Peer, why some people successful career, but others have nothing?

Xiao Bian I am a rural child, my father is carpentry, junior high school culture, my mother is a rural woman, primary school did not finish, count recognized a few words. I have a sister above me, a brother, sister older than me, go to the fourth grade of primary school to drop out, my brother I was two years old, poor grades, after graduating from junior high school spent a year at home, but also went out to work It's At that time a popular concept in rural areas, learning is good for school stuff, in the future to be college students, to test PhD, to go abroad, and so on. Of course, learning is not good, then it is hard work. Obviously my sister and my brother are not learning materials, so for them, there is no other way to go, only to work to earn money, until the early twenties, go home blind date, get married, have children. Like many people born to go to school, study, work, buy a house, many people's fate when you are still just a fertilized egg has been doomed, like a Hollywood blockbusters, shelves are the same, but changed slightly Several episodes, a few scenes only.

It can be seen from here that my family is the epitome of hundreds of millions of rural families. Most of the second generation of migrant workers, often spoken by people, are coming out of families like ours. Their parents are not educated enough. They often attribute their children's achievements to the elements of luck. If they happen to be in bad luck and their children do not want to learn, it does not matter if they have learned anything about their jobs. Who are in Shanghai, in Shenzhen, working in Guangzhou, several months a month, very good.

When I was still in high school, every Chinese New Year, my fathers came together to talk about who their children were doing, or driving a car, or chef, or digging coal, or working on site for a month How much, earned much face will feel light, and then another person will say, wait for my child to learn to go to your house where children dry, fucking children, anyway, nor is it the material to go to school. And now they are talking about who's children are married, babies, who babies eat and drink outside the prostitutes, and who's children on the construction scaffolding on the air fell to death.

Whenever I hear them talking about them during the Chinese New Year, I secretly swear in my heart that I must not go this way, I must let myself go out, do not be drowned in this trend, let myself eventually drowned in it .

Fortunately, I still luck, my primary school grades have always been OK, and occasionally will test a perfect score, a little to my parents brought a little hope. Only this hope is just hope, they never think I have any big chance of success, even now talking to my dad, I said what I want to be what kind of person, my dad will only say, "do not look at you How many do you have? "

Like most people in this world, I have a general level of intelligence. In the eyes of adults, I am even foolish. I remember when my dad was doing carpentry at home, let me go get a tool, tell me that in a certain layer of a toolbox, repeated several times each time I can remember, sometimes remember, often I forgot it again when it was filled with tools. I math is very poor, even when I was studying the best sophomore, every time I take the final test, I answer a very slow, a question about Xiaoming I always have more than those clever children It takes twice as long to solve it. The only good reason for my performance is because of my hard work.

And the first time I felt that tutoring was important was a power outage to my partner's house and in the dark to hear his mother ask him, he was answering. He waited until he answered his mother's questions and he could go out and play with me. I heard at the door of their mother and child a question and answer, what really is outsider, and such a scene will never appear in my house, my father will only care about how many points you test, test more happy, less test , Scolded.

My dad thought my good grades were luck all the time. Once my grades started to decline, he started to change his thesis. I was not reading materials after all. He stingy and stingy. When I first started to learn English, I asked Buy a Walkman to learn English, he refused to agree, that it was spent money wasted.

The result is not so clever I came to junior high school, because the difficulty of mathematics suddenly increased plus I began to become fun and the atmosphere of the school (I attended junior high school has now been switched off) My score began Down.

As you can imagine, the moment of my peak is the top of one of the three classes in primary school, and the elementary school is only that country, the city, the province, and the country, The most insignificant one. There are so many mediocre people that sometimes you are not even mediocre.

My grades dropped to historic lows in the third day, especially in mathematics. One hundred and twenty of the exams never took more than thirty points. Even more ironically, at that time, there was only one secondary school with only two classes in grade. A few months before the close examination in the fast, slow classes, of which only less than twenty slow students, of which I have. Do you know what it means? What the delegate means is that I have become a black sheep. And has been completely abandoned. I am angry, sad, sad, frustrated, protesting to the teacher, although my math English is poor, but I am not a troubled child ah, but no one to listen to you, in their eyes, obviously you can not pass the senior high school entrance examination There is no difference between the classes, but since the points have been, then you know it.

