I've been thinking about life late at night

　　Recent thoughts a bit chaotic, do not do any sort of write down some feelings, think of where to write. Before writing and documenting your study notes are in Evernote, honestly, you don't like to share your emotions and ideas online. Recently think, learning technology or to communicate with the outside world, to catch up with more recent thoughts, but also want to record the psychological distance. To Shanghai, Cisco internship for a period of time, the culture of foreign companies is relatively comfortable, the level of the concept of a relatively light, humane care is also very good (birthday also sent a Lamy Safari), very strange point is it foreign women many, working at Cisco, their management and collaboration made me impressive. In this environment, everyone should have initiative, to self-management, no one will give you a hand to arrange. When I first came to Cisco, the project began to need research needs, I have been waiting for our manager to give me instructions when the meeting, and then after a few days have not responded, I took the initiative on the Jabber asked: "When we have a meeting ah ... The manager said you have to arrange Ah, you book each person's time (this in my previous work way and thought of simply can't think of, I am just an intern ah, they usually work so, each colleague only to the thing is not the person, if this matter is you in charge, if need others assistance, send a meeting invite on line, The subordinate relationship is not very obvious, as long as the work can be completed. Then the second time to confirm the needs of the time and did not respond to, and then get used to, anyway, there is progress need to discuss, on my own organization of the meeting, to tell the truth in Cisco this period of time let me exercise the most is this initiative to work and a kind of organizational and collaborative ability. In the case of Cisco, a company that has been in the country for the last few years, has been laying off staff, but generally speaking, Cisco is an easy-going company, and if someone who doesn't have a lot of ideas is a good fit for Cisco, it may not be possible to jump out of it for a long time. From the internship to the present, a total of over three years of companies, from the start-up small companies, to the Chi of large companies, to multinational companies, the characteristics of various companies are obvious. The first small company does not have a system of organizational structure, the boss or not the industry, several people is a product team, and then went to the letter, is to mobile companies to do data products, such as the company, the company belongs to thousands of people level, seemingly clear organization, peacetime style and Cisco this large multinational company a bit like, But in essence, the foundation of the rule of man in the domestic company, not a good sense of belonging to work inside. My supervisor worked overtime and didn't know how long, and he was on a business trip, feeling that there was no life at all in years. In the internship there is also a very important point, is not to think of someone will teach you, unless you really bursting, you must be thick-skinned active ask, anyway is an internship, let people hate it all right. Big company is feeling things too vast, do a screw feel I do not like, in addition to feel the learning stage, progress a bit slow ...Recently also have been thinking about the path after graduation, after thinking, I feel that I am still more suitable to have technical background but there is no big company disease company, about 100-200 people company is my type. Come to Shanghai so long, there are no friends and people know, feel sometimes very lonely, choose a city, not only to consider the material settlement costs and more important is the spiritual cost. All my friends are in Hangzhou, these weekends also often go back, want to go, or think that the city of Hangzhou may be more suitable for me, Shanghai may not be my permanent.

This time also participate in some of the company's school recruit, feel ready to deal with the process of the written examination to make oneself very impetuous, feel this does not use, like the previous exam. Only into the project will let my own calm down, to see those written questions in the heart always have a resistance, I do not know why. May be the basic knowledge of their own lack of confidence, and there is a reason, brush written questions are always floating on the surface, so I think it is in order to do the problem and brush the problem, is totally wasting their time. So oneself also in the heart set down after introspection oneself, join me from now regard oneself as already graduated to treat, starting from now no longer float on the surface, that one year after the equivalent of one year experience, otherwise just find a job only. Tell yourself, must not impetuous, must pay attention to their own ascension itself.

　　

I've been thinking about life late at night