Involve me, I'll remember

I realized I had to document something a few days ago. this time, I shall write it in English because of two reasons: I am not good at writing in Chinese; there are something which are easier to describe in English.

So, here we go...

Actually, I don't feel quite good these days because of the unefficient work and bad performance. I got bunch of papers (hundreds of pages altogether) but was very slow going through it. my boss seems unhappy with my progress, although he did not show that. at least, he expected that I cocould have some findings or idea to discuss with him, when he came up with some fresh definition (maybe well-known but me ), he expected that I cocould continue. however, now... I am Mr. know-nothing. even my English, which I used to be proud of, sucks now.

There are so busy things to hurry with, but I keep on doing things unessential. What the hell? What's wrong with me? Every evening, when I was back from office, when I was on the bike, I always thought that I wocould have a nice, fresh, hard-working evening and another nice, fresh, hard-working tomorrow. but indeed, I am in a vicious circle. damn!

My body and spirit seem to be seperated now. this is going to be the first englsh diary. I hope the next one wocould be much brighter. this is Cola which I had several weeks ago, hope the life will be just colorful like that...