Feeling in the shower (2015.10.2)

Bath Feeling (2015.10.2), with this as the title, perhaps they do not have other time to think about themselves, only when the shower, only a bucket, shampoo and soap (or shower gel), as well as the faucet water rush flow.  This moment, no network, no virtual food to disturb, in addition to the heart has been thinking, may appear ghost ... So wash the hair dare not close eyes, wipe body is also swift, two minutes to make points, in their own time to poke back when, will find a thick layer of dirt.

Squatting in the bathroom, watching the water slowly flow, hand-pulled towel, towel with water, slowly to the body watering general, think of my own now regret own bicycle and desktop, because I think a person in the outside work, is should simple, simple go, there is no superfluous things, this feeling of regret is often increasingly strong , but my heart is more and more unhappy, I have things, almost belongs to overdraft, bicycles in the last month (September) paid off installment, this month will start staging desktop computer 6, think of their mid-autumn festival, National Day did not call home, I feel that they have come out, their parents abandoned, I don't remember the way my parents looked, to my father, I only remember the same group of trees saying to me: "Your father looks like a 60-year-old person." From small to large, I can feel oneself is my own home the most cared for a person, do what live, will let my own brother to do, and I just learn is the most important.

In the time of reading, not out of society, parents of my good, I can feel. Thought at the beginning of this year to send 2000 home every one months, by October, still owe 6k+3k debt, and I pay only 4 K per month, pay off the money, it seems to end this year, it means that I go home this year, I have not much money, in the hearts of parents, Perhaps the money to go home the new year is a happy thing, I feel that I did not earn money, back home the New year, is very ashamed, early this year, the father said, "You do not save the money to go home this year, I will be with you guys, quit." Mother is also at home urging themselves to quickly find a girlfriend, because marry a girl's money will rise every year, mother said: "While I can help to look after the children, hurriedly find a wife." In my concept, no money is not able to find a girlfriend, not the society is too realistic, but I do not have the ability to save money, this is a day is a day is almost two years, that is, I, I have two years of youth, is false. Time is always forward, we stay one second, go, can't return.

Perhaps I myself in this year may not go home, strive to save a little money before the Chinese New year, send back home, give mom and dad New Year relatives use. And regret the feeling of purchase, oneself also want to eliminate slowly. is already an adult, playing is an adult game, their own consequences, they will go to bear, no one to shelter us.

As for why I do not call home, it should be that I feel a person outside, I can take care of themselves, feel that their independence, there is no need to contact with their parents. But parents, still my parents, I have not yet repay the gratitude. Drip of the grace, the spring phase reported. It's important. The most important thing is affection ~~,sometime go,sometime down.game over~~~

Feeling in the shower (2015.10.2)