Pursue your dreams and never give up

I was tired of coding. I stopped and quietly thought about it. I felt too much emotion. You can't write a document. In fact, this is not the first time to stop thinking about life. This time, I am determined to write down what I want.

Every time I stop thinking, I always ask myself: What am I doing? Every time I give my answers, I keep chasing my dreams. Yes, that's right. It's a dream. When I think of my dream, it seems that I have been there since the age of my studies. It goes back to the age of my secondary school (around 2000). My first dream was to become a football player, at that time, playing football was not as strong as playing code. After year 35, a hardcore fan found that it was too embarrassing to realize this dream, because exercise is a kind of thing that requires good physical fitness and sports talents, my thin body obviously does not work, So I gradually gave up this dream. Many years later, it was less than a week before the start of the World Cup this year that I realized that the four-year World Cup was coming again, and I did not know how the Chinese team played in the World Cup qualifying tournament. Just now I also reviewed the highlights of the Chinese team's World Cup competitions in 2002. The scenes of watching the ball in the summer seemed to be in front of me, at that time, the passion seemed to be realized again.

The destruction of a dream is always accompanied by the arrival of a new dream. From the year of my third year of high school, my obsession with football has vanished, the new dream is to become a computer programmer. Why is there such a dream? That is also due to the emerging Microsoft Windows system and two classic applications (including game software ). The impact of computers on me may be as profound as it is today. Why is that? In fact, I was not the only one who had access to the computer at the time. Many students with poor family conditions also played the computer like me, but they may have only played the computer, I was deeply attracted by it, And I recalled the first time I had a computer experience, that is, two words: Magic. Since then, my new dream has basically taken shape. Because of the computer, my college entrance examination (in my opinion, the college entrance examination was a fixed lifelong examination at that time) failed to take the test of my best level, my parents asked me to fill in my computer-related volunteers, because they thought I could not do a good job of learning because of computer damage, playing a game to your computer all day long and then leaving yourself alone. This idea seems a bit strange now, maybe because the computer was just getting out, there were too many negative events about children playing games and school education being dropped out of school. In this way, my dream is stranded for the moment.

In the four years of full-time university, I suffered from the blow of my beloved major, and my mood was low. I never slowed down for four years. I even once fell in love with the computer competition game "Warcraft 3". I also had the idea of engaging in the e-competition game industry, but I gave up this idea not long ago. Of course, I didn't know how much time and energy I wasted from the first thought to the thought. It wasn't until I graduated from my internship and applied for a job that I found that my university was useless in the past four years. I didn't miss my school because I was a good student from childhood to college, at most, they cannot get a good result. Finding a job after graduation is almost impossible. At that time, I was studying the farming, forestry, animal husbandry, and fishery majors of the potholes. In the last year, the school paid no tuition fees. No matter how the school explained them, I still think that the reason for tuition fee relief is that this major is hard to find a job. When I graduated, my mind was blank and I had no idea what I could do. At that time, foreign trade was quite popular. My parents heard that many college students in foreign trade had a high salary, so they asked me to do it. Of course, I still did not give up my dream of being a computer programmer, but it was a technical activity. I was not from a science class, I had no knowledge, and I had no certificate. Where can I find my job as a computer. When there was no way to go, I had to stick my head to the path my parents gave me. This road went very hard. I didn't want to do it in less than a month, but there was no other way out, after brainwashing, I insisted on taking a foreign trade order for one year. Recalling my work at that time, I still thought about how to use computer programs to do this work when I was doing something unrelated to my computer, at that time, when I went to work, I came up with a picture of my own program writing and team discussion. I thought how nice it would be if I could do this job. Of course, I don't just think about it. Since then, I have learned some computer program development things, such as ASP Network Program Development, before leaving my first work unit, I left my first boss an enterprise website written in ASP.

My second job was secretly sought by my parents. They still hope that I can do a good job in foreign trade, but I think it is not suitable for foreign trade. I don't think there is any technical content, but it is almost entirely dependent on the mouth of the business work. I think it is because I have not graduated from computer science. So I chose a relatively low-entry-level field in the IT industry: software testing. The second company is a cross-border software company headquartered in the United States (I don't want to mention its name). All aspects of the system and work environment are OK, although I had to rent a house there in Jiaxing, I thought I was right. In this way, I entered my beloved IT industry. I did this for four years. This is a very practical company, which has to be attributed to the management of managers. To put it bluntly, I feel that my wings are hard and I don't want to do that simple work anymore (in fact, it is a job of trying out software with a little brains ). For a long time, I have obtained a bachelor's degree in part-time computer science, continuously studied some development technologies, and had a few development experiences in self-developed projects. In the past few years, my parents have never put pressure on me. Although I have done my favorite jobs, they think that it is a job of youth, and it is too tired to do it for a long time; they brainwashed me and asked me to take public institutions and civil servants, but I did not like this kind of work from the bottom of my heart and looked down upon it. Now, in a small city, unless you do business on your own, it would be the best job to have a stable job. Because of my current job, I suffered a lot of losses when searching for objects, but I don't regret it. I always feel that my job is to do what I like and don't just work for my life! I want to develop in a big city in the past, but I still do not dare to take this step. It is really terrible to look at the housing prices in a big city. I still think it is the same everywhere. Now that the Internet is so developed, what cannot be done?

The third job, that is, the current job, is not a software company. Now I am mainly engaged in program development and maintenance and take into account some network management work, I feel that I can give full play to my expertise in system management and software development. Unfortunately, I don't have a team, and I spend a lot of time alone, I don't know what to do next after fulfilling my boss's needs. In general, I feel that my dream is a huge step.

I wrote so much, like my resume. Let's look at myself and wonder where I am now. I have already finished my career, but I still have the strength of the young guy who just graduated. However, when I got older, I felt that my body was getting worse and worse. When I typed the keyboard, my neck was quite sour. However, I still have a strong interest in technology and still love the IT industry, because it always has new things worth learning and researching. I often tell my friends that I want to write code to the old man.

In retrospect, I gave up my dreams from small to large for various reasons. The current it dream is still alive. Although I know that it is only possible to win if I insist on doing anything, I still don't know how long it will last, it may not be until the doctor gives me a notification of critical illness that I will terminate this dream. I can predict that most of my career in this industry will be short-lived. Even if my life is dedicated to it, I still don't regret it. In fact, there is no way back. I am engaged in the IT industry and immersed myself in front of the computer. I have lost too many elements of my life. What can I do without it? Well, since there is no other way to go, we should continue the IT road, even if it is to perish. Write it here. writing an article is also very tiring. I used to try to touch my computer every day. Now I am working on my computer every day. I can see that my computer is vomiting at night, but what can I do if I don't touch my computer. Okay, continue to work hard and add fuel to yourself!