My experience of cultivation--Minting "Turn"

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Following the empty master practice is now the sixth year. It was when I felt my life was in a hopeless situation when I became an empty master. I tried all the hard work I could do at the time, eager to focus on health and miracles. I had a failed life, I also lost my health. When I was lucky enough to find master, I was like a drowning man trying desperately to catch the last straw.

Man is not so simple as to live. I'm not saying this because living is a complex thing, but most people are living in complex, so it is not easy to realize that living is not too complicated. Perhaps, this is also the "three realms of idealism, the knowledge of the universal law," an understanding of it. Life is also "the idealism of the present, the only knowledge of the change." If we can simply and directly face the life, destiny may not be able to deal with us. Never say give up, never say that you have worked hard. In fact, we can work harder. Those who cannot beat us will eventually make us stronger. Be thankful to live, forever.

About the practice, bit by bit, I combed the numerous thoughts for a few days, still feel bad expression. Daily work, study and life, busy and full, I try to master the requirements of their own. All my words can be called right, none of them come from master and other ancient sages, and the wrong ones need constant inspection and correction. In fact, I would like to summarize my practice with the commentary made by someone at the end of the poet Rilke Letter: "A great man, a place where one meets the other, the little man must be silent." Yes, I should have kept silent. This time I make an exception to break the silence, share with you some of my experience.

No door to repentance

With a review of the past and gratitude to all the heart of all these years, I am ashamed to feel that I was also happy. Happiness is a person's active perception, not a specific standard. I was at the beginning of happiness, some too casual. Just in those regrets and complaints, a lot of valuable things began to drain away from me. Now happy to look at the original struggling to see me, my heart will be born with deep shame and regret, but also for the original I finally failed to give up and gratified.

Before I met Master, I struggled to ask myself how many bad karma had been created in my previous life so that I could repay it in my lifetime? Many people like me who have been hit by the fate of the little people, may have been naïve to hope that one day can get God's salvation. Years later I began to understand that if there was a god in this world, then God should be ourselves. If one day we become cornered, then we actually have not fully worked hard, otherwise, there will always be a way out.

The sub-health that began in the middle school years has made me spend my life in tinkering with it. Studies, work, life, several setbacks, a good chance of life missed, and to give birth to the children after the worse, so I do not know how to continue life in the end. Pray, chant, repent, seek medicine ... Until later in despair. But must live. Perhaps, when life is hopeless, nothing is more frightening than choosing to live. At that time, I felt powerless and frightened at the unknown future. I also have my unfinished responsibilities and mission. My growing old parents, my infant son, my equally helpless husband, my relatives, friends .... Great pain in my heart, I have no tears already. Crying has not been able to express that kind of emotion, and nowadays any form of narrative seems a little superficial relative to the sufferings of many years. I was a burden to live without. Heavily, I was like falling into the abyss. For a long time after the illness, I was in another strange space, everything was so hard, cold, dark and fuzzy. In the desperate days, one day, the child's cry made me struggle to take care of, in the grabbing of things I suddenly felt that all consciousness came back again. I looked around, looked at the familiar room, ear to the downstairs courtyard children's slapstick play, hear, see, touch, are the kind of a long-lost sense of reality, the world in front of my eyes suddenly began to bright and clear. The situation lasted about two or three minutes. When I was driven by the thought of a question, I fell back into the sick world. I was wondering what was wrong with me. I seem to be experiencing an adventure. After a period of medical treatment, I described my experience to every doctor who gave me a doctor. Many doctors have a sensational diagnosis of me, and recovery seems to have become elusive. My various efforts have not achieved the ideal cure effect, I also did not for my this condition obtains the reasonable explanation. Until I saw Master later, I told my master that I had a Zen meditation in my confinement. I am suddenly now. Perhaps, I was destined to practice.

Agitation Xiange Memories Old Tour

To regain the past, any inappropriate description is a desecration of the mind that has experienced suffering. Here I try to tell the story objectively.

The happy family is similar, the unfortunate family each has each misfortune. I don't need to count my troubles here. For those who have experienced greater suffering or are still in distress, it is a moan for me to say some feelings. Although in fact, everyone's fate is not comparable. I believe that everyone has a magnificent epic of their own. It is difficult to say that many of the experiences that were painful at the outset can be said to be painful now. At least, the pain in the beginning of the original had to eat my heart, let me miserable. Looking back at the road, I do not want to make too much of the so-called pain, because, now they can no longer cause me to be depressed. It was a history that I had to grow, and a sign that I was immature. Those scars, and now also my body and soul of the beautiful embellishment, no longer dazzling. I don't know whether I should be sorry or glad about the hardships of the past. Regret has missed so many beautiful scenery of life, or fortunately because of those hardships finally experience my heart. In any case, be thankful for those people and things.

