Reading the years of Ancient Dragon (III)

Reading the years of Ancient Dragon (III)

 

 

Gu song Jushi also smiled and said, "So I often say that if you don't drink, you will be able to live to three hundred years old ."

Mu Dao humane: "If I have no wine, why should I live to three hundred years old ?"

 

I used to go back to high school in my dream for a while in my freshman year and last semester. I am very confused about this phenomenon. On the one hand, I feel that I am a very good person, this point has been changed from the early morning time to half past eleven as soon as you enter the university, and the electives will have to escape from the required course to be proved. On the other hand, I think that although my high school life is tense, it will not leave a shadow in my heart. I was a very cheerful child from an early age, this is evidenced by the fact that I have bullied other children. Third, I am very forgetful. This is because I am very focused on things, and when I focus on thinking, no external information can be left on my cerebral cortex, I often think that at this time, my cerebral cortex is probably as hard as the Antarctic ice sheet. For the above reasons, I am puzzled by the dream of high school life. This confusion was finally explained when I dreamed about my senior one. In that dream, I went back to the primary school campus, but the classroom was full of high school students. This dream makes me realize an important problem, that is, I don't dream about it again and again because I am always afraid of my life in the third year, just as a fugitive will always dream of being arrested. On the contrary, it is because the life of the third year is an important memory. It sink quietly to the bottom of my memory and becomes a constant underflow flow, and from time to time, I just burst into my head when I was asleep. You can imagine the excitement after I figured it out: My mind was suddenly blank, it seems that a pot of cold water has been raised in hot days.

 

This analysis also makes me understand another thing: the human memory is not subject to subjective consciousness control, and you cannot choose what to remember or not to remember, therefore, we are always affected by something without knowing it. These things come from external discourse and behaviors. If you cannot maintain a clear judgment on these things, let countless ideas and opinions enter the undefended memory. After a period of time, there will inevitably be something that will gradually accumulate on the bottom of the memory like mud. once stirred up, it will become ubiquitous. We often see people who have no judgment. They can accept or reject any point of view. In short, they just say "no idea ". As a result, this kind of concept system is often like a grocery store. There are some fragmented rules and ideas everywhere, there is no logic at all, and sometimes there are contradictions. There is a simple and effective way to identify such a person, that is, when he puts forward a certain point of view, he asks why he thinks this point is true, you may find that the answer is "because of course it is. Of course, I am not saying that such a situation is not good, not to look down on such a person, but if you do not want to be such a person, you should pay attention not to leave your memory undefended, of course, if you don't want to be such a person, you probably have enough judgment.

 

However, when people are born, they have no judgment. Even the awakening of self-consciousness is still a gradual process. So at this time, external things will rush in without fear. As a result, after we grow up, we will first find self-contradictory elements in our own character, this is because at that time, you were unable to determine whether there were any conflicts in those aspects. But what you accept, for example, A and B, is always stronger. This will become what you will stick. The so-called process of growth is, in fact, the process of constantly reflecting on the content of your character should be thrown away and left behind, and finally become a consistent and non-contradictory system. The best way to do this is to ask where your opinion comes from and why you stick to it when you usually say it; A person who does not know what he insists on is actually a terrible thing, this situation always reminds me of many situations in cartoons-as long as the cartoon character has not realized that he has left his feet blank, how can he not go down, but his life has been so long, you always intentionally or unintentionally glance at your feet. If you carry your head up and walk in the sky for a long time, it is easy to see the cartoon animation.

 

In my freshman year, the following important things happened last semester. First, I often took a bus to the MM campus. Second, I bought a phone card. These two things seem not worth mentioning at the beginning, but they are not. Their importance lies in two aspects. First, it takes most of my spare time to see mm. 2. the fare and telephone fee occupy most of my spare money. It can be seen that the importance of a thing may not be reflected in the matter itself. The same thing often has different meanings in different environments.

 

I clearly remember the first time I went to the MM campus. After the military training ended that day, I returned to the dormitory and received a call from mm asking me to meet her. When I got off the phone, I immediately got out of the door like a storm, and I was so stupid: I didn't know anything except the address of MM School. However, at that time, I made a wise and decisive decision-to take Mazda over and find out the route first. Mazda, of course, does not refer to the Hainan Mazda car. Its specific shape is equivalent to building a steel tent behind a motorcycle, and it starts to shake and feel like it is crazy, worrying that it will be dispersed at any time; in addition, the sound is louder than the broken bus of the north-central company.

