Learning programming for more than a year

I have been learning programming for more than a year. I have never understood it at the beginning, but now I have learned about basic website structures, and other high-end high-performance and mobile development. But all of these are just based on understanding, often stop and stop. I don't know how long I can stick to it on this road, and I have been enduring myself. Every day, many things can be dragged on, as a result, today I cannot see a little future.

Every time I talk about how to start from today, I am a person who is afraid of death. I am afraid that I will suddenly die. Things I tried yesterday and today will not exist, and I have been wandering between them all the time, one year, two years, and three years have passed, and I am still wandering. Why? Because I am afraid of a sudden death, there is no last words, maybe I think more, I think this is not something I will experience alone. Later, I thought about it, and I would like to give my last words in advance.

Today, I planned to work for a day, but every time I was pulled away by all the things around me, I thought what I would do, but as a result, A lot of things can be done without your own thinking. The daily logs will be recorded in the future. What you learn today, what you feel, and how you grow, it can also be my understanding of a certain technology. Today I have just learned about development. Many things are not as difficult as I think. Maybe I did not carefully and patiently look at them, these two days, we can use this one thing for development. On the one hand, we can use it when looking for a job, and on the other hand, let me slowly return to the code.

I wouldn't write articles myself, so late I told myself that life is fighting! See you tomorrow...

Learning programming for more than a year