In the 90 's, when Qigong was popular, I came into contact with several domestic power-transfer methods. Because it is the follow-up action, and did not insist. College began to play Tai Chi, this habit like exercises by me for a few years. Once again forced to the brink of fate, longing for a miracle I thought of qigong. After experiencing the first medical treatment without a door, I also found the active method of the Tao to see the problem to solve the hope. But my situation was only theoretically possible to recover, but the reality is that the efficacy can not be sustained or treatment can still not touch the root of the disease. Qigong cultivation as an ancient Chinese fitness method, has been handed down all kinds of myths, or medical or Taoist or Buddhist, are modern people seem mysterious and yearning. But, if the world is truly divine, will the Buddha care for me?

At this time, my heart gave birth to a great confession. I confess to the past in the blessing of the body, some of the problems I once felt tangled up at this time I think it was really a waste of energy. Now, when all is seen and awakened, I have faced a more miserable situation. I can only sigh with deep sighs that the dead have died and there is no door to repentance. If the original ... However already there can be no more what if.

I try to search for information on the Internet. Thank God for the pity, let me meet the Master in this life. This is the beginning of my rebirth.

First found the Health Practice forum, and then added the practice of QQ Group. At that time, the group of practice was called "enlightenment." The first time to come to the Enlightenment group, a brother learned that my situation, enthusiastic to call on the group has the time of the seniors together for my help. I hold the attitude of trying to sit down in front of the computer, feel a hot air flow from the palm of my hand, into my body, a little dizzy, the soles of the feet are also hot, all over the feeling of fever. When I told my seniors about the situation in the group, everyone was excited to encourage me to keep going. One night, I was disturbed to give master a first call. The ringtone music of the telephone is the Moon River. I listen to this melodious sound of music, some trance. Master's voice is like that ring tone, the same cadence, mildly pleasant. My compassionate, considerate master, in that period of haze of the day to let overwhelmed, anxious I feel the world's cool. After listening to my situation, Master told me that these symptoms are not a problem, but the meridian is not through, to open the meridian symptoms. I also comforted myself in my mind that it might be like having a nightmare and waking up well. Eyes see there is a warm light, I hope that light more and more vast, I lead to the promised land without distress.

I had not yet fully understood how fortunate I had been to find my master at that time, and I had traveled to Guangdong after a few days of seeking medical attention. Finally arrived in Dongguan. At that time, I, poor, helpless, trance, coupled with the body of various problems, is a rotten life. After a day's journey, the first time I saw Master was in the evening. I looked at the master with a little nervousness, master simple and easy-going, the roommate in the person to talk casually leisurely, do not see anything special place. I looked at the kind master and felt the distance in my heart vanished. Accompanied by the evening when the street is not far from the voice cauldrons, Master began to bring me work. In this strange southern town, I have never felt the sureness. Some tired. I haven't slept for two months because of my physical disorder. I have a feeling of going to sleep in a daze. That afternoon, I sat idly, the air seemed faintly smelling some strange fragrance. Do not insert willow. My sleep actually began to improve. The next day of practice near noon, I in the closed-eye meditation I suddenly feel like an inflatable balloon, become infinitely large, at the same time flashing a dazzling golden light, brain also a noisy, my whole person seems to have exploded. Then the world was still silent, and I felt a large amount of energy coming down from my head and flowing into the body, running through the fingers of my hands and feet, and the overcast winds blowing from my fingers (and sometimes from somewhere in my skin). I seem to be lifted by a power, the once deformed slouching hunchback I finally can no longer struggling to straighten up the body. I closed my eyes and looked at the warm, bright light, and my heart became very stable. In a day of communication with master, I spoke about some of my recent changes, and Master said that my situation was open to the top. I didn't know there was an open-top phenomenon before. To be exact, when I found Master, I was only as sure as I had been, but I had not yet seen Master's words about spiritual practice. It is unclear to me what the stages will be for following Master's practice. For many days after that, I was still looking at the group of Light, trying to worry, thinking about my health, or just trying to keep my focus and count the numbers. I also began to have a change, is that my body seems to have no boundaries, infinity, the heart has become very broad (find the heart is not available, but to understand the existence of the heart of all things), it seems to be able to accommodate all the world. In this state, a lot of things can easily be figured out.

