My winter vacation, bye

The last winter vacation of a student's career is over, so I will wait for graduation. Think about how much I hope to leave school soon. However, how contradictory is the current mood .... If we want to leave the school and do not want to graduate, we have to take on more responsibilities. Sometimes we feel that we will not move, so we don't want...

In the past few days, my heart has been very unstable. Although the surface is very calm, I just don't want to let more people worry about it. I have been awake for several days in the morning, sweating, worrying, and dreaming ~ What happened this year? I feel much inferior to last year. It seems that my heart is of poor quality. I feel like I have seen all the hills as a great mountain. What happened to me ???? Haven't I entered the status yet, still floating in the air ???? When I went back to school, my mom said she was looking for a simple civilian job. I don't know why I don't want to look for a job of that type, but I am very envious of seeing that those students work very easily and can spend a lot of time doing what they want to do every day, contradictions...

I signed an internship agreement today and will start working tomorrow. I don't know what will happen ~ If you can stick to it here, I believe that the harvest is unexpected... But there is a lot of pressure, feeling...

Finally, I finally picked up my book. Today, I feel very at ease. It is the happiest thing to read and listen to music. At least I feel a lot more calm... What a wonderful thing if I can do this every day ~ The book is about to expire, and I will pay it back from work tomorrow. I haven't seen much yet, it means, tears ~

Today, I am also thinking about a problem. I find it very easy to take people's jokes seriously. I think it is really ridiculous. Although I know something is impossible, I still want to be happy for a few seconds, spoof yourself for several seconds ~ Really not flat...

In any case, let me enter the status quickly, regain my self-confidence and the strength of my learning ..