Hmilyld: In the tanabata commemoration of my once Love

Since yesterday, I've been thinking, should I say something? Or a narrative? But I never know where to start, today in the company, perhaps I should say something, at least a few years of emotional down, more or less a bit of a person is worth remembering place, do not say perhaps after their own heart is not happy, or said it, also calculate to oneself an understanding, perhaps in my opinion, this is understanding.

Drink a little more in the evening, I do not know what to say below, so write it, you reader also look at it, all when they read novels, see a smile, on the line. ：）

We know in the freshman year, it should be 7 years now, from that time onwards, until now, she is older than me three years old, because I go to school earlier, so the age has been small, but also because of contact with the crowd is not the same, perhaps they may also be more precocious, high school began, love, I do not know, first love down, Is that 7 years, 7 years, 8 years, or 7.5? The brain is not clear, too lazy to forget. When I was in high school, I could be a little bit confused, never knowing what love is, perhaps I have not understood, of course, also do not know what is cherish, so the muddle through 3 years, has been spent in a quarrel, a quarrel can not speak for months, remember the longest time is half a year, finally or she first spoke to me, Put this event to an ending, oh, a bit like that sentence, young, what do not care, also do not know what they care about, there is no, no matter, the world is my, no big deal.

So, after high school, remember the time of the college entrance examination, we still in the Cold War period bar, at what time still quarrel, no why, because another boy, because I transfer school, she and another boy together, I put that boy dozen, so much, we have no dealings, also did not say anything, had thought, It was over between us at that time, but to the college entrance exam, a few days ago, remember, but also because of a fight, for a friend, we again and good, now sometimes say, I will say, really thank that friend, let us again to a piece, to otherwise, Maybe it's over with the end of high school.

High school, very normal, I did not enter the university, to Xi ' an read self-study, perhaps this is my big since doing the most wrong one thing, but no regret medicine, also can only say only, a few years? Come to Xian for more than 4 years, at the same time, she also went to Zhengzhou reading, we have been keeping the relationship between each other, 4 years, incredible it? Just like this, she's in Zhengzhou, I'm in Xian, of course, usually nothing, I will run back, so that a few years down, nothing has been, but to the Zhengzhou between Xi ' an train route through those stations to make a special clear, a few years, so slowly down, of course, still quarrel, also still so noisy, Perhaps the accumulation of time, but also may be done by oneself is indeed wrong, last year finally put everything to the extreme, we broke up, although the past has also said good-bye, but this time may be true, broke up, 3.17, to break up, say two words, a freshman time, she has been living outside, at that time, may be a little pressure on their own , but later, she moved to school to live, when she and I said to live in school, I knew, we must have something, why? Because girls like more than, the same dormitory friend's boyfriend can accompany in Zhengzhou, virtually certainly must have the pressure, or said, oneself in the heart extremely is uncomfortable, indeed, at the end, we still broke up, the reason did not say, perhaps I now understood all is only I thought of those, broke up, the first time felt so heartache, Also from that time onwards, perhaps they really understand, people around should cherish themselves, find a way to retain, find a way to catch, God may be poor me, eventually she came back, remember that I also wrote a diary, the end of the diary should say that I love you, maybe this is together for so many years, My first time more solemnly said these three words, fortunately, she did not go, but also at that time, they seem to grow up the same.

Since this incident, I have been very cautious about what to do. Because I am afraid, I am afraid of the history of the day will reappear, I am afraid that someday I will become nothing again, I try to do everything, I try to do a good job I should do anything, on thin ice, maybe so, so that sometimes I can see the message I will be afraid, I am afraid of the day the text will reappear, fortunately, has been peaceful, but also good, in this way, after a period of time is also no matter, the twinkling of an eye, to my choice to leave XI ' an or back to Zhengzhou, I do not know how to choose, if you choose to leave XI ' an to return to Zhengzhou, then and the family will have some things to explain, To stay in Xi ' an? Leaving Xi ' an? I don't know how to choose, in their own choice of time, just, once the teacher to find me a job, and I learned to compare the counterpart, stayed in Xian, did not choose to go back, I do not know whether I choose to do so, perhaps now, it is wrong.

Number 17th, August, number 17th, um, it's like yesterday, may now say that should be the day before yesterday, or received the message that said good-bye, after watching suddenly feel, a feeling of relief, a year ago, if it is because I feel guilty, then now, may give their feeling is free, but think, The most funny thing is that the day after work, I still think, if one day we really broke up, how do I tell the family? How and all day call you call sister so close brother and sister said? It seems that we should consider this now, because this year's Spring festival, there may be countless people ask me why. Didn't say anything, also not a year ago so excited, very ordinary, feel like received a long-lost message just, number 17th, a year ago, March 17, to now, well, should be 1 years 5 months, if this will be the brain sober calculate the correct words. Broke up, it's so normal, nothing.

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