I will always remember the night when I watched sports news as usual. My wife took a bath and said to me, "How come I got a black mole on my feet ?"
I am a person without medical knowledge. I think women like to make a fuss and ignore her.
Our life should be said to be harmonious and comfortable. After I became a senior employee in the company, she became a full-time wife. I have to work overtime for three days and often go on a business trip. Sometimes I leave for three weeks. If you are on a business trip, others will be worried about the health of the elderly at home and the Children's homework. And I am always leisurely, I know, she will take care of my parents, she will tutor her son's homework. In fact, there are as many people envy her and me. In the eyes of others, she didn't have to look at her boss's face nine to five; we had bought a car and lived in three rooms and two halls in the West District. Although we don't know what romance is, we have always had a good feeling.
My wife used to be a pharmacist. She had some medical knowledge. She knew this was inexplicable and did not itch. The black moles that suddenly grew up might be faulty. She went to the doctor and diagnosed it as skin cancer. This result scared us all at once. In those days, I accompanied her through the most famous big hospital in Shanghai. All diagnoses are the same, and a very famous doctor told me that the mortality rate of her cancer is 90%! Is the most dangerous type of skin cancer.
Soon, as the doctor predicted, her legs, her arm, and her back continued to grow new black moles. Her body and spirit gradually began to decline.
In my impression, I also occasionally catch a cold, have a fever, and have a stomachache. My wife has almost no illness. But now, she finally got down to the hospital bed.
Without her home, it became cold and clear. There is no hot air in the kitchen, the toilet in the bathroom, and the furniture is dimmed. In the past, bright and warm, I came back to feel comfortable and changed to a place I almost didn't know. I am a stranger to a lot of things in my house. I used a microwave oven to unfreeze and steam my meals. I didn't know which one to use for a long time, and I made a coffee or tea, cook a bowl of instant noodles and a bowl of hot soup. The taste is different from what she made. In the past, she handed me the daily necessities easily, and now I have rummaged through the drawer and haven't found them yet.
From her stay in hospital, I began to take public leave, ask for leave, and try my best to stay with her. At this time, I realized that if there is no family, if there is no considerate wife in the family, it would be blank for a man to earn more money and stay out of the room.
Just as her condition deteriorated, an acquaintance told a hospital in Guangzhou to treat this type of skin cancer that had been cured in a similar case, but the cost was high, A three-month course of treatment costs about more than 0.3 million yuan, and the cure rate is about 30%. When I told my wife the message, she told me three words clearly: I want to live! (Lin Sheng's tears fell .) Really, I never thought we were a loving couple before, but at that moment, I thought we were the most in love in the world, the most suitable for men and women as husband and wife, how good we can live together. She wants to live, and I want her. We want to grow up together. When our son grows up together, let the son call us "Grandpa and Grandma". I decided to accompany her to Guangzhou. When I went to the company to ask for leave, I also heard a colleague say softly, "if it was me, it would save my time, 0.3 million. If it was not done well, it would be a matter of wealth. "
Those who say these things have never experienced the sorrow of the person who is about to leave, nor do they know the hope that this life brings to us. At that time, I thought, even if it was 0.6 million or 1 million, I sold the house and sold the car. As long as she was able to live, I was willing.
Before I went to Guangzhou, I went to the supermarket near my home to buy some daily necessities. On the eve of the Mid-Autumn Festival, supermarkets were filled with cheerful faces and people smiled. I suddenly felt that I was isolated from the group of happy people, and all the laughter and laughter had nothing to do with me since my wife was ill.
I bought a lot of daily necessities according to the list she opened for me. I felt very heavy when I went out carrying a bag. For many years, everything I used at home was properly pasted by her, I never know how much rice is, how much is a bag, and how much is a bucket. I never know that it is a very tiring thing to ship these things from a supermarket to my home. I thought I was the pillar of my family. When she suddenly fell down, I realized that she was the backbone of my family.
