In two years, I will become an excellent front-end technician in China!

I found myself getting lazy, and I found myself greedy and afraid of death, because I don't want to pay, because I am greedy for ease. But the result is that I am getting farther and farther away from my own goals. Even in the process, I blur my goals. Finally, I found that I have no goals, or even I have no ideals! In fact, I have never had a comfortable life. Are I doing this? Yes, I think I am actually doing it, so sooner or later I will die myself ...... my previous goal was very simple. I wanted to find a better job, but I expected it to soon be on top. The reason was that my ability was on top and my college accumulation was on top. But when I think more about it, I find myself tossing and tossing, And I still look like this. I have never thought about it before, so after a while, I found that the effect was not good. Now I think, my abilities are not above, and my luck has been bad. I have reviewed and gained a lot of time in college, because I can study without any worries, because there are good projects and people are motivated. At sobey, my technology has grown very high, I am excited because I have made a lot of effort because I have a strategic product, the place where I should take off has cut my wings, but the place of dreams is the grave for you. When I came to QQ, I felt a little wrong, but I couldn't tell where it was wrong. I felt I was not working enough, but many things were piled up there to push it away? Every time I had a hard time packing up my mood and trying to do it, I thought I had a problem and finally felt a problem with my team. Many times I want to choose to leave, but I don't want to, just as if I were a Fei, I don't want to leave, because I don't want to leave her beautiful appearance, I don't want her to "the first". So I endured the endless pains that she had brought to me, and even endured her own will to endure. As a result, my life became chaotic. I began to tell my work and life clearly. I started to get angry, I began to suffer, I began to lose humor, and I began to lose my smile, I even lost my positive optimism. I even thought about whether I should do the sales. Finally, I found myself a scum with only 5 combat capabilities! But I still don't want to leave. I still have some fantasies. I think she will change, so I will also change and become stronger! Finally, she changed, but the change brought about her departure, and the change brought about the team disbanding. So I am passively facing a choice! I lost my mind, because I couldn't see a lot of things, and I lost my eyes. I didn't know exactly how to decide ...... I can't change everything, I can't even change everything in my life, because I have no responsibility, because I dare not face them, because I dare not change myself, because I am greedy for ease. The ability to stop changes! If you dare to do this, you must be brave. So I decided to let go, so I decided to find myself, and I could not let myself continue to sink. I want to see what makes me suffer, and I want to see what it feels like, and finally I know: being incompetent is the most painful. The endless regret and self-blame are the most painful, my life has been so impetuous that I can't move around. So I decided to embark on the journey again. I wanted to set a goal for myself. I wanted to write it out, and I wanted to shout it out: within two years, I want to become an excellent front-end technician in China! From today on, I have my own goals. This goal will not be far away. I can see it and it will be achieved within two years. I will work hard for this goal, and I will not be greedy or afraid of death, I will not be reluctant to pay, I will find my initial heart., At last, afei and Lin xianer lived together