Why do I hate you?

Four years ago, I moved into this company. After Entering the company for a year and a half, I felt I began to dislike myself.
That dislike is the one I find most annoying.

I have always hated the kind of guys who beat the lead and are familiar with the leaders. Then I am the one who leads Ma Zi.
Maverick was the greatest comments I gave myself.
However, once people are mature and rational, you will find that the closer you are to the core leaders, the more consistent you will be with their ideas. In this way, you will know what the leaders are thinking, and you will gradually fade your [employee Thinking] in this process ].

What is [employee Thinking ]? Is a typical small pattern and self-interest.
As you can see, some people choose to say that if I quit, most of them are not easy to achieve.
It is easy for people to get emotional and give up.
Maybe you will say that a lot of people are under great pressure! I just want to talk about it.

What do you think is the pressure? It's just because you can't help it.
You cannot cope with the pressure, so you only need to be an employee.

One of the biggest advantages of an employee is that there is no pressure, and there is a little pressure on it, so everyone in the company wants to know that they have worked overtime.
Complaints, complaints, and such people are often in addition to class.
I like to make my own small calculation. Let him do more work and calculate the amount of money you have given me! Do you want me to do more?

This kind of people is everywhere. We don't need to despise anyone. It is the inferiority of human nature.

I have been working as an employee for many years. I have no idea about these employees.
Although I have done a lot of self-development and transformation.
For example, I think that overtime is an opportunity to learn more, and I think that task addition is an opportunity to improve myself.
But I am also a mortal.

When I have been in contact with leaders, I will always know some internal information. I have the lowest qualifications. Sometimes I have dinner with the chairman of the board of directors. I can't even say anything.
But I cherish this opportunity.
The best way to return to leadership is to work harder, more diligently, and more carefully.
Then I began to be alienated from my colleagues.
I hate myself at first.

I have always felt that I was rebellious and had a lot of rebellion.
Maverick sometimes doesn't mean that you are not united, but that I like to stand on the same line with the public and stand out from the leaders.
In fact, I don't know why. Maybe this will feel like a national hero?
Or, since ancient times, leaders have represented oppression, Where there is oppression, and where there is resistance!
I don't know when I will go to the leadership.
I am close to the leaders. When my colleagues eat, they love to say bad words about the leaders. When they see me, they will not talk about it.
I became the so-called "Walking dog", which is the biggest reason I hate myself.

I have never understood this problem, so I changed my solution.
I have always been very interested in psychology, because I think it is best for a person to read psychology at the age of thirty and to read philosophy at the age of fifty.
It is inevitable that there will be confusion. psychology is the best means and method to help you.
50 days of life, read a little philosophy, deepen the thickness of life, you can be more attractive when the skin is aging.

I found a free psychology group online.
After several sessions, I thought it was very good, and then I attended several sessions of consultants.
I learned some psychological terms, but I didn't solve the problem of my inner self-dislike, because I couldn't understand it at the time.
Most of the time, your mood is just a representation, just like when I reply back and ask those bean friends, what you say is emotion. Can you tell me what is inside?

Most people like to immerse themselves in their emotions and seldom analyze them calmly and objectively. Why do I have such emotions? What are I worried about?
When a person cannot elaborate on his or her own causes, it is the greatest confusion.
When you can clearly express your own reasons, processes, and results, this is the most typical process of self-healing.

Soon a new employee named Xiaofan came to our group.
I don't know whether I have stayed in school or English, but I like to talk with words. I am very annoyed with Bala.
Every time he shares his shares, he can always give out a few books or comments that everyone does not know.
Every time I had an operating system in my heart, you were so awesome. Why are you still here? What is it about?

You see, there is another commonality in employee thinking: We all hate being forced to commit crimes.
We don't like standing with the strong. We feel that he is a fart and stands at his position to bring us down.
We like talented people, but we like talented people.
A talented and arrogant person is pretending to be forced! It is as hateful as you are not familiar with installation.

In short, during that time, I thought he was not pleasing to the eye. In addition, Xiaofan was a little strong in his personality. So I always love to say, it's really a Leo!
Of course, he is not stupid, and he knows that I don't like him, so we don't have many exchanges between them in private.
Of course, my friends and I have quickly become good friends, so every time I have a dinner party, I will meet each other.
We are like two little brokers who blow up hair.
Although there are many relationships on the surface, we must be on the opposite side of each argument.
That's strange to me. Why can't I just get stuck with a person?

Later, Mr. Fan left Beijing due to work transfer.
All the friends in the group will give him a farewell meeting.
As a person who loves to follow the lyrical line on weekdays, I think it is almost just a mouth to say goodbye!

Psychology focuses on caring for your heart. You must always maintain your own sensitivity. You must always ask yourself why you are doing this.
When many people send gifts, read emails, or list farewell ceremonies, I suddenly asked myself this question at that moment.
Why do I hate him?
Then my mind is blank.

At this time, some people shouted, and it was their turn to say goodbye to Xiao Chuan and Xiao fan.
I stood up awkwardly and couldn't remember the original lyrical lines in my mind.
Then I said:
Actually, I hate you from the very beginning.
I think you are a Chinese speaker. You have to get a few foreign words to speak.
I still think that these are the reasons why I hate you.

But I was just asking myself why I hate you so much.
I found that I could not answer the question. You really hate me.
I think, I hate you all because I envy you.
Envy your foreign language is better than me, envy you have a wealthy family, envy you have a high degree of education I don't have.
You can have a good job at a young age, and you can enjoy it without suffering.

I admit that I don't know the writers you share most of the time.
I also admit that I envy that a card pack that you casually carry exceeds the sum of my full-body additions and deletions.
I admit that I have been wanting to hide from you for a while, because I feel that I will be more self-explanatory when standing by you.
I think it is a pity that I did not find these secrets until you left.
Thank you for letting me learn how to get along with someone better than me and face up to and acknowledge my shortcomings.

After I said these words, I suddenly felt something in my heart had collapsed.
I saw him sticky, and the first time he spoke, he began to get stuttering, And then he looked red.
Nothing is more touching than reality.

At that moment, I chose the most authentic way to face myself-admit.

This incident made me go back and reflect on it for a long time.
I think why I hate myself so much in the workplace is because I don't want to admit my changes.
Yes, I am different from them.
I am no longer the one who takes the lead in saying bad things about leadership, lest the world be messy.
I am not the one who sighs and transmits negative energy all day.
They think I have changed. I always want to prove that I have not changed.
The change in thinking and the original emotional chainsaw gave me great resistance and self-dislike.

I want to have friends on the workplace. I think they are both bad guys and say bad things about their bosses.
We all hate management, we hate installation, so we are really good guys!
It turns out that this is not the case.
We are just a few losers who talk to each other to get rid of the only passion for life.
So we are not happy together.
When I think of this, it's like the final knot is finally unlocked.

At noon the next day, when I sat opposite the general manager with a plate, the general manager was stunned. She asked, why didn't you eat with them? I just smiled and said, I didn't want to take advantage of all the opportunities to learn more and improve myself!

My colleagues are still whispering in groups.
I said to myself in my heart: I cannot always be the same as them, so that sooner or later I will become the one I hate.

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Why do I hate you?