Who made a knot in my heart (12 )?

Over the past few days, I have been dejected. It seems that I have suffered from a serious illness. I am too lazy to do anything, and I feel that I am not able to improve my mind. I always think of Yang Guang and Tian Xin in my mind. Yang Guang said that Tian Xin had a graduate student's boyfriend and he had always done well. He also said that he was rejected by Tian Xin after he bravely confessed to Tian Xin. Tian Xin told me that she is happy and single now, and she enjoys her own life as she does now.

"Is Tian Xin telling the truth? Does she really have no boyfriend? Since she likes the life of a person, should I stand in front of her and bravely tell her that I like her very much ?", These questions are like a curse that keeps occupying my entire head. I started to feel a little scared. I felt like I was really ill. Instead of thinking about it, it was a typical schizophrenia. I can clearly see a shadow like me always appears around me, and his mouth keeps talking to me endlessly. Sometimes it is a severe warning, telling me to give up; sometimes it is a passionate encouragement, encouraging me to move forward as a warrior.

Tian Xin smiled and appeared in front of me. Looking at it, I became happy. I moved my footsteps toward those crystal clear eyes and slowly approached the past. When I was able to hear a bright heartbeat clearly, I stopped and calmly wanted to talk to her about the piece of thought that I had been buried deep in my heart. But when I was preparing to talk to Jack, a huge black shadow covered the beauty of my eyes. I opened my eyes and looked at it carefully. I saw Yang Guang's back. He looked very tall and looked down at me. He said to me very seriously and loudly, "younger brother, let me think about it. Don't be too serious. In reality, I am your guide ". After hearing this, I stopped my desire to express myself, and stood awkwardly, so I felt a little scared. Yang Guang is right. I should give up. In reality, don't be naive.

I once saw in a book that everyone has a magic, and that is his own shadow, just like the light in the dark, which is projected. I don't know, nor do I dare to know whether there is another one in the world. It is a shadow. He always stood in front of me, such as my body and dress-up, and kept looking at me and talking. It was cold and blocked for a while, like Yang Guang; it was warm and excited, like the smile I like. I think I am really ill and very serious.

on July 22, August 16, today is Wednesday, and there is still one week before the bidding ceremony for the new edge project. In the afternoon, Mr. Wang called Yang Guang and I to the Office, and said with great enthusiasm that we should be well prepared and the Project Bidding will soon begin. This project can be said to be the biggest expectation of the company this year or even in the past few years. If the project can be successfully won and successfully completed, it will be a very important milestone for the future development of the company. After that, Mr. Wang asked Yang Guang to continue his in-depth understanding of the prices and market distribution of various manufacturers for procurement projects, it also told Yang Guang that it is best to find a way to know the major purchasers and product prices of Xin He and Simon. On the software side, Mr. Wang told me that there may be temporary Program arrangements during the bidding meeting, so let me take a closer look at the technical solution and see if there are any improvements. Once the modifications are completed, I will immediately submit them to Zhang Jie for binding and remember to paste the seal at that time. Mr. Wang also said that the customer may have a team of evaluation experts who may have some on-site questions or statements about the content of a certain tender, so let me learn more about the current telecom business and a series of software-related specifications and processes. This evaluation expert group is mainly composed of cloud University, kungong's teachers, core personnel of some scientific research institutions, and the main core persons in charge of telecom, it may be the Business Solution and process of the current project, or some development processes, architecture selection, technical explanations, and project implementation methods in the software field, so I need to know more about the relevant things, so that I can answer and elaborate well at the bidding meeting. After that, Mr. Wang patted me on the shoulder happily and told me that he believed that I could do it well, because he said that he would not read the wrong person, he always believed in my ability and told me that he could find him or ask Zhang Jie for any resources and he would try to satisfy them. I also became happy with the speech and excited eyes that Mr. Wang expected. I didn't say much. I just told Wang that he would try to do it well.

