See yourself, feel yourself-calm

In the last one months, the mood ups and downs are always very big, women are fickle, drag big aunt's blessing, long time restless mood suddenly calm, I inexplicable a little want to cry impulse, recently saw a ghost foot seven book, envy his inner calm, walking courage. Every morning, the subway to the company this section of the road said long not long said short, but this is my most cherish the time, anxiety, anger, injustice, happy, look forward to every day with a variety of mood to go this road, today I got a calm, although not know how long, but I want to cherish the feeling now, so I want to record.

In the current company for 1 years and 3 months, and recently on the salary of the incident is always very annoyed, it is plain that their Red work why not raise wages, has been in doubt, blame and insecurity. I am not a professional computer professional, I am not a good student when I go to school, always feel inferior to others, but when someone asked why I become a programmer, I think back, seniors in the dormitory when I also every day rain or shine bike one hours to the city center of the class to study, Become a programmer now from a layman. During that time I am very happy, every day is a very happy bike to me, because the heart has a good expectation of the future, everything is worthwhile. A person to live in Beijing, just start looking for a job is not very smooth, but still found, every day to work basically a half I hour, from the east side to the west side, but I am very happy to take the subway every day seriously study. Unconsciously graduated two years, the heart began not calm, look forward to pay rise, ah every day to take the subway good squeeze Ah! I don't like that. I stand on the ground like a ball without gas! This is not what I want!

When you don't know what to do, give it to the Buddha! Well, I've been thinking about it since yesterday, and suddenly my heart began to calm and I felt so stupid! Why bother, even if I roar my anger I complain about injustice, nothing will change, will only make myself more embarrassed. What I can do, the only thing I can do is make every minute of today's life meaningful, do what you should do, do what you think is right! Other things to the Buddha! If Buddha can not solve, then I have nothing to struggle with, that if the Buddha solved, then I have nothing to worry about! Borrow Ghost feet Seven words,-internal cause efforts, external causes of the fate--. Do not care, the days are always in, only live once, follow the heart is good!

See yourself, feel yourself-calm