This time I stayed with Master for a while, while Master was invited to go northward to Zhejiang, and I was fortunate to accompany my master to practice there. In life, the Master is a kind, spontaneous, simple person, not only the slightest do not master the shelf, but to the people around, including to the disciples will be very humble. Master's knowledge and humor are always surprising and amazing. Master sometimes in order to clarify a truth to everyone, often erudite, classics, ancient and modern, astronomical geography, all aspects can find the appropriate example. In addition, in order to match the vivid argument, master will also use some appropriate metaphors or examples of life in a simple way. Every time the disciples have any confusion or doubt, Master will encourage you to say these questions, and then very patiently to help you analyze. The wise master can see through the layers of the phenomenon, the essence of the whole event or the trend of development, for the people who ask him to point out the most clear and advantageous way out. Master has a wealth of life experience, he himself is not by the fate of the mercy, perseverance to fight all the bad luck warriors. The master, who had suffered the hardships and the cold and cold, now calmly sits before us, and uses his wisdom and experience to instruct us these later people without reservation. Master is my life's mentor, a lifelong friend, but also my practice example.

Following Master's practice has brought great benefits to my body and mind. As the body recovers day by day, so does my personality and attitude to life. As a child of growth experience, I am a strong and cheerful surface and the inner loneliness of the vulnerable people. My childhood, including some special experiences of puberty, makes me depressed and depressed. The original I was a perfectionist, work excellence, meet people to compromise, the heart is full of contradictions. As I grew older, my distress seemed more and more. I was very persistent at that time. Many times, I am a friend can rely on the shoulder, but I do not want to open their hearts to who. I did not repel loneliness. The words of Ibsen were wrongly believed. The loneliest man, he said, was the most powerful man in the world. At least today, what he said is one-sided. I think more than once, if I can overcome the ego, and then take a step forward. For how many years, I have been carrying the heart of the great pain, crawling to live in the world. Therefore, loneliness is not forgiven.

Just back to work, I looked as if the problem of qi and blood still look shape larger, and because of the treatment of some traditional Chinese medicine left a few obvious scars. I overcame the psychological pressure at that time and encouraged myself to face the work and life positively every day. During those days, there were colleagues who expressed concern, greetings, and sometimes were curious about the changes that I looked like. I am not comfortable with this situation and I am not willing to be mentioned for my misfortune. For me, every time I ask, it's like someone is opening a wound that he's recovering. Escape is not advisable. Since can not escape, simply open your mind to exchange it. To assimilate into the crowd, to understand others ' thoughts in good faith, to see what others think of you, but to pay attention to their own feelings. After this period of breaking through my practice, I got a growth, and people became more open-minded. The good news is that since the practice, a lot of things have started to get smoother. Out of the first step towards a new life, I feel more and more handy in the days to come.

From then on optimistic positive to face life, my life also has a good inflection point. The whole world began to smile at me, work smoothly, meet people also communicate smoothly. No matter the body or the mind, my personal most fundamental problem has been solved. Now, I am actively living, while trying to continue to restore the body. In particular, the last year's experience of misdiagnosis and mistreatment of the body some damage, so I have some medical methods and cautious up. Occasionally will go out for treatment, in the open after the Constitution, meridians become sensitive and easy to dredge, the recovery effect is also more ideal. I will never forget the crucial first step to help me out of the cure and always accompany my mentor. Without master, I could not imagine my life.

Go to the water-poor place, sit and look at the clouds.

I'm not the only one who gets really liberated from this experience, but also my family. Later, my parents and I went to Dongguan to connect with master, where to spend a memorable time. It can be said that not only my parents, but also my husband, son, and even many of my relatives have benefited a lot. The ancients said "Groß not say thank you", I really can not use words or words to express gratitude to master.

Now my daily practice is life. Because of the current daily life arrangements and the actual time of my family, I seldom have the opportunity to go to YY at night to participate in the Apprentice's online answer to the total repair. Lujuo The practice time of the hundred-word monument is still realistic for me, I can come to attend after the child is asleep, or arrive in the room at noon time. Most of the time, I was downloading Master's answering tape. Sometimes you will remember to call master. Thanksgiving Master of the trouble, good pedagogues, also feel mentor brother will share the recording material. In peacetime communication, I see a lot of practitioners tend to be prone to work, gas, and other supernatural phenomena confused, and forget the original intention of the practice. Master said, the practice is to fix the Hui. At any time, the practice of not having a definite Hui is false, because the avatar is not the enemy of karma. My feeling is that the definite Hui comes from the correct positive attitude towards life, and the proper handling of daily affairs can embody and improve a person's definite wisdom. If you do not move, the wise person will be happy. After all these years of practicing with master, I deeply feel that Master's earnest and tireless teaching is the convenient way of wisdom and coolness.