When I was a young man, I rebelliously rebelliously refused to accept it. I sprinkled all these anger and treason on these teachers. I painted a big turtle with chalk on the blackboard behind the class, sleeping in class and truancy. Face to face with the teacher quarrel, I from a former Miyoshi students, and finally became the teacher saw the poor students must shake his head, the worst kind.

So mixed for almost three or four months, junior high school did not finish, I moved the table home. My dad did not blame me, I guess he also fate, Lao Chen family is out of college students. I stayed home for two months, I do not know is unfortunately or fortunate that I was sluggish, the first three days on the finish less than one meter five, which also completely dispelled my dad intend to let me go to work for the sake of thinking, diao hair are Not long, make a fart worker. I said whether I followed you to learn carpentry, my dad said, learn what this good thing, say you clumsy is not this piece of material, you simply go help the sheep at home.

So I did not finish junior high school became an official - Sheepskin.

Two times a day, I go up the mountain sheep, the sheep go to the top of the mountain to find a large Qingshi lying, watching the blue sky and white clouds, more time I will bring a book, that time no cell phone, no game consoles, No watches, no sunsets, I took my sheep from the top of the hill to go home for dinner, and then watch TV, because I was junior high school infamous, so my friends are transferred to other schools , While the mother and child who asked one question and one answer in the darkness mentioned earlier also moved to the city. No one to accompany me to play, no Jiao Didi neighbors sister, only my sheep, think of it can be considered a very good time, I occasionally miss those head goat in the blue sky and clouds days. Thinking that if I really did not make a fortune, the whole lifetime of sheep was not bad.

After so much leisurely travel a few months, the new third day of school. My parents looked at me or a no longer open, kid actor look, finally decided to let me continue reading. This does not mean that my dad was really willing to go to school because I returned to the school that I had painted on the blackboard. I will continue my studies.

At that time I think, no matter what I have to study hard, go to high school.

After a year of hard work, summer noon, the score came out, I was a third worse. I hide in mosquito net in sweat and tears. Completely confused, do not know what to do. I think my life is like this, it is difficult to have any good news again. I take the initiative to tell my dad, let me go out to work. My dad looked at me just one meter six small body, saying that you like this, the workers will not want. At this moment, I seem to hear the shrieking of the sheepfold again.

At that time, I was thinking of going to "high prices." The so-called high price means that if you pay an additional 8,800 yuan while paying your tuition fees, you can enroll in the high school for admission. Only my dad will never be willing to come up with so much money, that is in 2005, for a small family in a rural honest hurdle, ten thousand dollars is not a small number.

So after a year of struggling, I started my head again and laughed at the clouds. I think the way out for the rest of the day is probably to let go mutton sheep, while having a long hair. When it is long enough to move bricks, go to work where my brother is.

In my foolishness, the dramatic scene appeared, I apply for high school do not know because of enrollment or what, I was dropped line admission, haha, now that it is my first luck, in the first round of enrollment ended Not long after, I and those who "high price" to report to the school, watching where others pulled out more than ten thousand dollars on the table, my dad was bad, I thought you look at you this point, even the value of So much money

On the third day of that session, count me, a total of five on the test. Later, my teacher who took me often taught my later students with my brilliant deeds. "You know who the one is, the first year is blind and not easy to learn, and after a year of rehearsal, I worked hard and finally got admitted. Said that as long as willing to work hard, there is no test, one in one, not easy to learn, in which school is also unkind. "And then give a transfer to a classmate, the result of infatuation online game eventually Test the negative example.

Anyway, anyway, I was admitted, that is, when I started to believe that people as long as enough hard work, you stupid, silly, there is always the time to succeed.