 

I asked the uncle of Mazda to go to X with less money and answered 50 yuan. I am just setting up the local area for a week's meals. But it's not about dinner, but about love. I jumped onto the car in less than a second. I said, Master, go to X.

 

As a result, a four-year bumpy journey began...

 

The sky was dark that night, with no stars or months. Uncle chelaile copied a path. It was a more dark road. It seemed that I had returned to the country, with only 1.0 stars on the distant road. You can imagine my mood at that time: When I first arrived in Nanjing, I was not familiar with my life. I had no time to read the news about which person had been robbed or killed in the newspaper, so I was very confused. However, this fear does not last long. The rear carriage of Mazda trembled like the leaves in the wind, and the sound of a huge greeting sent my thoughts to a distant place, when my waist was almost broken, I saw a bit of light in the dark distance, as if it was a beacon in the dark night, and the car driver shouted "coming soon", so I felt a burst of light in my heart.

 

The car was very memorable. When I took Mazda to the MM campus again, I found that the road was not as dark as I remembered. The path I took was not small at all, there are basically street lights along the road. What's more, at that time, there was a great journey on the dagong Road. However, in my memory, I was like sitting on a bumpy boat, drifting on the endless sea, and the darkness around me covered me like a curtain... This scene has never faded in my mind.

 

After arriving at the MM campus that day, the feeling on the road is still lingering, so that after going to the MM campus, when we walk on the trails by the lake, I still feel like walking on a small mountain road, the path is skewed and narrow, and the end of the road is hidden in the endless darkness, A row of short fences are standing beside the road, and the ends of the barrier are hidden in the dark...

 

This memory sink into my memory like a mystery, as if it always implies something that I cannot grasp.

 

Later, after getting familiar with the route, I started to take the bus. Because the last bus was at, I usually leave the MM campus, so sometimes I can't get back to the bus in qiaobei, so I had to call a motorcycle back. I remember that when I came back, I only paid three yuan for my body. I needed two yuan from the MM campus to qiaobei, And I just transferred one dollar from qiaobei back to school. However, I had to wait until that day without a car, And the dormitory would be closed at. I only had one dollar, and I couldn't ask for a motorcycle to deliver it. So I had to turn my heart back. In order not to let myself feel depressed, I divided the journey into three sections and relaxed every section. As a result, after 45 minutes, I finally walked to the school gate. It was so hungry that at, the stalls at the school gate had basically been collected, and only one of them sold fried food. I remember there was another dollar in my pocket, so I bought two pumpkin cakes and went back to the dormitory while eating them.

 

That experience touched me a lot. I found that, in the case of no choice, I showed a detached calm attitude and acted decisively, and refuse to be affected by negative emotions. I was surprised by this discovery, so I decided to keep it.

 

During that time, every time I went out to see mm, there were always two things in my bag, one being Gu Long and the other being Gu Long. We walk on the back hill or by the lake, read books and chat together. The days are so warm and ripple at your fingertips. There was a sentry box on the back hill. Generally, no one was on duty. There was a lawn next to the sentry box. We were lying on the lawn in the afternoon of winter, and there was a conversation between them. A pair of people walked along and walked away from us, gradually turning to the west, and we walked slowly down the hill in the afterglow of the sunset...

 

When I was a freshman, I first saw "Passionate swordsman without a love sword". Li xunhuan is one of the most successful images created by Gu Long, because he wrote Li xunhuan perfect, and often only perfect things can survive. Perfection does not mean being simple, but being impeccable in all aspects. Just like Xiao Li feidao, the flying knife is unique in the sky and ground. This knife integrates the great personality of Li xunhuan, because only a person with a great personality can make such a knife. As a result, Xiao Fei Dao broke away from its original meaning and became a symbol of a great personality. Some people say that there are perfect people in the world who are so emotional, but they are wrong. It is because there is no, so it is more worth writing. It is because of lack, so it is worth looking forward...

 

Who said the hero is lonely?

Our hero is happy.

(To be continued)

 

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