After hearing Wang's heavy remarks, I went back to the office and sat quietly in my position. I thought about what I needed to do from now on to the bidding ceremony. I don't think there should be any problems with the software development process, architecture selection, technical explanation, and project implementation. In addition, the evaluation Evaluation Expert Group mainly focuses on the overall solution of the project, so I think the biggest obstacle for me now is business understanding. I need to spend more time studying and understanding the business processing process of the current system. Yang Guang once told me that Tian Xin and Wei LAN of the customer service department are the most familiar businesses in the company. They asked me to spend more time asking and communicating with them. Now it seems that it is time for me to go to the two of them and ask for advice. But how can I start. Wei LAN, a thirty-year-old married woman, "Family Women" occupy all her time out of work. For her, there should not be much time left for me to take up. Besides, during her work, she had to be busy with her work and had no time to spend. In this way, I can only go to Tian Xin and ask her to help me and tell me more about the business processing process and related knowledge.

I got up and went to the customer service department to talk to Tian Xin about my thoughts. At this moment, the shadow appeared again. It stood in front of me and looked at me with a smile. It does not speak, but I know that its smile is already expressing its words. Its smile is mocking my hypocrisy and despising my thoughts. "I just want to do a good job and complete the tasks assigned by the boss. There are no other ideas. "I shouted at the shadows, and though the voice was enough to prove my innocence, my sincerity was sold out even though it was not consistent. The Shadow still does not speak, that is, it keeps smiling at me. It is funny and poisonous.

Soon, I was knocked down by the smile of the shadow. I sat back in the chair and rubbed my hair with great force. I kept in my mind and said, "I just want to do a good job, complete the tasks assigned by the boss. There are no other ideas. I am innocent. Believe me ". My pleading became helpless, slowly turned into pleading, and finally turned into pleading. The Shadows have never pity me for being weak. They just smile and laugh more and more.

"Hello, who?" the vibration of the cell phone in the bag interrupts my helplessness. I picked up the phone and asked awkwardly.

"It's so cool to make a fortune. I can't even remember my old brother. It's really three days away, so I should have a pretty eye-catching look, "said the other end of the phone with a hearty joke.

"Handsome guy, don't say that. I just got bored with work. Who are you? Say the name, don't get bored, "I asked gently, taking back my own frustrations. In fact, I wanted to deliberately ridicule me, but I thought it was not a time to brag, because there was a pile of trouble waiting for myself.

"Yo, yo, yo, what is interesting, what is boring. Your kid tells me about it. Today, I have a good idea about your brother. "the voice on the phone is still teasing me.

"Don't talk about it, okay? Let's say there's a bunch of things on Lao Tzu's side waiting to be done. I don't have time to brag with you. Don't talk about it. I have to call again, "I told him impatiently.

"Haha, Lao Tzu, you are awesome. You have no contact for so many years. Now, I am in full swing. I have to pretend to be a human model, and I learned how to play and send it. How can I do this with your brother? It seems unnecessary, "he told me with a smile, as if he was trying to test my patience.

"No, you say nothing, don't say it, I really got down." I shouted.

"Don't be excited. Feelings like killing people. I'm Liu, remember? Junior high school classmates, the younger brother who used to be with you. Tian yuge, you have never forgotten me. You have also been my teacher. "He did not smile and told me very seriously.

"It turned out to be your kid. Oh, no, it's wrong. It's erliu's brother. He just burst into a conflict. Sorry, sorry, sorry. "I heard him say he was Liu, I am sorry for the explanation immediately. The reason why I think of Liu very quickly is that I have been playing well with him for six years in middle school. It is the kind of problem that the poor cannot be moved. He has been the second brother in the dormitory for several days, and he is also the best girl, so everyone calls him second brother. After graduating from high school, he got a master from cloud division, but since then we have seldom contacted each other. Now I remember that six years have passed, so it's a very fast time, but it's really a testament to what people often say: "It's not so old, it's time to fly ".

"Second stream, where are you making a fortune now? Why do you think of me now. In Kunming? Have time to eat together, "I paused for a while, and then said. In fact, I want to continue calling him "Second Brother", but the word "brother" always feels a bit difficult to say, so it is discarded.

"Haha, it's your business to make a fortune. We migrant workers have a blessing. I heard that your kid is playing well now. This is not a rush for you. Eat for a bowl of food. Now there are thousands of oceans in a month, or even tens of thousands, "Liu said with a smile.

"Tens of thousands? Dream, me oneCodeThe workers won't be able to get tens of thousands of yuan, unless they will pay for three bridges to rob banks tomorrow. After talking about it, don't laugh at me. I have been working for a few years, but I can't even afford my underpants. No, I still wear the Big Red One we bought in our dormitory ", I started to smile.