After school, I finally became my family's first high school students, sitting in the classroom, only from the bottom of my heart think it is good to go to school. Only high school's performance has been placid, mid-level and occasionally can test a few top. I think I am mediocre after all. I always failed to catch up with mathematics, English and language are like the bottleneck experienced the same, always hovering around one hundred and ten, can not be broken. Even worse is that I know that I naturally innate talent, but the lack of hard-working spirit. Of course, I took the entrance exam, math test only 30 points. But also started to have resistance to the entire education system. I rarely used my spare time to seriously study in my spare time. Instead, I went to the newspaper column to read the newspapers, read the information, read the Global Times and borrowed books from the library. I hid behind the classroom in history class to see the history of the world, after reading, I found the textbook is really a pile of shit. And then with the university enrollment, the rural areas began to pop new ideas, "college students are like the stone pimples are filled, college graduates still go to work, who's children on the University for many years, the result is not as big as his uncle's wages The second child to sell more than earn. "And so on.

My father often shows his thoughts before me, saying that if I can not get into the undergraduate course, my college will be over. All of this implies that my studies may end in high school. I have a bad math. I do not want to go back to history and politics. My family is poor. My elder brother is going to get married. I have to spend a lot of money in college and my house has not been refurbished. The social ethos has disappointed me in education.

Maybe I had already preconceived that the door to the university had been closed to me. A few days after the college entrance examination, I followed my brother to a coastal city and relied on a distant cousin who had long been out there. That night, for the first time by train, but still station tickets, I was standing in the car when overnight, excited, tired, and the vision of the future. Compared with the juvenile who had put sheep on the top five years ago, I really went out. Is not it? At that time in late June 2008, I was nineteen years old.

It was just that I was sure that I had taken a very bad path, so much so that when I wrote this lengthy answer I could not help but feel sorry for myself.

When I arrived, my first job was to work in a restaurant as a cousin, 1200 a month, for three days, and I was expelled. I was told I would not be able to work, there was no glare, Tolerance to me is that I actually use a hand holding the mop mop.

I lived in cousins ​​a few days, naturally very uncomfortable. After all, not a pro, long time offensive people, this time, my brother through a friend to prepare to go to the factory workmanship. So I packed up, followed him into the factory.

My factory is an aluminum company, part of the N group, a large enterprise like Huaxi Village, a village-owned enterprise. And my job is to create a carbon block for aluminum smelting, in particular, that is, raw carbon calcined to smoke into a smoke-free cooked carbon, of course, which will continue to divide the work, assigned to me is "compiled Solution "these carbon blocks. Three shifts, the routine content of the night shift, for example, at 11:30 to work at night, after the shift began to charcoal carbon bowl add material, and then sent to the track and then sent to the boiler crane section Rao, this process probably requires continuous three hours. Also released almost the same, but the opposite order, the time is about three hours. When these tasks are completed, they are cleaned. After a busy night, the workshop was full of char and charcoal, and we needed to blow all the scum into a relatively easy to clean place with a duct. The factory was extremely harsh on hygiene. At the time of shift, the next class would check the hygiene. Only the Make sure all dead ends are clean, they will take over, because the plant will send a special hygienist to check, if you take the class is not clean, then the responsibility on the succession side, it will deduct half the wages.

Anyone who has had a night shift experience knows that even if you do not sit there, you're expending a lot of energy. Let alone accomplish certain tasks every day, and then three people spend two hours cleaning nearly 300 square feet of workshop, through the track through, cleaning one after another horns 旮 犄.

In these eight hours, you can not sit down, even if you finish cleaning waiting for the shift, but also took a broom full workshop stroll, because the squad leader at any time because you sit in a corner and deducted Your day's salary. If you ask, is it really that way, how is it possible? I can only tell you with humanity. The more I hold the power under the long-suppressed pressure, the more I abuse the only power to reflect his sense of superiority. This deputy squad leader was once just an open car.

Just after I paid the deposit, two weeks after my induction, the 2008 college entrance examination scores and scores were announced. I only test 473 points, of which 35 points math. The day I got out, I went to the downstairs public phone booth and called my phone with the calling card I bought. My dad said you see, since you did not score well, you know the situation at home. Now that you've got a job, whatever the outcome, it's also a big business. It's better to keep going there, make money, and not go to school.

I hang up and lie down in the dormitory, thinking for a long time, yes, in addition to working to earn money seemingly no other way to go, then go on here.

I have not wondered how long I should stay here, but at least for a year. I also do not want my parents think I do not work well, restless, blind mix.

