Thought of by "the Mundane world"

About 10 years ago to read the ordinary world, less flat hard student time, once let me think he will be a big character, unfortunately not, he is always ordinary.
I middle School in the county school that year, a dish I eat half of the night to eat half, a lunch I eat steamed bun clip pickles, father saw said want to tears. Many years later, relatives will mention it. At that time I also feel that I will be a person, but until now I am still ordinary.
Spring Festival Home, a New Year third day, Ghost Festival, milliner with to recognize Graves, in a few mounds before said, "This is your big grandfather, drowned, the middle this is you two master, disease, the inside that is you three master, hanged." "I, uh, nodded. My master is the landlord, after liberation fear to be fighting, jump well suicide. Other ancestors, have been shot, have the limbs of death, there are suicide, there are running away, there are dullard, most of the No. The fathers had struggled with the ingredients for years. Until today, my family name a door left jizya scarce, the ability meager, really pitiful, alas.
Just read a soup, read its sub-achievements "Misasa important official, nine sealed," Let me sigh, I can't help but lament, what is the concept of nine! The gap between man and man is Minari. I am very traditional, but can benefit from the first, but hope that the descendants of Grace. I am a more xing, perhaps self-beginning.
The death of Tianxiaoxia in the mundane world is a great grief to me. Remember when I read her, I thought, "Aye, is this not the most perfect girl in my heart?" If can have her such lover, this life still have what to regret! "I chat with friends, chat to the ordinary world, chat to Tianxiaoxia, I know he has finished reading that book, he asked him about the evaluation of Xiao Xia, friends said that Xiao Xia finally for Save the dead, that moment I was very uncomfortable." When I read her death, when I read her family put her diary to less flat, read her words, I almost cried, no, I should have really shed tears.
"Ordinary World" in the meaning of the bitter love let me feel empathy. I remember that year I was secretly in love with a classmate, I would like to graduate and never see her reality let me temporarily unacceptable. The saddest thing is, I still have a wishful thinking. At that time, the pain in my heart was nothing to say.
I remember that summer afternoon, I was a person in the Earth to read the ordinary world, forget why in that piece of land next to, may be the Melon field bar. Those days, I was in a heavy mood, the whole portrait of a silly general. When I read about the feeling that little Ann married, how I felt that feeling and my mood is the same. That day I remembered the words in the book "The scene is the last scene, the heart like the ice fire is different". Now 10 years later, I still remember that sentence clearly.
Living nearly 30 years, students, I have a crush on three people, are single acacia, each time poisoning very deep. In high school two times, all seriously affected my study. My grades have been late, not because I was stupid, but because I had a mental problem. If someone gave me the right to enlighten, if I do not daisha all day, perhaps my high school years will not go that many detours.
Maybe I was destined to make a peach blossom in my life. University, sophomore began, I spent three years, after graduation and spent another year, to chase a person who does not like me at all. At that time I always look forward to the Remove mountains can be caused by sincerity touched her. I keep texting her every day for years. For her I have also written nearly 300,000 words. After graduating, I went to her unit door waiting for her, I did so, just to see her, in order to speak to her. I hardly ever listened to classes in college class, because I was careful to stare at her.
The wishful thinking ended with her yelling at me, "Follow me, I'll call the police!" and ended up sending messages to me by her boyfriend, ending her abusive remarks. There was a time when I was angry and I felt I had to pay so much to really deserve that treatment. It was only later that I was relieved. Everything in the past is irrelevant.
In order to get close to her, I have done a lot of absurd things, I have traversed the classroom to find her, I alone thousands of miles to her community, I gave her not know thousands of missed calls, to her three or four years of uninterrupted text messages. I deserved to be scolded later.
When I gave up, I deleted all the pictures that I had collected, and I tore up the thousand words for her by myself at 1.1. I give up because I can't afford to play. The first time I guessed that she was living with her boyfriend, I walked with my feet soft.
After so many years of groping and climbing, I seem to have summed up my flaws. I am too apt to be possessed of affection. This is probably why I like Leslie's movie. I was deeply touched by him, because of his attachment to the feelings, "not possessed, do not survive." ”
Now I'm still single, but it's probably going to end soon. I will try to find a person to love again seriously. As long as be concerned, I will still pay all my sincerity.
As for the past, let it pass forever. Some people, destined to strangers, after the difference, it is best not to see again.

Thought of by "the Mundane world"