A diary after a day

I saw him yesterday, the one who gave me the power of God. Unfortunately, we are not the kind of people who can joke with their feelings.
Finally, when he left, he walked very naturally. When he said goodbye, we passed by, and he waved freely in the car.
Yes, he and I just met each other. Although I told him that he is a god, I am indeed the most ordinary and inconspicuous among all beings, how can I keep his eyes for a moment ?? What's more, he is a decent person and cannot be decent again!
And how can I have that dirty idea ??
I am ashamed of the impulse I felt when I walked. I realized that I was such an unbearable and morally corrupt person.