My long story.

╮(╯▽╰)╭, is also a year of melancholy.

Around colleagues also work, one by one said "See you next year", run the company left me, in the blog Park record this year's drip.

This year, it feels quite a failure.

At the beginning of the year, 24 years, the only one love also early abortion. She said let me wait another year, I said no, wait for long enough. I know that two people are not a person on the road: She is a well-off family, and I am a rural, she studied the painting, and I learned the computer; she wanted to go to Beijing, and I came to Shenzhen; she was destined to be mating, and I might struggle for another ten or twenty years or a cock silk ... A lot of details do not say, popular point of words, I became a spare tire, or the kind of temporary change for use, and then change the kind. On Valentine's Day the night before, I called to sue her, said in the future do not contact, the contact method is deleted ... Then himself in the Central Park, a small lake, a fancy with Huaqiang north that piece of neon, slowly feeling.

This experience brought me the positive energy is a so-called love, and in the time of nothing but also believe in the future, even if watching a text message can burst into tears, and even with her plan to have a daughter, now it seems that I think more, and bring me a lot of negative energy, and changed back to the original I: inferiority, conceit, anxiety , to all lose confidence, vision, become reality even I myself feel terrible, disgusted.

At the beginning of the year our company also recruited a leader, said the blunt point, he is not far away from the slag, pull the skin, crowding subordinates, do not consider the actual situation, only think of their own to do things to the above to see the results, directly resulting in the beginning of the plan of N projects all abortion, April or May, a just a positive boy Then two girls who had been working for six or seven years had left, and most of the department was ready to resign years later. The first time I saw a xxx broke a pot of soup.

Of course, I also try to find other jobs, but basically is not high, low, low is to give the treatment and now almost, do things also need me to start again, and are not see the direction of the future, such as do very well VoIP server development, Surveillance camera software development, and some what MFC that set of, Because of the work location, content, environment and so on. High point of the company basically hanging on the technical interview, the company is not short of money, it depends on your ability, to try a few times, be abused, weak ah.

Moved two times nest, from Choi Tian moved to Shiyan side, oneself a person moved, almost tired to collapse, originally called to move the company, but it seems expensive point, looking for someone, also owe someone a favor, and others are not necessarily free. Recently moved to the company around, the rent is cheap, but that place environment is not very good, feel uncomfortable; after the year to change the work to move to the North station, although expensive a little but the traffic is convenient, and there seems to be a lot of sister, perhaps can about one, O (∩_∩) o ha!

But now the problem is not calm down, reading can only concentrate on a small part, after watching not to go on, do not want to write code, see what is annoying, too lazy to talk, and even feel themselves depressed. Also do not love playing basketball, in order to be afraid of illness, but also only run at night, nothing to listen to songs, see movies.

The first two days to see the online sentence, "The reality is simple and rough", empathy, personal reasons for their own slowly experience it, the longer the contact society, you will be more understanding.

2014, 24 years old, still do nothing, and they are at this age has been successful, perhaps this is the difference between chosen and common!

2015, 25-year-old, hoping to change the Internet, e-commerce, online game backstage such work, can put the recent learning of those theory string used up, perhaps I have been in the computer's door lingered for too long.

My long story.