I stayed in this factory, like Shawshank Redemption, spent a long time, people slowly become institutionalized. In those nearly one year's time, only two things left me the memory:

One is the 08 Beijing Olympic Games, when I was on the class, did not catch up to see the opening ceremony. Later, when I went to the supermarket, the supermarkets kept putting "me and you" and "Beijing welcoming you." Now whenever I hear these two songs, the picture in my mind is not the opening ceremony nor the Olympic Games. It was the depressive, hard working, wandering, and suffering experienced in the factory at that time.

Another is "smashing furnace." Charcoal stoves are life-long, after a few months you need to smash heavy puzzle. Because there are a lot of stoves, an average of one week will drop one. The "smashed furnace" is what I really experience in life is labor, what is the bottom, and what is hard-working.

Furnace room six meters long, ten meters high (accurate to say ten meters deep), three meters wide. The middle is the furnace wall, both sides are empty furnace room. To smash the furnace in general four people at the same time, we have to do is take the big hammer, standing on the furnace wall smashing a hammer under the furnace wall. Long lasting by the fire calcined furnace walls like iron wall. Occasionally you cast a hammer and pound it down solidly, except for the ache in the arms that shaken, it does not move. And what you need to do is repeat an action, hammer it, drop it, hammer it and drop it.

The furnace wall was smashed a little bit, and we dropped a little bit down to the bottom. When the pounding furnace tile has been filled to the level of the furnace wall at our feet, the overhead crane will hang a large iron box. We use the hand to throw the block of fire bricks thrown to almost one high iron box to go. It was in such an enclosed space that you could not even see the faces of the coworkers who were nearby because that dust had already wrapped us all together. When the brick was thrown into the iron box to make a deafening noise, we were only excited. We know that when such a large iron box is filled up six times, it means we can get off work.

When the last furnace was thrown into the metal box, the person on the furnace would drop the ladder. When I climbed out of the furnace to see the green leaves outside, my heart was only joyful, like a rebirth of nirvana.

The only advantage of smashing the furnace is that four people can spend just three hours to hit the end, hit the end of the day, even if the day off. Very cost-effective, is not it?

Just I can not remember how many times I am lying in bed Looking out the window of the moon Leng Leng daze, how many times in the winter night by the carbon block heating Think of my students who are in college What, I wrote the ancient verse in chalk on the carbon block, or the English proverb, and then wipe it away.

At that time, my salary was one thousand eight, including eating and drinking.

Almost half a year in the compilation team, to catch up with an economic crisis. Some people laid off, more people took the opportunity to resign, and some transferred to the other long, my brother left the capital city. I was transferred to a factory, with a master school orbital. Jobs are not as tired as the codecs, so wages have fallen to one thousand three. Later, I transferred to the purification, the days have become better than some. At that time I also thought about leaving, but I do not know where I am going after leaving.

Then I finally decided to resign, in fact, flee. The system of the factory is to charge one month's wages. When you resign for unjust reasons, this month's wages are gone. In fact, I asked many people who quit their jobs and none of them can get their wages. When you resign to pay up, basically ignored. You have to stay for a long time, but if you go away like this, your luggage and any of your belongings will not be able to be taken out. The defendants in the group are all dependent thugs. It is even more common to abuse lynching The rumors that many people died inside have been circulating among group workers.

It took me a long time to figure out how to get out of that month's salary, certainly not coming. Can not take the resignation process. Clothes, luggage can not, but I also bought a computer at that time, and is a desktop, I will point this valuable thing, say what should be taken away.

I thought in the early hours, directly from the dormitory over the wall out, but afraid to be patrol caught. I thought that the master who pulled aluminum powder every day took me out but was afraid of the driver disagreeing and I could not take the luggage to the workshop.

Finally, I used the method of rounding to zero.

I know a coworker, we all call him Lao Zhu, Lao Zhu outside the factory and her daughter and son rented a house. So I decided to put the clothes, sundries and so on a little in the plastic bag a little out of the first deposited with him. Doormen generally do not pay attention to these little things. When I put these things a little bit to go out, only the computer left, and finally I compiled a reason that the computer is broken, need to take out to repair, when I took the workshop director opened with proof of items After the portal was released by the guards and did not go back out of the cage that had imprisoned me for a year, I was free.

And then began to think about another question, where are I going?