Write to yourself for the last 25 years and the next 10 years!

"Death is the beginning of philosophy!" "Forget is in which book to see this sentence, at that time gave me the shock is very big, did not expect a lapse so long, in retrospect still let me very shocked, and more profound."

I was probably in the sophomore to the senior grade of the time period, has been thinking about death, because the surrounding environment let me very depressed, let me think of is death. Although very depressed, but at the same time is my first step towards personality independence, in retrospect, do not feel shocking, but feel a bit dull, but also let me secretly happy, because if not that period of time, maybe I am still a silly to heartless boy. But there is no exaggeration to say that I was a night of immortality, deeds to the point. The years are still, I still and most people the same, eat, sleep, study, the only difference may be that I hurt the former silly girl, find back. It's not like the TV show, and from then on we live a happy life, and then the whole play!!!

Omg! If so, how perfect it would be. But who told me that I was destined to be a great man? A long time ago, there is an old people said that "Heaven will drop the big Ren Also, will first labor its bones, hungry its body skin = = =" Of course, after the entrance examination of our college or the same university, how let people envy ah!

University, China's university, in fact, I have not been to foreign universities. Here four years, maybe the textbook is really not learned, but she gave us an environment, let us go to buffer, here, I spent 25 years of my life in the most beautiful personal life, I enjoy the freedom of the atmosphere, enjoy the romance and passion of love, I also enjoy the cramped and smelly bedroom ... Oh, my God! God horse rhythm?

At that time I should be 18 years old, according to psychology, I should have produced a very thick self-boundary barrier, because this is adolescence. In the same way, at any time to break the barrier of self-demarcation in the ideological environment, want to break the ideological barrier, is because there is a break of pleasure and passion, but after breaking, but also after breaking the helpless pain, this is the growth. Keep building the house demolished, and then re-built, so do not have a problem with the demolition team, because we are the demolition team, if you complain, that before you come to whom to complain?

At the same time, my girlfriend and I in the school talk about the love of two people, we often quarrel, but also mutual tolerance, there are big noisy, there are small, in fact, when I feel happy, it should be better than the time to remember when it should be happy, and sad when, should also be more sad than when recalling. But now it seems that the love of that time, really just love, if not in the University of that four years, perhaps this love has long past her original should have shelf life. At that time should be very selfish, may think of always only possession, did not give. At that time the so-called pay, but it is self-imposed on their own love, I would say that I will be in the dorm downstairs waiting for my girlfriend, and I have a friend to play games, and then miss the game time, I may put this kind of error imposed on my girlfriend, in fact, because she let me make this mistake, At that time, it was called a righteous, but now in retrospect, I think it is not self-confident performance. Even now, I still feel that I am a seemingly very self-confident, but in the heart is still a low-self-abased poor. So I am grateful to the people who are still around me, is she gave me so much tolerance, inclusive of my boy from the boy to the man's whole process. I think she should be the one who knows me best, but sometimes she feels that if she gives me the original, I will be even more miserable.

Graduated 3 years, 3 years, we have children, but there is no wedding, I asked a lot of heterosexual friends and colleagues around, they all said that if they are, they are difficult to accept. I want to say, in fact, I do not have a house, there is no car, and I am now very low income, this endless pressure, let me breathless, but I still can not control their state, I still do things without patience, no perseverance. I don't know how it is, I don't want to try, just, just ...

Just now, I know, because I am lazy, lazy is because I lack of courage, I always feel that I can fight those nasty Big Mac, is those high-tech, house, car, I always in the unspoken sense of the potential to have unlimited, to do a lot of their own actually have no strength to do things, I always lazy to tell myself, But I have not how hard, otherwise I can transcend this beyond that, how cowardly! Ridiculous!

And I do not want to open their social door, in the eyes of others, I am a joke hand, but I rarely and people to heart, before I always feel that is now a lot of people in society is not worth trusting, but now, I finally understand, in fact, is my own inner self-abased kid in the trouble, It feared that others would see the Laizi on its head, fearing that others would see its dark skin, fearing that others would see its diminutive body. In my junior high school when I like to write a little text, like those gorgeous articles, like those fantasy ideas, but whenever I want to put my mind in the fantasy of the picture into the text, I found that I do not, in the past when I look at their own time, I still feel that they are not enough literary talent, feel that they are just ordinary people, If I had to come to the bottom of the story, I thought it might still be from the environment, and I might have written such beautiful words at that time, but I have been laughed at and ridiculed.

Inferiority is a kind of original sin. It is a sin to conceal your inferiority. Inferiority is like cigarette butts, and hide inferiority is to use sheets to cover cigarette butts, this behavior is called self-immolation.

Look at the present situation, want to the family of every member is good, but not this ability, want to do a good job, but always feel that the boss does not trust themselves, want to learn knowledge and skills, but always notwith, two days. It seems that everything is so bad. But everything seems to be not so bad.

I have such a wonderful family, love my wife, to grow son, have industrious parents, I have a learning goal, I have what is invincible?

So, I want to say goodbye to the past, say goodbye to the one I used to be, he is also very cute, but he is not suitable for the present.

So, I open the door of my mind, I hope everyone can come in and see, maybe they can tell me, there is laizi not afraid, in fact, your eyes are more beautiful, maybe they can tell me, just you stand low, in fact, we are as high, maybe they can tell me that black skin color is healthier, maybe they can tell me , in fact, I can do better.

From today, I will carefully observe my own life time distribution, careful record, I will be based on my own time expenditure, to formulate my life plan, manage their own time, realize their value.

10 years later, I quickly thanked me now! Otherwise, you have such a smart day!

PS: From tomorrow onwards, I will be my daily study of Linux notes and summary of the experience are shared to 51CTO blog, in order to record my changes and growth! I am full of anticipation!

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Write to yourself for the last 25 years and the next 10 years!