Just floating around---a naked speech from a three-month-old Java programmer

Note: This is not a technical article, but a record of my experience in the past few months into the job, bare words, look for work in the mind course, a brief introduction of a blogger, I was a 16 graduate, the school recruit into a Beijing company, Java Development, and many young people, dry for a period of time, I found that this work and my career planning does not match, so, bare speech, from Beijing killed to Shanghai, experienced a hard job looking for work, and smoothly into a company of their own right, this article is the late night insomnia when written, the desire to talk, the style may be literary and artistic, the wording slightly long, hoping to give some friends a little revelation, A little share, a little encouragement, no it, light spray.

In the next train, I glanced at the clock on the platform, 4.1 ticks, early morning, Beijing West station.

At this time, I would like to call someone, who can do, ask him, have you seen Beijing in the four o'clock in the morning? I've seen it before.

But I know, this trip to Beijing is real, not the shooting, quietly into the village. Because this time, I came to resign, resignation, can drums?

Three months ago, I got off at the same train, carrying a strange address, like countless young graduates, ready to do some of the city.

Normal, cumbersome, leisurely to do the entry procedures, small companies, programmers, five-digit monthly salary, the first day off work and students standing on the side of the Tonghuihe, Jiangshan, I feel that I do not grasp the point railing are going to float up, indeed, very good starting point, is not it?

It won't be long before I get a raise.

I heard that the first difficult, is to rent a house, black intermediary awash, hard to stop, call it, the pit is to go, first, nowhere to live, the night of a four-star hotel, the next day hurriedly moved to the company next to the small hotel, the price straight down thirty or forty yuan, the big province of a pen.

Not a few days to find the favorite house, an intermediary to look for, the monthly rent 3500, 50 flat, two people live, intermediary is a just graduated girl, one can see that, may be because makeup painting of the reason, I think she is very sincere.

Living in the big house the first night, I and my roommate squeezed a bed, no shop, no things to cover, of course, there is no pillow, we can only complain to each other,,,, complaining about each other is not a woman.

The next few days, slowly into the rhythm, because live from the company not far away, we both Amoy a bike, also bought pots and pans, began to enter the day into a limerick rhythm.

Promptly spotted in, 10 days later, the company suddenly said that the new staff group travel, three months later back, what? We have rented a house, bet a pay three Ah, only live for 10 days Ah, the company said, oh, yes, what does it matter to me, then why didn't you tell us? The company said .... The company didn't say anything.

Here to talk about the company's situation, the brand cautionary, in the current Internet environment, there are such a group of companies, known as traditional software companies, they have such a part, most have one or two sets into (Chen) cooked (JIU) products, what OA Ah, ERP Ah, probably this, Then the company relies on this will be able to feed a large number of people, this company development department is basically to clip the tail of a man, not to be valued, probably our company this, of course, here, I am not against our company, I mean, all of you here, the traditional software companies, are rubbish. A friend who has just launched, be cautious, Far more complicated than the walls.

That was the first time I moved the idea of resignation, but too young, too simple, then the whole incident to my feelings is offing, have to send, and a few colleagues like Angry Birds radiate from Beijing to different cities, then, when, from my arrival in Beijing, just half a month, quirks, I was divided into Shanghai, Was pushed up to the magic of the high-speed rail, thieves Laragui fares let me think the train can open to the South China Sea, out of the country, I put Beijing's subway card to the bottom of the bag, I will come back, I think.

First to Shanghai, it is a good impression of the city, because there is no water security screening, Shanghai bus is really interesting, Mandarin, English, but also add Shanghai dialect, minutes to make people laugh, so strong Shanghai language, I wear. I quickly forget the work of the bad, began to show their strong adaptability, the next day, To see more than 10 years of primary school classmate, she to my arrival expressed applauded, standing on the edge of the Waitan, we exchanged some life experience and experience, listen to her said she will go abroad to read the law, I nod support, I hope she can breathe for me a few free air. The next day, I went to see a good friend, He to my arrival expressed Shing, standing at the foot of the Oriental Pearl, we exchanged some life experience and experience, listen to him said he just came when also very uncomfortable, fortunately, a few days girlfriend will graduate school, in a very famous university to read the law, I nodded in favor of, I hope that he can become a successful example of my love for long-distance running, and that China is effective in carrying out the rule of law.

is not willing to spend more than two months of life in Shanghai, a short summary is that I was working, did not write a line of code, in addition to a few non-nutritional SQL statements, the seriousness of the problem, understand the nature of the people understand, that period of time depressed to the extreme, even started a bit of despair, work hours, mostly idle, I watched the mundane world in less than a week, more than 1 million words of the novel, do not know it is my initiative to find this novel, or this novel found me, in the Kindle saved a lot of books, an ordinary world one day, opened it, did not press the return button, this book was read in the juvenile period, Content also remember 7788, perhaps the change of mood, once again, like the beginning, a few tears, there is a curtain outside the banana, the fate of the door to provoke patina, read, as if to become sun shaoping back to that era of life, although not enlightened, but also can faint can understand the author to express feelings, presumably, No matter how hard, you have to smile face life, I heard that has been changed into a TV show, came back from work hurriedly searched, a set abandoned.