"Haha, you kid, it's amazing. How many years ago are your underpants still able to meet your demands? I am afraid that it has been a lot of holes, full of wet marks, hanging on the bed, when every day to avoid evil, haha. How about it? have time to eat together at night. If you are very busy now, I won't talk to you much. The two of us have a good chat together in the evening. We haven't seen you for many years. It's strange to miss you. About a place. Please treat me !", Liu said with a smile.

"Second stream brother, don't say that. If you think about it, you just need to think about it '. It sounds a little scared. Maybe not. Our second brother has made some breakthroughs in some directions. Haha. All right, let's have a good chat at night. I am now living in huangtupo, and I will get off work at 07:10, so I can get to huangtupo bus station around. Maybe I'll take you to the Red River and the fat man for a while. I 've been there once and it tastes good, just near huangtupo .", I smiled and said, I don't know why, I finally began to call him another brother.

Liu said with a smile and told me to wait for me at huangtupo station around seven o'clock. He also told me a number and asked me to call him at that time.

I went back to my office and looked at the time in front of the computer. Finally, I had to wait until six o'clock to get off work. Without saying anything, I quickly packed up and went downstairs to the bus station. As usual, the road to work was still so messy that I got on the bus and it was not until around 7.2 that I successfully arrived at the huangtupo station. Just got off the bus, far away, I saw Liu standing at the station door, carrying a light-colored work bag on his shoulder, watching a car driving out of the bus, like those who went back to the countryside after liberation.

I hurried up to greet Liu. after a while of bragging, I took him to Honghe fat man for dinner. Liu is a lot older and has become a black man. He has become a very regular middle-aged man with four-six-open clothes. A pair of black glasses and his thin body make him look like an ancient study, a kind of face, a kind of eyes from the black glasses, bright, kind, amiable. He has changed a lot. His face has a lot of youthful vigor and he has become sedated and stiff. I feel that he is not like me for a few days, but more like me for several years, looking at him reminds me of the Chinese teacher we used in junior high school. I seem to have seen Liu's class presentation, his straight body, self-confidence face, and the sound of life. He is familiar with the road like an experienced gardener. Although the spirit is full, the passion is strong, but the feeling is still less the sunshine of many young people. The second brother is really old.

Soon, we sat down at the fat man. I ordered a few famous Chinese dishes, and many of them were spicy, because I knew Liu liked spicy food. In a short time, the food came up. I asked the waiter to say that a bottle of red-source liquor was immediately stopped by Liu. He said that he had been drinking alcohol for more than two years. He was in poor health and basically seldom drank alcohol after work. I had to agree to hear him say so seriously. While eating, we chatted about each other's life over the past few years.

Liu studied the Chinese Language Department at the General University. He had a great time and romance in his four-year college career. Because of his skillful approach to getting a girl, he had a pretty girl in the first semester of college, and the girl was the "Flower" of all their departments ". With the company of beautiful girlfriends, Liu's college life is two words-"happy ". Since then, his love with the "Flowers" has been sticking to it. Around last May, they got married happily and bought a house in lin'an city. He was even more pleased that three months ago, they had a cute little baby. Liu told me that most of his life tasks have been completed. He doesn't want to make much money and create many major businesses. He just wants to stay quietly in the city of lin'an, enjoy the warmth of the family and protect them until they grow old. Liu taught in the school where we first attended. During the two years of work, he was named as a model class by the school, he was also named as a class teacher this year. Liu also said that he liked the job of the teacher. He liked the feeling of class. Every day, he looked at the platform with a pair of eyes for knowledge and looked up at you. He longed for your guidance and teaching, and tell them about culture and knowledge.

Liu has been happy to tell his stories over the years. They are wonderful and happy. I feel much different from him. There is no companion that can depend on each other, no secure home, and no sweet family. Over the past few years, I am still a person, a lonely wanderer. All day long, I 've been traveling through the hustle and bustle of the city, and I have shrunk back to the narrow four walls. Liu seems to have felt my sentimental feelings. He comforted me and said, "Let me have a good job. I want to be happy. I will have it sooner or later. Now, I just want to live my life in a proper way.

