Writing (always, I've been thinking too much and doing too little)

Once countless times to conceive of their own way, but to today, but suddenly found that their choice of the road too rules. (Too long to write things, logic is already chaotic)

From freshman school to now, has passed 1.5, this 1.5, what I learned? What have I learned? I searched my mind and found that nothing had been learnt. I don't have any fundamental changes compared to what I just enrolled in today. I think this is all due to my lack of a plan, or the absence of an effective plan.

Since we have to talk, let's talk about it. Start with the plan. My professional computer science and technology, I have a guide before enrolling, he told me the direction of the profession, that is, from then on, I know the ACM (International College Program Design Competition). Then naïve I wanted to engage in the ACM competition, that is, since then, I know POJ, and then I began to brush poj on the water problem, of course, also bought a basic smarty Pants Program design book. At that time I did not have a good plan, just have the time to do some water problems. It was really hard to get started, and the C language was very poor. Although the problem of water is not involved in the arithmetic of wit or math problem, but it is still quite painful. I admit that I am not witty enough, no active thinking, OK, I am math in general. Freshman year last semester basically did not learn anything. To the sophomore, that is the time to hear the school ACM training Team recruit. Will be selected from the freshman race. And then I prepared for about more than 10 days, and there was no end. Later found that I even many groups of input and output will not, think of the time I was also pretty ridiculous. The results can be imagined, in addition to the check-in question, could be considered a 0 explosion. Later sophomore last semester when there is a real training team tryouts, think of their performance in the freshman race, also did not participate, but I was still in the brush, and has a little level. At that time do not know why to brush the question, as if to simply improve the code force, after all, the programmer (in fact, is not considered a programmer now).

to change the summer vacation, the college suddenly said to engage in training, outstanding performance can enter the training team. At that time, I ignited a passion again. A few days later, a classmate of the department told me that I am now their team member, is a professor brought national-level projects. It was a long time (I was so naïve now). The project is in the summer, and training is the same time, I began to struggle to focus on which. At that time also seriously and one of my Daniel talked about. He didn't give me a definite answer, either. Then I wandered between the training and the project. Since then, I have had a little knowledge of teamwork. How hard it is when a person with a different purpose comes together and wants to do something. Project team inside the person, a little is holding the project to protect the research, a little is come over to play, very few want to really do something of the person. I dare not say that I am not selfish in this project, but I really want to cherish this opportunity, do what I can, and do something. It turned out that I was the only one who made something, and the others came to play. Since then, I have had some understanding of the noun of the team. Then the final finals of the training, do not want to say more, a few at that time the team of relatively strong people, was completely beaten face.

Into the sophomore, which was the beginning of this semester, I was in the situation: I was not able to engage in ACM, and then the project was ruined. I have no idea what the university can do, which way I should go. Later, in a study of the elder sister to explain her GPA road, I think I can also go to fight for insurance. To rely on the results of the research, must be the result of professional 25. My grades were about 40, and the shunt should be around 30. If you study hard, there is a great chance of getting a push-free quota. Then began my semester of study trip. It's almost like taking out some things from the senior grade. I don't know where my final grades should be in this semester. But I think it should not be too bad, after all, I review to be able, although not very good at exams, but from the feeling after the test, more than before have to have the confidence.

My 1.5 is like this: brush POJ ready to enter training team, 0, and then brush questions ready to go to give up the training team selection-----ORACM, training finals face && project despair---insurance research? ->, .....

Let's talk about some of your ideas.

today in the review, in the rest of the habitual pick up the phone, saw an old classmate in the circle of Friends, the space published by their own writing something. After reading, do not believe that he wrote, from some of his previous developments, he learned a lot of things. I like to compare, especially compare myself with others. (I think this habit is also the main reason why I open a blog today.) There are too many feelings to say. He wrote the hungry article feeling very positive, there is no trace of journal. On the other hand, he may have read a lot of books, and there is something in his belly. and oneself (hehe ...). Sometimes I always complain that I have a heavy school and no time. But in fact, I have a lot of time, put into the UC brush, see the so-called news time to get out, the time is a lot of. Beginning this semester, I have not played games, including hand-tours and web games. Movies are seldom seen, no, watching movies is not like playing games but want to do something else. Although I looked very busy this semester, but my heart still did not get that kind of filling feeling, feel that I still did not learn things, everything is the steps, step-by-step, look like there is no problem. In fact, this is the problem, I do not really think about what I want to get. is the ability? or something.

I saw someone say that our school is not a university, it is a high school. Now think about it really is that the school management lacks vitality, the school has no atmosphere, the whole school is lifeless. Although it is a University of science and Engineering, it is not so. Every year the school rankings are lagging behind, but I do not see the school changes, backward still do not know the reform. But then I thought, I was too concerned about the objective factor, but neglected its own factors. I don't want to go through college like this. This is not the university that I want, the university in my mind should be very active, the intense clash of thought and youth. However, I have not experienced this. If the continuation of this state, even if the protection of the study, even if the Graduate school, I did not learn anything, my overall quality is not improved.

It's time to make some changes, I don't want to be mediocre. Although I do not know what I want, but now all is not what I want, I now know, I do not want things, I just never satisfied with the existing, perhaps when I think about the time, I have to get what I want. That is the unbridled life, unwilling to degenerate youth.

Writing (always, I've been thinking too much and doing too little)