    work is so easy, So that I think the company is like a fool, every morning, I will wake up around six o'clock, will not sleep the kind, generally I will get up and pour a cup of water overnight, standing on the windowsill to drink, and then lying on the bed, I sometimes imagine myself with the existing thinking through to the primary school, a leapfrog, amputated various genius, juvenile fame, Study abroad, sometimes simply do not want to, quietly waiting for the sound of the toilet, colleagues always in eight to 8.1 ticks out of the toilet, I have not understand why he peed when the sound so grand, he did not know that the flow along the toilet wall down can achieve ten noise, Wash finished, we walk to work, the road generally buy two buns, open bun Shop is a couple, never stern, two months I saw a man smile, he must be a big event, I think, work hours, 8:30 to 11:30, 1:30 P.M. to 5:30, most of the time, I have nothing to do, just look at the book, look at the tutorial, or brush the phone, it seems I also learned and bored, 5:30 work, an office, an instant a huge wave of heat and loneliness head-on, go back to the road, will pass a park, I often see someone in broad daylight standing behind the Bushes pee, This makes me feel, Shanghai, so much so, a basketball court next to the park, usually I will add in a fight for a while, idle for a whole day, I have to put energy and physical strength in another way to release, tired, will allow people to the status quo. Thus enhancing the sense of well-being.

    Speaking of playing, I want to mention that the painful experience of my Zhi feet, In the tone of Kobe Bryant, that is, you know, that action I did thousands of times, back, shooting, landing, but on that occasion, it happened. Landing for a moment, a tear-like pain from the heel all the way to the brain, less than three minutes, the swelling can not bear to look straight, I sit on the sidelines, Looking at the average age over 40 years old people in the light of arm, with a big belly, shouting to the ball, I think, I am 40 years old must not like them so fat, open cell phone, made a circle of friends, days more and more dark, mosquito bites several mouth, I suddenly found that, I was in a strange city a strange stadium encountered trouble, will no one to help me, no one back me back, no one for me to bring rice, no one to buy me medicine, desperate, who can give me care, the last drop express the aid of the hand, in the downstairs drugstore difficult to buy medicine, down-to-earth, One step at a grinning back to his room, paralyzed in the bed feel like walking in the desert for three days and three nights, I took out a cell phone, see several comments and praise, "lying trough, how do you in Shanghai Lujiazui", "Hey, when you come to Shanghai", "mainly want to show a wave of positioning it", or there are a lot of students care about me, really good, I threw away the cell phone, began to think, what to do next, although did not eat, but also not hungry, the right leg support left leg, left foot on the medicine, the hand of the mobile phone to the home people reported the peace, that one night, the ankle came from the pain of the sting of my sleepless night, one o'clock in the morning more when the window spilled a little moonlight I think this scene, need to deal with this, the lens first a big prospect let me live in the building and the Sky Bend Monthly mirror, and then a slow flat shake, let my room position placed in the middle of the nine Gongge lens, and then quickly after the slow push lens from the windowsill into the room, all the quiet, the lens slowly close to the scene, close The last one overlooking the lens fixed above me 45 degrees, if the atmosphere is right, I will shed a few tears, through the moonlight, the lens looming to capture the faint tears of the face, I will slowly turn my head to look out of the window, and then the subjective lens follow my direction to move out of the window, when the opposite upstairs the last lamp, extinguished, the

Time flies, the blink of an eye to the end of September, in the technical period is basically stagnant, I know a lot of license plate, what Louis Martin, Maserati, the company door is a Louis Martin 4s shop, occasionally can see a few grades and my similar people to see the car, commissioning, the city will never lack of rich, House prices rose to 500,001 flat, still someone according to a single full, it is a world I can not understand, the end of the company's HR to call me, told me that during the assessment of your work enthusiasm is not too high, well, indeed, I sometimes watch a day of work video tutorial, she said, I do not make waves, I resign, I calm.

The gap between ideal and reality is sometimes unacceptable, entry three months, leaving, for me, is not easy, although the heart of the strong awareness can not be in such a little bit of life, but the thought of the future of uncertainty, but also slightly feel chilling, anxiety in those days, almost seconds not absent, come back from work. Standing on the windowsill of the room, I can see far from the Oriental pearl in the Night Lights, accept the worship of thousands of buildings, it receives tens of millions of people's attention every day, but those who are glimpse, turned into the sea, disappear, it should also be numb bar, born wandering, suddenly think of half of this song, en, decided to resign, to Shanghai to find a job , I spit out my breath, hastily but resolutely formulated this decision that will have a major impact on me, whether right or wrong.

In fact, a lot of things are difficult, just because we are indecisive, lost, decided once made, the rest only need to solve the problem, the National Day home, parents or old, I calmly said my decision, mom and dad do not understand, but support, everything is not as bad as I think, the holiday is over, Once again I set foot on the train to Beijing.

