Written on the evening of the first workday of 4th Friday

I have been working for almost a month. I wanted to write something long ago to record my life. But people just have such a bad thing that they can do without doing it, today, we are able to overcome it for the moment.
Work, study, and life are used to study. In fact, "life" refers to emotional life, work, and study. A lot of things have happened in the past few weeks, and they have been swinging all the way. This taste is only known to you. I really want to focus on my work and forget everything in my life, but I don't seem to be able to do it. When I am idle, I still want to think less, sometimes I can't even extricate myself, and love and hate are intertwined, so uncomfortable and painful, but I still have to bear it silently. What can I do? I am responsible for my choice.
I smoke every night over the past few days. Once I go back to my sleeping place, I start to feel idle. Smoking smoke seems to take away some thoughts. This is not a habit, my friends have always warned me to be addicted. In fact, it doesn't matter to me. If there are other better ways, I think I will change it. If it's really unfortunate, it's okay, I want to give it a good idea. Some things may have to be experienced.
The next task is also crucial. It is the first large-scale task after my work that must be completed with high quality and quantity. because it is the first time that I don't expect a storm, but there is absolutely no error, I remembered it when I attended the Yu Shiwei management lecture in the past. This is also an opportunity for my colleagues to make a good impression. I really need to grasp it well.
Although my emotional life is terrible, I believe that my life is mine, not mine, there will be others waiting for me, and I have never taken the initiative. This is also my good quality, in other words, you should take the shot at the time, but remember not to take the shot at will. If it is really important to yourself, you do not have to worry about anything else, recognizing what is most important to myself is always a guideline for myself. I think I will stick to it all the time. After writing so much, I feel a little liberated. It can be comparable to two cigarettes. It is good and persistent.