We spent the most intimate days since we got married in Guangzhou. In those three months, we had to get along with each other and often laugh and cry together. We couldn't remember how long we were not so fond of talking. At the beginning of the month, she seemed to feel better. Occasionally, I took her for a walk in the garden. We recall the first time we met at the entrance of the People's Park. The first time we watched a movie was at the Victory Cinema. It was an Italian movie named "Last emotion". She remembered it was starring Sofia Roland. She told me that when I asked her to watch this movie, she had already watched it with her classmates, but she couldn't bear to reject me, so she watched it with me again. This plot seems to have been recalled only during our honeymoon. Now, we only feel sad. We have never said so many things together since we got married for so many years.
In the past three months, I watched her go slowly. special treatments didn't work for her, and she couldn't even drink a bowl of porridge. Later, she told me, "I want to go home ." In this way, we returned home with despair.
When she got home, her health grew weaker and her biggest fear of pain began to show up. She couldn't sleep all night, and all night, suffering from pain, was not working. I wish to suffer for her and hurt for her. I have no way to bear this kind of pain with my personal strength.
Occasionally, when she felt better, she began to explain her family affairs to me. I only know that the chores are so complicated that she is busy at home. She also told me that every time I eat what I think is delicious, the restaurant where I buy it, the brand I usually wear, and the supermarket where I buy it. Three days before her death, she even taught me how to use the washing machine. I bought the washing machine that had been used for several years, after the purchase, she was always operating. (Lin Sheng said that once again he was speechless)
A few days before her death, she always said she was married with me. She was very happy. The three months we spent in Guangzhou were the happiest days of her life. These three months will also be a treasure of my life. Although, during these three months, I lost the opportunity to improve and lost many material things, but in comparison with his wife, everything has become an external thing. Fortunately, with those three months, I will feel uneasy in my life.
The day she died, she was very calm. I told my son that my mother went to another place to wait for us and we will be reunited there in the future. At that time, she was still our child, mom, dad, and dad.
Now, I am most afraid to see a family of three happy people. Every time I pass by the People's Park, pass by the original Victory Cinema, and pass by the supermarket store we visited together, I can't help but cry. When I use a washing machine, when I press the microwave oven, when I find season-changing clothes for my son, I work overtime and go home late. When I make instant noodles for myself, I wake up in the middle of the night, I want to cry when I am sleeping in the big bed. When she was there, I didn't feel any special happiness. She was my wife with good feelings for many years and a mother of children. When she was not there, it seemed that the sky had collapsed.
I used to see a man in the TV series crying after his lover's death. I think it is a thrilling performance. Now I am weeping with him. I saw a Blood Donation car on the road that day. I thought of her again. Remember that once, blood donation was organized in the unit. It was my turn. After hearing it, she asked me seriously: "Can I replace you? I am not going to work anyway. You can rest at home ." I also laughed at her: "I'm sick, let people know that I should not laugh at me ." When I went home with blood, she made me spinach pig liver soup and chidou Lotus heart porridge. I thought, she often said to her son, "My father is the hardest to make money, so Dad is the most important ." In fact, she is the most important thing. Without her, our father and son have lost the most important thing in the world-happiness.
I bought a cave grave for her in the Sheshan area. I felt particularly sad when I painted the word "my wife" with a red pen. I am not a person who is good at expressing feelings. When I fall in love, I never say "love" to her.
Seeing that she sometimes turned to Qiong Yao's novel, she shed tears for love in the TV series and laughed at her. Now, I can only write the word "love" on her tombstone. My wife, if she can live again, I would like to say this word "love" to her over a thousand times. All the women are willing to hear words from their lover's mouth countless times, why didn't I say a few times to her while she was healthy ?!
I want to tell my husband who lives in a healthy and happy life to cherish your wife and leave more time for her. Don't ignore what she has done for you. There are a lot of things that don't mean to be lost to understand her beauty.
The wife is the one who loves you the most in the world, the one who understands you the most, and the one who is most willing to pay for you. In addition, any kind of feeling between men and women cannot be the same as the true feelings between husband and wife.