A friend asked me, do you want to go to which company, there is no more like the company, hear this, I really want to play his brain collapse, as far as I know, through the social recruitment of fresh graduates, there is only one way, that is the sea investment resume, and then wait for the company with you about the interview, to Beijing train, I received the first company interview invitation , it seems that life is developing in an increasingly good direction.

I got off the train at four. Squat in the subway station until 5:30 to take refuge in a high school good friend, to his rented house, directly fell on the couch to sleep in the past, woke up has more than 11, I first went to find a high school classmate, in Beijing, read research, even coax to cheat, let her and I went to the company, to do the separation formalities, On the subway, I exchanged with her some of these years of life experience and experience, she said, again school is not sad, and boyfriend separated thousands of miles away, feel life indifferent tasteless, she said she want to continue to read Bo, I support, and said to her, you like a person, I think will like a long time, wish you happiness, she knows what I mean, Life has been stormy and rainy, the past needless to mention, there is a person with a good mood, the afternoon to send her back to school, and to another junior high school students, called, I know he was in the vicinity of the work, in a fresh Taro fairy shop, I leisurely wait, he hurried to appear, I and he exchanged some of these years of life experience and experience, he said, Work every day to more than 10, weekend overtime is the norm, the wages of his poor, but he is now an intern, also do not care, learned that I want to go to Shanghai to find a job, he said next year graduation I also try to find a job there, I said, it is too good, I was still a little ashamed, originally I can give you some As a result you have not come I left, you have not gone, I also want to go, we talk very happy, laugh, no scruples, he had to go back to work overtime at night, will also hurried away.

      the next night, I once again on the train to Shanghai, this time I am more calm, because already about five interviews, there are two is my preferred company, at least enough for me to work for a period of time, in the speeding train, I began to think of their more than six months of unrest, first into the workplace confusion, as well as the memory of the university ease of life, Do not know is because of confusion and miss before, or because of the ease of the past to let people lazy thinking, just become confused, things never imagined difficulties, many times, is because of the choice, only become restless, I used to think, work, is not to make money, the purpose of the work is not to work, now feel, Really not, maybe we do not know what we really want to do, but certainly know that they do not want to do, waves, waves, thousands of miles, the river never closed. The night will come, I will watch from now on, until the dead party ....

      I returned the Beijing Metro card when I left. Leave Shanghai before the holiday, I run a Shanghai Metro card, back to Shanghai, began to have never experienced the social recruit Maiden show, originally wanted to describe this period of sadness, but I was meant to be inspirational, do not mention, in short, the surface calm heart already surging, Wednesday to Shanghai, Thursday to interview the first, two rounds of interview, In less than two hours, Friday morning gave the results, said the interviewer is satisfied with me, expect me to join, but the salary must be lower than your home company, Friday afternoon and go to the second, the written test plus two rounds of technical surface of the HR face has been from a point more than five points, HR said the first three rounds to you are satisfied, but also need the CEO face, Next Monday come again, what, also to CEO face, is to be CEO, marry mating of that CEO, I pretended to calmly said Monday I have two interview, she then set the time in the 5:30, Monday morning, I went to the third House, to the company door, hesitated for a long time, eventually did not go in, Because the afternoon is a more I like the company's interview, I am afraid of energy will not keep up, the afternoon to fourth, this is a rapid development of the company nearly two or three years ago, do audio, I am also their product users, never to start two o'clock, until I came out of the company, looked at the table, 5:10, two rounds of interview three hours, Out of the direct collapse, there are 20 minutes left, I trot along with the second company to navigate to the last round of interviews, finally everything is smooth, face three, all smooth through, I self-confidence, also do not intend to participate in the next interview, began to make a choice, of which the second company can open to five digits, but my heart early decision , at this point, all the dust settles. Which sad, can write a few days and nights, but, the result is good, the process will appear cloud light wind light, I am very satisfied.

The next day, a meal with friends, chatted about the past, chatted about the future, we decided to rent a house, I think of high school, my other brother, is the former mentioned in Beijing, the girl who was in the study of the people who once liked, we always inseparable, also a fantasy, after graduation to a strange city, Looking for a job, a rent a house, a blow, I suddenly feel, that originally was four or five years ago, and now I have and another person live this life, and now we also occasionally contact, chat the feeling is still, we can very tacit a second into the play, listen to him said, if all smooth, next year he also going abroad, I asked his girlfriend what to do, he did not elaborate, everything seems not so good, but also not so bad, students are more and more distant, those who have been around people, their lives have been my trajectory, later, with the time of the push, so, scattered in the Tianya, most of them have a new partner, you no longer familiar with, Also participate not in, tu resentment, twists, time, such as snow, cover all, but life still continue, I also gave myself a hope, I want to live ordinary and decent, keep body, once friends also must be on the road to realize their own the ups and downs of the road, here is not the end, is not a stranger, Although those fate of the intertwined end will be more and more light, in the farther away on the road, or sincerely, may you have no waves in the years.

Just floating around---a naked speech from a three-month-old Java programmer