"I like a girl, but I am a little scared and dare not confess to her." I am very direct and helpless.

"Oh? Why? Scared? What are you afraid of? Why are you afraid? "Liu asked inexplicably.

"I heard people say that she has a graduate boyfriend, but she told me that she is single now," I whispered in a grievance, it seems that Yang Guang and Tian Xin are being blamed.

"Well, what you are worried about now is that you are not as good as her boyfriend, people are graduate students, and you are just a small undergraduate student. And this makes you even more afraid that when you confess to the girl, she will tell you right away relentlessly, no, "Liu analyzed very seriously.

"In fact, you think this is wrong. Whether you match the graduate student or whether the girl is single or not. Only one thing you remember is that you are a man, and you can get the man you love. With this, no possibility, no fear, or worry is an excuse. Because you want to love, you need to love. "I can see that Liu's eyes are full of infinite confidence.

"In fact, many times, a man will worry that he will be ruthlessly rejected after bravely speaking to a woman, and then feel ashamed of himself. In fact, this is not the case at all. Reject me. The more you refuse, the more courage I have, because I know that after each rejection, I will know that I need to make more efforts to make up for my own mistakes ."

"There is no easy thing in this world. It is only after the spirit of sincerity, the challenge, and the passion. You always need patience and perseverance to catch up with girls and catch up with girls. What a girl needs is relying on, caring, and caring. If you want a girl to see you, I promise she will keep her up with you forever, unless your own changes make her sad, regret, and give up. "Liu's words are very passionate, just like his eyes. He spoke in a tone more like an elder with a strong speech. He was patiently telling me how to treat me as his student.

"This is another classic way for our second brother. It's very classic. With these things, I want to see how many flower season girls fell under your mighty power. "I heard Liu say so seriously, and I laughed.

"How did you get started. The hero did not mention the courage of the year. What was the problem. When you hadn't seen me chasing my wife, the whole family of boys admired me. That scene was quite spectacular. "Liu was forgotten, I am proud to recall the previous stories.

"That is, who is our second brother? Master Niu, what kind of beauty can escape from his claw? haha ", watching him show off, I deliberately joke.

"Haha, if you don't mention it, it's all about the past. Old, in a few days, the child will make Soy Sauce .", Liu waved his hand and didn't want to continue.

"By the way, tell me the girl you like. I'll give you a adviser, and maybe you can come up with an idea." Liu asked with great concentration.

"It's from the customer service department of our company, named Tian Xin, who is about 21 years old. He looks very beautiful, takes affairs seriously, is very intelligent, and has a cheerful and lively personality. Because of this, many people in the company like her ".

"This is the case. No wonder! You are really addicted to it. You have an eye, but you still have a 21-year-old girl. Why is it fashionable or non-mainstream? Haha .."

"But to be honest, it takes a bit of thought to catch up with such a girl. If you do not care about the age gap, you must consider it carefully. First of all, you cannot make people think that you have a generation gap. At least you must have a common hobby and pursue it, you do not like Jay Chou, Tsai Yilin, And she. If you do not like it, learn to like it quickly, because these are their pursuits. Second, you need to spend more time talking to her, chatting with her, shopping, eating, and playing. Tian Yu, I told you that the younger girl, the more greedy she is, you must learn to play and endure her playfulness. I think you should be around the same as before. You don't like talking very much, and you can't do it unless you have a rest. You must learn how to get out, learn how to find patterns, understand humor, and learn how to be romantic. In this way, at least you can get a crush on you. She will feel happy with you, all day is carefree, don't worry about anything, live a simple life in a fairy tale, this is what she needs .", Liu said this, and it seems that when he returned to junior high school, he turned into the hippie smiling face and a slick second brother.

"I will teach you a few ways. You can come and think about it if you can try it. As long as you do what I do to ensure your success, "Liu began to move out of his old multi-day collections.

"What are the tricks? It's not that you are talking about it." I was curious and asked him intentionally to see what his so-called warranty method is.

