his cousin run the legend? If he loses, he will be suspended from school, and this bedroom is basically my monopoly. Since he left, I do not know why the mood is very low, also began to have some weariness, in short, is mindedly do not want to read. It is because of what, I can not remember now. Probably a number of emotional fragments, because the original and SC discussion of how to suspend school, as if this is not the reason. It's because the tuition is too expensive to go to college, and it doesn't seem to be the reason. Still can because of what, anyhow now in retrospect, just think oneself is very silly.

You see, people sometimes is emotional, but after that, the original things are not clear, I now if asked SC, why you sophomore suspended, he will certainly say he was stupid. Really, when things are gone, things are not important in themselves, let alone the cause of things.

I do not know how I was emotional, to my parents caused a lot of trouble, the world if I am sorry people, it must be my parents, if asked me the most resentment of who is my parents it. I was raised to be a captive child. From kindergarten onwards must write every night, until junior high school graduation, every night must study, summer and winter is also, every day to write homework, unless it is New Year's Eve and the Mid-Autumn festival, never stop. I was a child of the desire to play, endless play, who don't care about my mother.

I often do not understand, good grades and buried hard study what kind of inevitable relationship, this is clearly horse cock stuffed into the bull's eye, you also hope that the cow can give you a donkey. A neighbor's children reading, or learning from me how to learn, I just a word, children you let him play, learn what to learn, 20-year-old began to learn is not too late. I now see children learning my head pain, learning a Mao school, which lively to where to play much better.

I don't think it is necessary to study without interest or lack of mission. The idea of learning can be triggered externally, but the motivation of learning, perseverance must be within the hair, this is a continuous process, is the personal will in the life of the path of the moment, is the most beautiful moment of life, is not the force of continuous persecution can be completed. If you complete this stage, this is your eternal wealth, this glory is worth your tears, because you have your own things, no one can take away.

Sophomore next semester in my single dorm, every night there are tens of people come to Jinhua Bar, a dime to do the bottom, two pieces of money capped. I every night more than two o'clock cleaning, mainly to sweep cigarette butts, and then point a smoke to see "The West Tour", every night, every night to see, and repeatedly see, just the title song "Reed Marshland Serves" I have been intercepted repeatedly play, I know their emotional agitation, I also want to calm their hearts, but until now I have not tamed my heart.

Sophomore next semester exam I did not attend, credit owed to 42 points, 36 points above the dismissal, the start of the time to retake the two door, reluctantly not expelled, and then more than 16 credits is repeat. I have to repeat the class, I did not go to the classes, just a little familiar with the monitor, and other people do not know.

This is my first half of the university, I was in about 07 years, that is, sophomore began to realize that I began to block their own heart, I can feel. This time although I also play games, but obviously no high school so obsessed, the game that the magnificent color has disappeared in my heart, I think at that time I have to abandon the obsession with the game of self, I do not know that is a kind of endless sadness. Like May 1 to Hefei, that black car driver all the way to ramble about has been cheated into the experience of pyramid schemes, one side said that the high-level MLM is more rich, said that his money was cheated, but did not mix in the high-level, the tone of a little indignation, and the end of the sentence reveals a plaintive, or not completely out of the shadow of After his words, two eyes on the empty, that melancholy and I had a dash of similar, as if something was taken away, people are so free ...

I just want to find someone to talk and talk about my recent four years of experience-02