) Days passed away

Life is always joking with you. When my college is about to graduate, the hardest days of my family will finally be turned over. My mother and my father are quarreling, so I heard the news of my mother's death. I am an unskillful person. I spent a few years traveling outside and paid back the money my family owed. I found that I still had a small surplus, So I discussed it with Ping, after applying for a postgraduate student, I accidentally got admitted, but I had to go to another place. So Ping broke up with me, even though at his own expense, however, I have been able to solve all the costs by myself for a few years. Before I broke up, everyone was so good and there was no sign of it, but all of this happened, it makes you have no time to think about it. Sometimes many things won't happen if you want to understand it. So the long quarrel began, and I finally saw a deadly weapon of Changing hearts: tears. After leaving, I finally realized that ping had built on a contractor's role. Although she repeatedly said that only I was her favorite in the world, she clearly told me that, she can't marry me, so I can constantly see her tears, such a person, what can you say in such a situation? Yes, I didn't say anything. I screwed up a pack and left quietly. In the face of tears, all the anger and doubts do not need answers. If there is any weapon in the world that is the most frightening, it must be a lover's tears.
It has been nine years since I screwed up a pile of packages and followed my father, who has never been far away, carefully left his hometown and came to the city. For nine years, things are not human, I have spent my days in constant sinks. My younger brother also graduated from the military school. I have been wandering in the society for a short time, and my cousin's child has also been born; at first glance, I was no longer young, and I was no longer so frivolous and overwhelmed, increasing the vicissitudes and burdens of life. Life is still like the dead water, and I am still floating in the night sky of the bustling city like a ghost. Occasionally, I went out to see a netizen and went to the bar to have a drink, so time went by and there was no target.
What is marriage? Why is love? When you dream of a bright future, you will be heartbroken. When I fell in love, I was like a dying old man. What is my hometown? My hometown gave birth to my father and my mother's solitary grave. After four years, I have been away from the place I have always loved for four years. I really want to go back, but my feet cannot move because my stepmother is here, I sent some money back and asked my father to get married, but I was no longer able to go back. My father must have been a lot older. I haven't seen her mother for four years. If she sees her good son, can she still rest in the ground? I have never been a good son.
My younger brother finally finished his work. When he got into the military school, he dragged him to a computer and put thousands of dollars in it for six years, this is the only two thing I did for him. He hasn't seen anyone since he was a soldier for six years. Now he has gone to the frontier, but he hasn't got a better place. I have a responsibility, I should give him a hand when he is in trouble. The whole family only expects me to give him a hand, but I don't. He must hate me very much. It seems that I am not good enough as a brother.
9 years ago, what have I got? What have I lost? I am like a tramp, float so many places, but I did not leave anything for myself. My friends should have bought a house, and they should have gotten married. 10 years ago, when he wanted to eat Cygnus, he had become a wife of others, even though he occasionally had a phone call. I left the school with nothing, had a hard time out, and went back to the school with scars, and then left the school with nothing. There are only those two packages that accompany me. They are my most loyal friends. Depressed, empty, lonely, this is my life before the age of 30.
When I graduated from college, my mother died. When I wanted to go home, my father remarried. When I finally had time to see my brother, he has gone to the Border Defense station which is only 50 miles away from Russia. When I am confused about a self-paid graduate student, my girlfriend does not belong to me. After six years, my world is so gloomy, why is my life so bad. I never believed in evil before I was 25 years old, and I was willing to distribute it. I was confident that my life would be two hundred years old. I tried to be lower than my tiangu. After I was 25 years old, I was disheartened and everything was set by myself, and I can only ask Heaven without words.
The scars on my body are covered with my two packages, and I will continue to start the new Long March of my life. Even if the sky is destined to flow away and fall down, I still want to be a wolf, even if it is just a dry wolf like firewood. Never be an obedient goat. This is the rule of survival.

------------------------ Transferred from Chongqing University democratic Lake Forum ---- Author: Xingtian