"First, because you are the same as her, you can do it hereArticleFirst, use 'home' to bring the relationship between the two of you closer. Second, use various excuses to talk to her, whether at work or in life. For example, ask her where to go today, tomorrow, ask her where the food is delicious and fun. If you have a job connection with her, it's even more justified. As long as you chat with her for a long time, she will naturally treat you as a friend and tell you something about her own thoughts, troubles, and happiness. Third, if you do a good job of the second point, the third point is to make it happen. When you are free, you will ask her to go out, eat, climb mountains, watch movies, kge and so on, and find a lot of things you can do. By the way, when talking about this mountain, I often heard people say it when I was at school. If you want to catch up with a girl, take her to climb Xishan. As long as the girl can get up and down from Xishan, she will love you immediately. However, I have never used this method because I don't need it. Haha .", Liu said that he was very proud to laugh.

"The fourth and most important point is to let her know that although you are poor and have no money, you are ambitious and positive. Although you are introverted and do not like to talk, you are very smart, understand humor and romance. If she knows and feels your advantages, pick a special day. Standing in front of her, it is better to be romantic, and then confidently tell her that you like her and want to be with her. Remember not to mention that you love her. It will be a fake thing. Not only do you not believe it, but she will never believe that this short period of time can get the 'Love' you said '."

Liu was excited to say his tricks, as if he had changed a person. He took off the stiff calm and became energetic. He is right. In fact, I don't have to worry about this. What I need now is to create some opportunities that belong to me and Tian Xin. Then I can grasp them well and use these opportunities, bringing Tian Xin and I closer together. Make friends with her and let her know that I am a confident and ambitious person. I will always like her, treat her well, and protect her, and make her feel very happy and happy with me.

"Is Tian Xin from the city or in the countryside ?", Liu suddenly asked this strange question.

"It seems like it's in the countryside." I'm not sure.

"It's okay. At least you have a good start with her. Unlike many other migrant wage earners, the root cause is that they always hope that their beloved baby daughter can have a qualified family. At least they will not follow us as outsiders, ".

Liu is very realistic and sincere. This is the case. Although I haven't thought about marrying Tian Xin, Liu's words are clearly a warning of the crowdsourced security testing. Because the Kunming people, like my parents, were living in this prosperous city like us, floating, and silently striving for their own beautiful life.

After hearing some of Liu's high opinions, my inner sorrow is completely resolved. As Liu said, I am not worried about whether I am equal to a graduate student, or whether I am afraid that Tian Xin will reject it coldly. Whether undergraduates are comparable to graduate students or whether Tian Xin is single or not. Only one thing I need to remember is that I am a man and can get the man I love. There is no excuse to block my pursuit or fear me. Because I want to love, so I need to love. I like Tian Xin, And I will fall in love with her. I want her to know my love for her, and then let her fall in love with me like I love her. That's right! That's it.

The chat between Liu and me continued until the early morning until the boss told us sorry that he planned to close the door and shut down. Because we didn't drink, we both had a good spirit. The terrain of the Loess Slope belongs to the relatively high area in Kunming, so every night, there is always a cold wind, although it is the midsummer of August, you can still feel a bit cool.

I asked Liu if he wanted to go to Kundu kge or Bundi. He smiled and said no, he also told me that he came to Kunming mainly to hold a seminar on business education and learning from the Provincial Education Bureau, and it was over this afternoon. Tomorrow, he plans to take the morning shuttle bus back to Ann, so he wants to have a rest early tonight. I had no choice but to ask him where to go for a break. I took him there. He told me that there was a fixed Hotel in the province, so I don't have to worry about it any more. Liu and I walked to the taxi greeting station on the side of the road. In a short time, a red taxi drove over. Liu simply waved goodbye to me and then got on the bus and left. As the red taxi gradually leaves me, I stood there, and a burst of cold air struck my face. I began to regret it. I should leave Liu, shouting at him, "Second Brother! Thank you !".

The next day, I got on the bus as usual, and Liu sent me a text message saying that I had already got on the bus, and told me that I must remember to look for him when I went home to see his warm home, beautiful wife and the cute little baby. I replied yes, yes, and wished him a pleasant trip. I came to the company and met Tian Xin at the door. The customer service department went to work at half past seven, so she came very early. I looked at her and smiled happily and said "early" to her. Tian Xin smiled happily and replied to me "early ".

[Statement: the plot in the story is purely fabricated. If there are similarities, it is a coincidence]

(Note: All my articles are original articles. Please indicate the source for reprinting! Dao guangjianying 201000824 is written in Shenzhen .)