Self-analysis on psychological cues

Although the title of the blog is "trying to challenge your own psychological suggestion", it seems that I have not written any articles related to it. However, I am fighting with my own psychological suggestion, it has never been stopped in recent years. If you have a meeting with a high school student, you will find that you have actually changed. I really don't know if this change is good or bad.

The psychological implication that has the greatest impact on me is as follows:
1. I cannot learn mathematics well.
I believe that, no matter whether there are psychological factors or not, mathematics is hard for many people. Therefore, since I was in high school, I have never had a high score, so far, I have never been able to get rid of this suggestion. Maybe this is not a suggestion at all, but my own mathematical talents are really limited.

2. introverted, not talkative.
This was imposed by my dad. Because of my parents' work, I was brought up by my grandparents and aunts when I was a child (only a few months old). When I was nine years old, my academic performance was poor, my parents took me to school in the city. Because I don't stay with my parents all the year round, and every time I see them, I always give priority to questions about their scores. So I feel a little worried in my heart, so I don't like to talk very much when I get to the city. Over time, my dad gave me the "introverted, unsociable" hat.

This hat puts the most pressure on me and most affects the formation of my character. After I graduated from college, I felt that I had lived in the shadows of "poor communication". My life was simple, I had a small number of friends, and I liked to do something, such as my audio.

After graduating from college, I entered the new life stage of "work". In the face of the new relationship group of "colleagues", I began to try to get rid of "not talking, poor communication. I remember my answer to my thesis after graduation. I had to talk about PPT in public, but it was really a big mess. I didn't know how I got through it. Then I gradually adapted to talking in front of people at work and made a speech at the meeting, become dominant in the team...

Although I still do not like to expand the social circle actively, the groups I come into contact with in my life and work can properly handle the relationships between all parties.

3. I am only applicable to technology
I believe that many IT people, especially developers, have more or less similar ideas, whether it is "I only like technology" or "I am only applicable to technology ", or "What else can I do without technology? ", Without a doubt, the road will become narrower and narrower.

This idea was particularly strong when I first came to Beijing in. Special Solution companies did not accept jobs such as pre-sales, implementation, and leader, I always want to write the code with my mind, so that everything can be solved as long as the code is excellent.

At present, this "suggestion" has been completely conquered by me. This may be a natural evolution. With the increase in years of work, we will naturally see how naive our previous ideas are, and as we grow together with our generation and generation after generation, most people are really not suitable to stay in the same job.

4. pursuing perfection
I cannot tell whether the pursuit of perfection is a good character or a bad character. I once thought that the pursuit of perfection is a very noble thing, but now I am very vague.

I have always had the knot of "pursuing perfection", just like obsessive-compulsive disorder, which cannot be solved until now. For example, if I want to write a document, I will spend a lot of time looking for the most beautiful templates. For example, I need to find an open-source CMS system recently, from Java to PhP, I have downloaded and tried all the well-known open-source CMS files. I know that sometimes time is more important, but I often cannot help myself find a better one, for fear of missing a better knot.

I tried my best to pursue perfection in the results, but did not need perfection in the process. This is my recent understanding of "pursuing perfection". At this point, I still need to overcome it myself.