Knocking at the door of the autumn rain Indus--2018 after the exam

Today is the national day, it is time to look back at the road, no longer escape, no longer cover up, Frank face.

Since 2018, how long after the test did not really happy, this I do not know, the confusion of the road all the time is confusing me, the failure of the test so I can not lift the head, taunt is followed, so I began to doubt their ability, the teacher also noncommittal. No one blames me for anything, the test is their own, life is their own, others see only the final result, and the process has to come out of their own, I have never been a rational person, not rational to analyze, according to their own emotions to think. My mother and my father are the kind of people who will not be very likely to blame me, for the test they will be free to say two words, can be uncomfortable is me, not other people.

Grades did not come out before the choice to Zhejiang training, in order to 2018 of the noip,2017 0 is normal personal think, those problems are not well written, will not write, so decisive give up, at that time even a search will not play now think very much regret, is probably 7.7, No. 7.8 test results came out, Then know that their test is very rubbish, the English test collapsed, fortunately, the other has not collapsed, has not been a fraction of the disappointment, It happened that life lied to me. That was 7.10 of the day, that day memory party was fresh, the sky is black, sitting in front of the computer I was so helpless, unable to control their own began to cry, next to the second day little girl watching me laugh, heartbroken, confused as I, those days I do not know how the past, the feeling of training is not training but exercise their ability to speak of what Do not listen only to their own mood, and then want to hurry home, and do not want to go home, uncomfortable mood lingering.

If you abandon me, yesterday's day is not to be left. Those who mess with my heart, today's day more worries.

From the day has been nearly three months, the heart has cooled down, but Ah, people have changed, is not the proud but not the ability of the Fzh, Chdy appeared, no longer play the game Chdy, the calm chdy, treat people mild chdy back, bear a great pressure, Sister college entrance exam success, Against me this loser, loser and what qualifications to speak, junior high school students are to see the junior high school teachers several times, I do not even want to think, afraid of stepping into junior high school, I am sorry teachers, so decided to study Oi, a lot of new senior people like to ask when I began to learn? I always tell them that I started from second day, they have to find a suitable reason for me than their level, but I still know No. 7.3 before I was a person who even did not understand the search, summer vacation? Basically did not play, after training every day to the computer room, not a day off, the level is also improving, FZH is no longer self-confidence, the book's insistence must be successful, this is deceptive? I've been asking myself if I can do it, I don't know.

And will new fire test tea, poetry wine while the years.

School after the division to a regular class, their words are not very cool, but this is their own results, the results so that I feel the pressure, the class has two junior high school students I even don't dare to talk to them, their daily life, homework, there is no time to write, all of their self-study class time in the computer room, Noon Lunch break never back to the bedroom, I want to insist, adhere to, adhere to.

Happy days have passed, sober themselves still in persistent pursuit, students say what that is your "wishful thinking" heartache, but maybe it is, this naïve child, this silly child, this good scar forget the pain of the child. This obviously very eager but always show the very indifferent children, really is very annoying ah. Hate the self, hate the failure of their own.

The smell of the road yumen is covered, the life should be light car.

This verse has a lot of memories, now can wait until two years later to take out, the former I have not.

To the youth that I did not cherish well.

Knocking at the door of the autumn rain Indus--2018 after the exam