Qi jinnian: burning, dog-day life

I worked overtime for two consecutive months and did not have a weekend. I almost went to bed at every night and woke up.

 

This is the way to work, obviously exhausted, but with something hanging in your heart, you will not be able to sleep. No matter how tired it is, the alarm is set at half past six, but it always wakes up at, silently close it, get up, brush your teeth with a headache, and change your clothes.

 

Go to work with a general mood.

 

Fatigue can make people numb. It has been a long time, and it depends on inertia. Trivial matters, chores, endless problems, voices, tasks, telephones, and hundreds of people eating and drinking Lazarus. I feel that every cell in the body is squeezed out of the juice by the working gear. One by one.

 

In the end, almost no human or animal was involved.

 

That afternoon, because the bus driver of the delegation had a bad temper and did not go high-speed, he was notified of it. He sent a phone call to my office, and he gave me a face-to-face.

 

After so long, for example, in the last three kilometers of the marathon, I don't know what is exhausting. I thought it was made of steel, but I was still on the phone. I suddenly collapsed, it's not enough to cry.

 

In the past, what people were most unable to stand was not hardship. But you don't know why you suffered.

 

I think of the days that have been exhausted for the past two months. In the end, it was just a bite by the diners who bit a grain of sand, And they threw away the whole box of rice.

 

What makes people grow up? When people grow up, this is the case. When they finish crying, their voices and emotions are sorted out, and they continue to work overtime until am, as usual.

 

Of course, this is what makes people get old. When they get old, they don't even cry.

 

Walking out of the building, I looked up and saw that the moonlight was cold, and the light was still shining. Dark blue sky, layer Clouds such as the sea. Somehow, I think of the poet's saying, "the sky has nothing, why do you give me comfort?" And my eyes see a slight burst of tide.

 

The moonlight is quiet, and on the open space behind the office building, a broken radio is clamoring for cool Indian dance music. A group of big moms are dancing in the gym happily and forming a big circle. They are like botnets. They are flat hands, one by one, and slowly rotate around the circle. They looked so cheerful and innocent. I couldn't help thinking -- if this is the case in my life, from youth to twilight years, but after work every day, I retired from work and jumped on the open space to dance "dam Dance", isn't it equal to living white.

 

That's enough. Go to your dog's day.

 

After successfully completing the project stall, I resigned calmly.

 

After all, there are people who have choices. I would not have expected the 600 yuan salary and 1000 yuan performance to survive. In my two thousand-word resignation letter, I wrote a little tragic, "I don't want to go back and see it for years. The peak of my life is only the peak of work ."

 

All the leaders are reasonable, understanding, and saying that it is indeed a great deal to let you stay here. We don't know why you're here.

 

I thought it was a good thing to leave. Then I am so tired of working. I just want to travel around the world, feed Ma xiaochai, and care about food and vegetables.

 

But I didn't think of it. On the night I sent an email, the big boss (the one Who scolded me on the phone) refused to let me go. I am also a high-ranking person. In the middle of the night, I sent back an email and wrote a long string to keep me and said, "I will also correct my way of doing things ".

At last, I added another separate email: "Do not go !!!"

Three exclamation points.

 

The next day is a morning work meeting, which is fully open to half past one noon. Later, when I left, he continued the meeting.

 

But sent me a text message, "Don't leave ."

 

As a result, I suddenly lost my feet: like in a romantic TV series, my husband was about to cheat and seek a new life, but my wife suddenly came to stay.

 

I spoke to a friend who loves diving about these things. After ten years of old friends, I chatted with her on QQ and said to her, "You know, it's not because I can't eat this bitter food, I can't bear this loneliness, and I can't escape my life. I just think that life is too short. It doesn't make sense to go on like this ."

 

She said, "I understand ." Like me, I have never considered traveling as an escape of life.

 

It may be because you are unwilling to admit it.

 

I found that I love diving so much because I found that I could not deal with the world on the shore, and I was not able to maintain physical and mental freedom in complex real life ."

 

We resign, travel ...... But we will all go back to our lives. Life is that whether you are in Paris, in Buenos Aires, in Anshan, or Dali, you need a room, a bed, clothing, food, and shelter.

 

If you are a good-hearted person, you must admit that we cannot completely break the world and travel around the world to feed Ma xiaochai.

 

It is not easy for a person to admit his limitations.

 

I once liked to promote that set of things, as the big celebrity said in the talk show: "You don't dating, don't fall in love, don't go out to play, don't drink, don't go shopping, don't go crazy, don't rebel, don't chase stars, don't fall in love, don't confess, don't get together, don't karaoke, don't sanye, because you want to learn, you want to work. Is your youth eaten by dogs ?"

 

But now, I want to ask the celebrity: "Do you become a celebrity by dating, going out, drinking, and shopping ?"

 

Sorry, I still want to mention this microblog again: "When you fight all night, Brisbane's light fish have crossed the coral cluster; when you rush to the job fair, the crab in Mombasa just slipped out of the fisherman's palm; when you write the program code, the tram in Prague is shining through the golden sunset ......"

 

But now, I just want to say that for the vast majority of us who are not rich second generation officers, we don't have to fight all night, don't catch up with job fairs, don't write program code, how can we have money, can you go to Brisbane's light fish, monbara to see fishermen, and Prague to see the sunset?

 

Stop.

I can understand that everyone loves beautiful and exquisite things. A life created on screen or on paper is often elegant, luxurious, exquisite, and leisurely. Young men and women with beautiful faces and tall figures, sitting in a coffee shop during the day and chatting at night in a nightclub, endless gathering of friends and traveling around the world. When they get up in the morning, they also face exquisite makeup and have messy hair styles, no worries, no need to urinate, but a conversation with the lover.

 

Of course, this is excitable. In addition to commercial factors, the public may not talk about aesthetics. It may be because our real life is so pale and mean that we are exhausted. It is rare to take a moment to rest, so we would rather see some beautiful and easy fiction.

 

But you know, fiction is fiction, and life is life.

The fictional person created does not live as in fiction.

 

So don't be fooled.

If I study hard and work hard, will my youth be eaten by dogs?

 

Is it meaningless to squeeze the bus into the subway every day and get off work on time?

 

Go to you.

 

All, travel, crush, karaoke, chasing stars, eating, drinking, and playing ...... They are just the embellishment of life. You know you cannot spend your life like this.

 

Unless you only want to practice reincarnation, become a second generation X. All Generation X is struggling. According to that set of theories, their youth are all eaten by dogs. The days they used to study and work hard are meaningless.

After all, even the rich-in-law and the rich-in-law models require learning, patience, and work, and the danger of broken dreams.

Yes, the damn things we did during the 3rd, the damn things we are working on, the instant noodles we were eating during hard times, and the bicycles we were riding when we ran our customers were meaningless.

However, we must pass through these meaningless steps to build a meaningful life.

 

In cloud maps, a drop of water is not a sea.

But there is no water, and there will never be a sea.

Far away. The ending of this story is that I did not leave it alone, but accepted their retention for the time being. Because it is like jealousy, it is one person's greatest affirmation of another person.

 

The weak always resign and leave when they feel the worst, hoping that environmental changes will bring something. The strong always resign and leave when they feel the best, seeking for a higher and farther world. This is not what I said, Yu Minhong said. This is the case.

 

Believe what you do makes sense. Burning, dog-day life.