The sorrow of a headless fly

July 2014 graduation, but also clearly remember the July 13 from home to Shanghai days. This is my first time in Shanghai, with my parents ' deep expectations. My father is very worried about what I am going to do in the future, I do not have anything special to do, and I have no specific goals in the face of social confusion. The days of my home are passing by, and it's hard for me to get my diploma, I don't know where to work, what I will do, what I can do. Father did not know when to make a phone call to his uncle, and ultimately the action of the father so that everything becomes so logical-graduation, package home, handle good things, trustee care, leave home, start looking for work.

I do not know since when a strange disease, I feel that I will become a frequent and other people talk about the kind of people-three days fishing two days, no skills people, armchair people, three minutes of heat, the only positive side is that I want to get rid of such self. I don't know what to get rid of is a headache.

Any kind of work is filled by countless actions, portray, trace, take the simple cooking, you want to buy rice, buy vegetables, wash vegetables, rice, cut vegetables, with vegetables, cooking rice, vegetables, and so on, every step here is running through your thoughts, in the buy food when you have to consider what you want to eat, what rice is delicious, how to match good-looking and nutrition, Cooking rice should put how much water, burning vegetables put how much salt, put what seasoning better eat, when you are familiar with this all the time naturally, work is the same, everything starts difficult.

There were two little people in the body, and whenever I had to make a choice, they would fight and quarrel often. A say bad, face bad I hesitate, face good I desire. Is that why I stopped?

Do you understand all the principles? Do you really understand that? Do you know the standard? To what extent is it understood? Suddenly I feel that whenever I talk to my friends: I know all these principles, but it's hard to do them. , it's easy to say. Do I really understand, do I really do it?

The expression is chaotic, the thought is not main, chooses the difficulty 、、、、、

The sorrow of a headless fly