I'm naturally high on my own.

This evening, I just realized that I feel high above, and my cousin said so many principles ah, tell him how to do, hehe, these are just their own feeling nothing.

I wonder why I want to go back to my own company, I am holding an attitude at work, a project to do 22 days, but no progress, as my own attitude, I always think I do a lot of things, but I do not do anything.

I was for the time of the class to arrange, and back to my previous company, in their own due to the 1W more tuition, I do realize that their attitude is not good, I do not care about their families, friends do not care, but this cost may be high. I feel the colleague's words are reasonable, give their own investment, improve themselves, owe tuition in a few months can be paid off. I was so conflicted with his ideas that I felt justified.

Today, my colleague told me to do a credit card, but also his money, I found that no money to count a fart, I have no way, last class, owed to other people's tuition. My own overtime mood has become worse.

My cousin and I said that, only to find that no money when the helpless, said more, money will still not come to my hands,

My classmates have asked me to join their venture out of the army, I was going to, but I because each month 2K of living expenses, the end of the dividend, when I feel that I need money, I refused to join in, back to the previous company to work, I am still my departure before I, work attitude was slow, lazy, think much. At work, QQ on the tight or be called to modify the function of other projects, feel that their day is not good things. At present, I go back to see, I can only blame myself not scheduled to work time, is my own work, feel I do not work with the current project, I can modify other projects, delay the completion of the project time, I found myself wrong, who will be the real relationship you have done before the project to do anything, Based on the results, the project was not completed.

Perhaps I am now after the class, I really will go to the initiative to contact me before I think it is a good friend, some also because the other busy, and have to break their previous words, to do things. I become a person who can only preach, without actually acting. In the virtual world, indeed, as things say, the people inside are open, we do not know each other, what is said and what impact on ourselves? The answer is no.

Confused is not responsible for myself, I still can not find the goal, I keep saying that the future to do PHP architects, think that is not code, as long as the brain on the OK position, my PHP level I feel to proficiency level, until the interview in May, I found that their PHP is not skilled, Indeed, I now work, I even a PDO of the insert to Baidu, only to my own hehe, learning python,go,node.js,ruby,linux,qt,qml,c++, these are not interrupted halfway, may have just opened a head, it has stopped, Do not study, hold the heart of learning is possible, learn other languages, understand other language ideas, which is also true. But I did not insist on the study, I myself now even to my meal to eat php are not good, hey, only hate themselves not to make up, dry almost three years, PHP level, almost stay in the PHP100 old video of the 15th episode of the level.

At present web,php, oneself bored, always want to take other development language to disguise this boredom, GUI is I most yearn for, be numb.

I am a bad guy who is numb, lazy, indifferent to friends and family.

I'm naturally high on my own.