Sometimes I read Buddhist scriptures in my spare time. There was a time when I saw something in front of me. Lotus Pond, slowly bloom, the pond over gorgeous colorful light, ancient pavilion building pavilion, upended free and easy calligraphy rubbing from, Buddha, do not know the face of vague people ... Every time I see it as a person, but also let me believe the scriptures described in the world. I sank my heart and, in my most respectful manner, Bihao, and gave it all back to the void of the law world. A few times in the meditation, I seemed to be meditating and floating up and hanging in the air. I closed my eyes with my feet and felt that I was still in place. After a period of lethargy, I began an indefatigable state. For example, I can still use a small amount of sleep to maintain a high-intensity day, clear-headed, tired when the rest of the easy to adjust over. In this way, I am more efficient than the original.

Master once said that it is easy to be enlightened, but it is easier to be a fan of enlightenment. Therefore, the practice of this matter is very urgent, not slack. Through continuous practice, we can always maintain the state of wisdom, detachment, in order to better the interests of life, the interests of work, the interests of life. I am far from this standard if I say "save the head and burn" to practice is the standard of diligence.

People are not isolated. Master often said "No mercy, the same body great sorrow" is to remind us to have the heart of fraternity. In daily practice and work life, I have been insisting on doing good things, such as taking care of and helping foreign students or colleagues who need help, providing some help to friends who have problems around them, and giving some financial or psychological assistance to those who need help. In the process of doing these things, I feel strongly that the pay brings me happiness and enrichment, and therefore accidentally harvested more friends. I feel very honored to communicate with many good people and to help them a little. I feel a quiet good thing only peace of mind is a low-key, stable state. A heart is quiet, comfortable, indifferent, and diligent, perhaps master speaks of the present in the bliss of the situation. Last year added to master's current health practice group, I admire many of the group of practitioners of the diligence and mutual support. I still have a long way to go to practice, that kind of stable state of mind is what I still pursue. Now, I have a deep feeling about people and things. Now I feel more confident, earnest, patient, methodical, more respectful, tolerant, thankful and humble. Occasionally, I have tried to use the method taught by master to help the friends of the network far away, and also to treat them with the method taught by master when they are uncomfortable. We also have a sense of induction, there are more obvious examples of treatment effectiveness. Thank you teacher taught me these methods, I can not only benefit myself, but also help others.

Master said he was a fan of Chinese traditional culture. Following Master's practice, I can say that I have been promoted in all aspects. From the original smattering and generalities of Sinology, I really began to understand the essence and core of it, which was a great role for me in Master's profound sinology and profound and unique disciplinary perspective. It is no exaggeration to say that, judging from an academic perspective, Master's sinology is a master-class insight. From the perspective of Master's interpretation of the classics, it is often easier and more correct to understand the noble sentiments and psychological world of the ancient sages, and to grasp the essence of their thoughts more easily.

I used to think I was the strongest when I had not seen how strong others were alive. When I was drowned in the pain, I used to think I was the most unfortunate one. Sometimes, I really want to end it all. But life is a good way to go. Today, there are good and helpless people in the world who are longing for the sunshine every day. How could many things be satisfactory? As long as we work hard after a clear conscience and no regrets. Master always said, because of the diligence, the fruit of the fate. Indeed, this sentence to do, a man will be magnanimous. When people focus on the process from the results of attention, then doing things will do their best, and ultimately the outcome of the matter will be easy to face. When we turn our backs to the sun, we see shadows in front of us. All the change is to give life a turn. Although the worry is Bodhi, but should not be immersed in the trouble. More than once, Master told his disciples to use their wisdom to cure their troubles. Master also warned the disciples to set the Hui, so that will not linger, clinging to a read.

Sequence

I heard Bob Dylan singing: How many times a man has to raise his head to catch the sky ...

I do not know this is the first few times I looked up, but I am glad I finally can see the blue sky of the bright side. Looking back on these years, I feel my luck. In normal days, I still have a time to call master, some for the problems encountered in life to seek master's advice, some to be able to and master pull small talk, by the way to report the situation.

Learn to love yourself, and learn to appreciate others, the world is simple and beautiful. Many things, often wait until lost to remember to cherish. Through the rough, finally understand that life without rehearsals. We never have a chance to change what has happened, only to grasp the present. In the most simple words, Master told many truths about the universe and the truth of life to everyone. If you really love master, please strictly according to Master said as far as possible to ask oneself, the daily encounter of the various things to deal with. I personally feel that this is the most realistic form of courtesy and respect to master.

Stumbled all the way, in the river of life flow to my near encounter frozen that year, I met the Master of my life, from then on my river began to run. (end)

My experience of cultivation--Minting "Turn"